I think my introduction to Chris started from Newgrounds. There'd be peppered references here and there that I didn't get, but I didn't remember long enough to look into. Images of Chris himself in animations, or art and references to Sonichu which I just assumed were DeviantArt, dime-a-dozen Sonic OC's.
My activity at Newgrounds waned, and I started brushing up on internet culture that happened outside of my usual traffic bubbles, and a lot of that was looking up paraphrased happenings from 4chan, and he was in it. Even linkhopping through Encyclopedia Dramatica lead me to understand what a lolcow was.
Thats when I got the jist about the cringeworthiness of the whole situation, and I found out about Spazkid's Sonichu Animated Series. I recognized him as an NG animator, and checked it out...I was baffled. I had thought, "Surely the shit they were making fun of was more hyperbole than based in fact. These guys are just being really mean to an autistic guy."
Then I discovered the CWCki.
As I stared deeper into the depths, the more I felt it staring back at me, and I walked away. Only scratching the surface with the Megan incident, Sonichu comics, and a few video gems that shone bright from CWCki archives.
I learned of his Tomgirl phase FROM the Sonic Boom, Gamestop Macing incident, and I realized there was so much more for me to discover.
There was that inferior Chris Chan youtube documentary. Then the Comprehensive History youtube documentaries...I wish those would resume, to be honest.
I feel like I'm sort of caught up, and when I exhausted the CWCki, I found myself lurking here. I cant explain why I'm so morbidly fascinated by the trainwreck, but it is an addictive spectacle. No doubt rooted in my own cringe from my own youthful awfulness, and hard lessons learned from observation and experience. A humbling reminder that it could always be worse, whether it applies to me or someone else.
I want him to succeed, despite everything. I want him to learn and grow in a "better late than never, best case scenario" fairytale unlikelihood. That would be legendary if he and friends he's met along the way can pull it off, but I'm aware at how ridiculous that seems.
If not, I could see him as a turbulent lesson and cautionary tale to people with learning disabilities / gullibility issues. A case study of a human being that unfolded in my lifetime. He's as old as one of my brothers and that always disturbed me.
But even as he tailspins downward, and the storms get darker for him, I just hope that he doesnt hurt anybody. Especially animals. But if he does snap I hope its toward a tryhard edgelord rando from the net that overstepped their bounds being cruel.
At this point, I just gotta see how the story ends.
