The Stop Drinking (or using other substances) thread - Hello, my name is "kiwi farmer", and I am an alcoholic.

[666NASTYFUCKINGFREAK666]

On day two of no drinking. Need to stop drinking so I can drop 25lbs so I can start another bulk. 3 hours into the day someone tried to get me to drink and hid a bottle of vodka in my house (!?!?!?!) so thats nice.

Why are people so retarded?

Looking forward to more energy hopefully, I think @Ughubughughughughughghlug said something about that a long time ago.

 

[Get a Houseplant]

I'm on day 45 without drinking. I took Naltrexone (TSM) for 10 months (May 2024 to March 2025) and it fucking worked. It genuinely feels like a miracle, like I have been blessed by God. I went from drinking every single day for 5 or 6 years, to now never really thinking about alcohol and having about 1% of the desire to drink it that I did before.
I cannot recommend TSM and Naltrexone enough, it's unbelievably easy and works for something like 80% of people. Especially if you are predisposed genetically to alcoholism. I know I was and I truly thought I was doomed to drink everyday until I died.
I finally feel freedom from this horrible, life destroying, crushing burden.

 

[Burger Kong]

I'm on day 45 without drinking. I took Naltrexone (TSM) for 10 months (May 2024 to March 2025) and it fucking worked. It genuinely feels like a miracle, like I have been blessed by God. I went from drinking every single day for 5 or 6 years, to now never really thinking about alcohol and having about 1% of the desire to drink it that I did before.
I cannot recommend TSM and Naltrexone enough, it's unbelievably easy and works for something like 80% of people. Especially if you are predisposed genetically to alcoholism. I know I was and I truly thought I was doomed to drink everyday until I died.
I finally feel freedom from this horrible, life destroying, crushing burden.

Good to hear it worked for you. I think I've been on both Naltrexone and Gabapentin. Not sure which medication it was but I recall one of them giving me horrible nausea. Which was terrible because the feelings of nausea reminded me of when I was drinking which is the opposite of what I want when trying to go sober.

And the crazy thing is that when you're deep in addiction the easiest way to get rid of alcohol related nausea is to drink more alcohol. It sucks when people think you're throwing up because you've been drinking, when the truth is you don't throw up when you drink, you throw up when you DON'T drink. Difficult thing for people to understand.

 

[RuZZianWarCriminal]

Alright, figured I’d make a post to document this because I’m done with this shit.
I’ve been vaping weed constantly for almost 3-4 years. Same cycle over and over again, year after year. I got a new pen yesterday thinking it might hit different but nah, nothing. The high doesn’t even hit anymore. The only thing I was chasing at this point was that pain in the lungs, that exploding feeling in my chest. That’s literally all it was.
I threw the pen in my drawer and I’m trying to quit cold turkey now. Honestly, it’s hard as hell. Every single thing I used to do, I did while high. Now nothing feels fun, nothing feels satisfying. My brain is in that empty mode where it’s like… what now?

Nicotine? Hate it. Makes me feel sick.
Alcohol? Don’t really care. Last time I got shitfaced drunk was when I was 18.
Xanax? I liked it, but I was never addicted-addicted. I did a ton for a while just because I had a bunch, went through withdrawals once where i was laying in bed for a week and did not bother to get them since, if you told me I could never have Xanax again I’d honestly be like, “fine.”

Vaping weed feels worse than heroin or pills in a way. The addiction doesn’t just sit on its own it wires itself to everything. Eating, drinking, entertainment, going outside and even working. Literally every aspect of daily life becomes tied to that hit. It sneaks into your routine so deeply that when you quit, it feels like you’re not just giving up a substance, you’re unraveling your whole way of life. It’s like every little thing you did was under its influence, and now you’re trying to figure out how to function without it. That makes this process feel a lot harder, but I’m starting to see why it’s worth it.

Day 1 starts now!

 

[glioblastoma multiforme]

Vaping weed feels worse than heroin or pills in a way. The addiction doesn’t just sit on its own it wires itself to everything. Eating, drinking, entertainment, going outside and even working.

Weed is the drug I failed to quit the longest, possibly in part cos I didn't try heroin til a lot later. All addictions wire (I've had all the big ones to some extent except meth) themselves into every part of your life but the social acceptability of weed does make it more insidious.

