Keep in mind that when you get older you have much more to lose. I now have the mentality that everything i type on here could be used against me in a court of law, so i get this mental image of some prosecutor reading out all my instances of using the word nigger and faggot in a court of law, and the judge being a nigger faggot troon, starts hitting the gavel in a fit screaming guilty guilty guilty! Then i am taken to a re-education camp.
Good news is i have an inner monologue and do NOT has aphantasia, the bad news is i have an overactive imagination and no creative talent.