I remember watching some videos of this troon. At the end of xhis RE3 video he mentions that Jill's "You want STARS? I'll give you STARS" line inspired him to survive some heckin mental trauma. I think Resident Evil 3 is singlehandedly responsible for his trooning out.
Anyway, you need to find a girlfriend instead of these unhealthy obsessions. Relationships with trans people are usually toxic since trannies have many insecurities and so do men who date them. I will pay 200$ to a biologically female hooker so she forcibly tied you to a medical table and rode you until you became straight. You're welcome.