Clefairy
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- Apr 15, 2014
I have been a lurker in Sonichu.com and thus forum for quite a while now. I want to make a confession; when I was 14 I was diagnosed with High-Functioning Autism. Unlike Chris however, my Autism was never an excuse for anything and my parents and stepmother were extremely critical of me; I was beaten and spanked by my mother, father, grandparents, aunts and uncles. I had a very isolated childhood; to cope with the violence I started to talk to myself, a lot.
I did I lot of things to show people I could do things in spite of my Autism; I was in the Boy Scouts, ROTC for two years in high school, studied martial arts. No matter what I did to "prove myself" to others, all the jobs I get were washing dishes, busing tables, and flipping burgers. I couldn't afford to go to college and all the budget in my state went to food stamps for people that don't work and have babies they can't (or won't take care of). I joined the National Guard and served during Katrina and Gustav. I went Regular Army and served a tour in Iraq.
I never did get treated like an adult; because so called "normal" people would harass me constantly about not being "cookie cutter"; I wasn't into loud parties, loud music, smoking, drinking, having kids out of wedlock. "Normal" people get away with so much, but I struggled to stay the course... I tried to go to school in the military, but I kept having extra work dumped on me (largely people would trash the place I work and had clean it up, had to help grunts doing their jobs for them, and having to stop and entertain people). My high school and Army unit were filled with overgrown children, people who are supposed to be adults. Most people don't care about their future at all. Most people who come to pick at me.
I am a nerd that likes RPGs, and I have different like/dislikes, fetishes, etc. I won't deny that. But I keep my personal problem/things to myself. When I go blow off steam I go to a corner. I keep my fantasies to myself and on my computer. I hate people that don't respect my privacy.
Then there's this guy, Chris. He does whatever he wants. This guy, who is a lazy bum who sits on his rear and plays childish game, I mean seriously I'm a hardcore gamer, but this guy doesn't even TRY to play a difficult game. Losers that play video games all day at least play good ones. Seriously Chris, Skylanders? Do this guy have any redeeming qualities even in a fantasy world? Just how much of a loser do you have to be to suck at games outside of Elementary school difficulty. Its the most precious thing to him and he won't even take care of it. And he gets a "tugboat". I don't get a monthly check for being disabled, even after being honorably discharged from the military. This is why I hate people sometimes. We take care of bums and criminals better than Military Veterans. I like video games and the like, but I still go out of the way to be an adult, because Coffee is for Closers.
Sorry if this may not belong here, I just wanted to get this off my chest and thought it would be a good place.
I did I lot of things to show people I could do things in spite of my Autism; I was in the Boy Scouts, ROTC for two years in high school, studied martial arts. No matter what I did to "prove myself" to others, all the jobs I get were washing dishes, busing tables, and flipping burgers. I couldn't afford to go to college and all the budget in my state went to food stamps for people that don't work and have babies they can't (or won't take care of). I joined the National Guard and served during Katrina and Gustav. I went Regular Army and served a tour in Iraq.
I never did get treated like an adult; because so called "normal" people would harass me constantly about not being "cookie cutter"; I wasn't into loud parties, loud music, smoking, drinking, having kids out of wedlock. "Normal" people get away with so much, but I struggled to stay the course... I tried to go to school in the military, but I kept having extra work dumped on me (largely people would trash the place I work and had clean it up, had to help grunts doing their jobs for them, and having to stop and entertain people). My high school and Army unit were filled with overgrown children, people who are supposed to be adults. Most people don't care about their future at all. Most people who come to pick at me.
I am a nerd that likes RPGs, and I have different like/dislikes, fetishes, etc. I won't deny that. But I keep my personal problem/things to myself. When I go blow off steam I go to a corner. I keep my fantasies to myself and on my computer. I hate people that don't respect my privacy.
Then there's this guy, Chris. He does whatever he wants. This guy, who is a lazy bum who sits on his rear and plays childish game, I mean seriously I'm a hardcore gamer, but this guy doesn't even TRY to play a difficult game. Losers that play video games all day at least play good ones. Seriously Chris, Skylanders? Do this guy have any redeeming qualities even in a fantasy world? Just how much of a loser do you have to be to suck at games outside of Elementary school difficulty. Its the most precious thing to him and he won't even take care of it. And he gets a "tugboat". I don't get a monthly check for being disabled, even after being honorably discharged from the military. This is why I hate people sometimes. We take care of bums and criminals better than Military Veterans. I like video games and the like, but I still go out of the way to be an adult, because Coffee is for Closers.
Sorry if this may not belong here, I just wanted to get this off my chest and thought it would be a good place.
