AlpacaNextOne
kiwifarms.net
- Joined
- Jul 3, 2019
Yeah I have done self-examining. I'm not going to go into detail on a public forum. I can point to many reasons why people wouldn't want to be around me. As far as other people go, I've done what I can to try to mitigate my personality to make it more palatable for normal people. I'm not trying to disparage anyone here, but if you are here your social skills probably aren't the greatest to begin with. I have a tendency to make observations that make people uncomfortable. My brother doesn't talk to me much anymore because I am not a huge fan of his girlfriend. If they have such a healthy relationship then why was she active on Tinder all last summer? I never told him because I didn't want to cause more of a divide between us. Especially when things have been good between us lately. It was actually another mutual friend that found that out and told me.
As far as the not having any other friends statement, that was more of a feeling. I did call another friend and talked to him. I know I have friends that I can call. It just feels lonely when I'm living roughly 2 hours away from any other friend I have with the one friend I can't count on right now. Yeah we do have a lot of mutual friends since going to college together, but I still have friends of my own.
Yes I have thought about if I am expecting too much. I can tell myself all day that I am not expecting too much but how will I ever really know? I have had 3 sit down conversations with him in the last 2 months explaining my feelings and asking him to be more open. He always told me he would try harder and that he was sorry. Never once took the opportunity to tell me the truth or if I am being a shitty friend.
Never assume I haven't put adequate thought into myself or any situation. This I say to the farms.
As far as the not having any other friends statement, that was more of a feeling. I did call another friend and talked to him. I know I have friends that I can call. It just feels lonely when I'm living roughly 2 hours away from any other friend I have with the one friend I can't count on right now. Yeah we do have a lot of mutual friends since going to college together, but I still have friends of my own.
Yes I have thought about if I am expecting too much. I can tell myself all day that I am not expecting too much but how will I ever really know? I have had 3 sit down conversations with him in the last 2 months explaining my feelings and asking him to be more open. He always told me he would try harder and that he was sorry. Never once took the opportunity to tell me the truth or if I am being a shitty friend.
Never assume I haven't put adequate thought into myself or any situation. This I say to the farms.