Has she ever talked about how embarrassed she is by her weight, or that it makes her want to stay shut in the house? That it gives her anxiety to go outside because she knows people are staring, laughing, etc.?
I'm just wondering if she actually has that shame and refuses to admit it, or if she genuinely has no shame.
I wanted to bring this up with her LA thing, but I do think some of her narcissism seeps through. One symptom of narcissism is thinking people are always watching you, people are jealous of you, etc, whatever. And in her case you can kinda see where it comes from, people do stare at her, watch her in public, she turns heads.
But her comment about how she wouldnt stand out so much vlogging in LA made me think she's more embarrassed about vlogging in public and she thinks that's the thing that's weird and why people are looking at her funny, because they think she's a crazy person talking to themselves! And yeah, I get some of the whole "vlogging in public" anxiety, you are kind of talking to yourself. But that's in your head, people will think youre on the phone or doing something, they would realize youre talking to a camera so youre probably not just talking to yourself. Even if they thought that, people see crazy people all the time, they dont really care, they arent judging you on that, and if they are, theyll probably forget after a while. The real reason theyre watching you is because theyre looking at the baby hippo duckfacing like a dainty princess. Crazy guys are a dime a dozen, people with "invisible" problems are easy to ignore, but you always remember the time you were stuck on the sidewalk behind the fattest person youve ever seen, with a huge shelf ass and you couldnt get around because they literally took up the entire thing.
I think she genuinely buys into the narrative that the media is toxic and promotes a shitty body image and self-perception (kind of true but that's for everybody and it's more about the models being models rather than not being morbidly obese), that the average woman is Becky's size and she's only a little bit bigger like maybe comparing a 200 lb 5'7 woman to a 150-something 5'5 lb woman. That the regular people who arent models or skinny bitches are just like her, have her same problems, weight is just a number because she isnt actually on My 600lb Life yet and if she gets to 600 Lbs and they dont scout her, she must not be that bad.
To me, she seems pretty insecure about it and things that shatter that view, which was why she was so hung up on thinking that
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