This thread was always autistic, but here's my farewell to you niggers.
All,
I have completely lost it. This is what you get when you take in a broken mind and manipulate it even more until it's just a cold vessel with no discernible emotions or ambitions or goals or really much of anything. If you haven't ended up like me, there's still time. There's still a chance that you can get the help you need and get out of here. Please. Go now, for your own good. I can't make you do anything though. That's all I want to tell you all. Don't take the same path I did. Don't end up like me. You'll spend the few days you have left fearing people who really want you dead. Killing time until it's the killing time. Wanting to redo every second of your life and not fucking it up like you did to get where you are now.
This is the bad ending for thebigjoel. I like to think somewhere else I ended up fine, but such a reality is only a dream. I guess we can find beauty in watching people fail. Just make sure you stay on the ball, because once you fall off - sometimes you can't get back.
This will be my last message anywhere. I'm not an autistic retard, at least not enough to shoot up a school or something. I'm just gonna leave and let you decide what you think happened to me. If you liked me around, wish the best. If you hated me, I've got good news. This is all a huge waste of time and I pity you for reading through this autistic wall of text. God bless all of your souls and godspeed. Shine on, all of you.
-thebigjoel
sorry L