Aside from that, I came to lament that I've barely been able to write since becoming a mother. It was my greatest passion, my obsession, and now I fear the talent I had is slipping. Having a child changed my brain on a physiological level.
I never quite feel as though I can immerse myself while I'm at my toddler's beck-and-call. I know it'll get better someday as the kid ages, but I just found out I'm having another one, so my intellect's gonna go out the window all over again. Pregnancy retardation/fog/zombification is very real, and it hampered my writing ability for months. Since I can hardly write anymore, I've resorted to turn-based games and movies to keep myself sane.
Some advice to other creatives out there, apart from the obvious "having kids makes writing hard" advice—be extremely careful with psychiatric medications because they can take a piece of your soul away.
I was on a few different things after postpartum depression hit me like a truck. I'm not as creative or imaginative anymore, despite being clean for nearly a year

If I could somehow turn back the clock, I would've never taken that stuff. Your mind usually snaps back from growing babies, but not from pharmacuetical poisons.