I'm on day 3 of not drinking, not actually had any substance. My health is kicking my ass and I'm afraid.

I've had smack dreams both nights. That's always going to be my number 1 drug no matter how long its been since I've used it. Last night it was about poking about in my wrists. Something about the wrists that I don't understand makes them way worse than the other spots I used and I've felt nauseous all day from the memory.

Its been nearly 7 years since I last IV'd and 4 since I last did heroin. I can't even remember when I last had a drug dream so its weird to have such a vivid one. The stupid thing is, even though it was an awful dream, I fucking want it now so bad. Not gonna do it though, not worth it.

 

[Narrowback]

I'm not entirely sure if this is the right thread for it but I'm stopping oxycodone today and I'm feeling really nervous about it. I had multiple fractures and tendon tears in my foot that required reconstructive surgery with screws and plates, which necessitated a lot of pain management. I'm at the point where I'm needing to get off oxycodone but missing doses get me sweaty and puking. Could use a prayer or two.

 

[BallsMcLongDong]

I'm not entirely sure if this is the right thread for it but I'm stopping oxycodone today and I'm feeling really nervous about it. I had multiple fractures and tendon tears in my foot that required reconstructive surgery with screws and plates, which necessitated a lot of pain management. I'm at the point where I'm needing to get off oxycodone but missing doses get me sweaty and puking. Could use a prayer or two.

Prayin' for you, brother. I never had a recreational opiate problem. I'd take oxys and stuff for fun but never got addicted.
When I was younger, I snapped my leg in half in a wreck. While in the hospital, they had put me on Dilaudid IV for like 2 weeks straight. Then out of nowhere, they just shut it off.
I would not wish the withdrawals I got from that short 2 week stint on anyone, particularly lying in a hospital bed with a 90 pound cast.

 

[glioblastoma multiforme]

I'm not entirely sure if this is the right thread for it but I'm stopping oxycodone today and I'm feeling really nervous about it. I had multiple fractures and tendon tears in my foot that required reconstructive surgery with screws and plates, which necessitated a lot of pain management. I'm at the point where I'm needing to get off oxycodone but missing doses get me sweaty and puking. Could use a prayer or two.

Are you taking them as prescribed by a doctor? If so they should help you reducing and maybe switch you to something longer acting to help. That will mean you don't get sick so soon between each dose.

I don't know if this is comforting but the cluck isn't the most difficult. Its the not picking up again. If you aren't an addict, as in you don't have some underlying mental condition for which you are self medicating, its quite easy. Two people close to me have been given hefty opiate scripts and got through the withdrawals fine in the last few years.

Even I could do that and I'm a worthless fucking junkie. What I couldn't do until I got help was not score again straight away.

Don't give it more power than it deserves, it will feed any addictive tendency you might have.

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

Looking forward to more energy hopefully, I think @Ughubughughughughughghlug said something about that a long time ago.

I do not remember what you're referencing, but if you stop drinking you will be considerably less fatigued. Anecdotally, my brother was an alcoholic (far worse than me) and after three years of sobriety he describes feeling much better in every sense, which physical energy is part of.


Recently I had a pretty awful experience getting drunk on moonshine and I scared myself. I was playing with a gun, actually, not so much actually intending to shoot myself but familiarizing myself with it, get used to it. Things had seemed to turn around pretty well, and they did, really, but after a failed job search and some other setbacks and the prospective of working here another year, the idea of just not having to be alive anymore was appealing. Really just don't want to have to worry or make decisions anymore. I figured that if I ever did it it would be a spur-of-the-moment, impulsive thing, don't think about it, just do it. I guess a lot scarier and riskier but less mean would be driving myself over a cliff, look accidental. I accidentally put a bullet through my door and felt pretty bad about that. After that I looked up Alcoholics Anonymous. My impression was that my drinking was still pretty normal, but I hadn't actually tracked that, and what I knew of AA sounded nice (a sort of Deist auxiliary church in the same way as Freemasonry and Boy Scouts, description of a true alcoholic and its thoughts ring true in my ears).

I actually did go back and manage to, from my journal, reconstruct my pattern of drinking, and the truth of it was that I mostly fell within the FDA standards of a non-heavy-drinker. I think AA is probably not worth going to, or not often, but I like the idea of adopting its standard of behavior, as part of its worldview. I already think in terms of alcoholism being a personality trait, not a behavior, for example.