User 'Nykytyne3' / Blinski / Joe Muchlinski rants about his own parents in random threads - Took DXM, broke his brain, now gibbering about pedo conspiracies.

No, I swore off the stuff. Which sucks, because it honestly was a wonderful high. But you know, that last trip didn't go so great.

Fun fact- psychoactive drugs often have differing effects depending on the mental state and mood of the user. Just something for you to consider.

Unless you mean a different kind of trip. In which case, fuck me sideways.
 
What specifically were the "cocktail of mood stabilizers and antipsychotics" that they had put you on? Did you get a formal diagnosis when you were hospitalized?
 
What specifically were the "cocktail of mood stabilizers and antipsychotics" that they had put you on? Did you get a formal diagnosis when you were hospitalized?
Depakote, divalproex sodium, Abilify, hydroxyzine, and trazodone and were among the meds they gave me, but I can't remember if there were any others. The diagnosis was unspecified bipolar disorder and current psychotic manic state, rule out delusional disorder.

Basically the doc just noted my paranoid, manic behavior, immediately jumped to a bipolar diagnosis, and threw a bunch of pills at the problem. In all likelihood, all of my psychiatric symptoms could be actually ascribed to the DXM + freaking out b/c realized that someone close to me might be a dangerous sociopath.

I don't know which of the meds is responsible, but these pills fucked my shit up. It was like having endless restless leg syndrome, but with your whole body. I couldn't get comfortable no matter how I sat or lied down, and I had to keep moving to quell the discomfort. It was a nightmare. Once I got off the meds, it took several days to recover.
 
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How's your sleep? If you are getting eight hours a night with no problems getting to sleep or waking up in the early hours, then I might, for a moment entertain that you are not on a mania high or some other such altered state of mind.
If you are getting four hours a night or less but still feeling great, then that would speak volumes.
Edit fucking predictive text.
 
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How's your sleep? If you are getting eight hours a night with no problems getting to sleep or waking up in the early hours, then I might, for a moment entertain that you are not on a mania high or some other such altered state of mind.
If you are getting four hours a night or less but still feeling great, then that would speak volumes.
Edit fucking predictive text.
I have a normal sleep schedule at the moment. Lately, I've been going to bed at around 10:00 and waking up naturally at like 6:30.
 
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Never ever abruptly stop taking psych meds. Taper off with medical help, or if you're going to quit taking them against medical advice, self-taper.

If you come off of them too quickly you are much more likely to have a relapse of psychotic symptoms or to develop tardive psychosis.
 
Jesus Christ how autistic are you? I tried watching your livestream but it's too boring to care. 👎
 
This may be the saddest stream I've ever watched and it's only a couple of minutes in... Jesus fucking Christ guy...

Why? Why come here with this shit? What's with this constant pity parade? What do you hope to achieve by being a Tard and shilling it here?
 
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Jesus Christ how autistic are you? I tried watching your livestream but it's too boring to care. 👎
I've started to entertain the hypothesis that I may not be autistic at all, but rather just a little cracked in the head due to sexual abuse. Anyway, you can feel free to not watch the stream. It's not mandatory viewing. However, I think it's chalk full of really interesting discussion, thanks to the great people in the chat.
 
This may be the saddest stream I've ever watched and it's only a couple of minutes in... Jesus fucking Christ guy...

Why? Why come here with this shit? What's with this constant pity parade? What do you hope to achieve by being a Tard and shilling it here?
I'm not particularly worried about people like you thinking I'm pathetic or whatever. I really enjoyed doing the stream, and I posted it here because this is the Blinski thread after all, so I post Blinski content here. It really is that simple. If you don't want to hear what I have to say, no one is forcing you to be here.

I definitely had no intention of garnering pity. If that's the impression you got, it's surprising to me. I want to be very clear that I don't see myself as a victim, and I don't want sympathy. A little empathy would be nice, but sympathy is infantilizing and something I don't want.
 
I'm not particularly worried about people like you thinking I'm pathetic or whatever. I really enjoyed doing the stream, and I posted it here because this is the Blinski thread after all, so I post Blinski content here. It really is that simple. If you don't want to hear what I have to say, no one is forcing you to be here.

I definitely had no intention of garnering pity. If that's the impression you got, it's surprising to me. I want to be very clear that I don't see myself as a victim, and I don't want sympathy. A little empathy would be nice, but sympathy is infantilizing and something I don't want.
It's clear you are having a difficulty understanding on a fundamental level peoples negative reactions to you here on the farms . Let me spell it out for you:

This place you are at isn't for promoting your content, we all go out of our way to be anonymous, you could think of the farms as a place people come to point and laugh not try to bring attention to themselves in any direct way. Coming here and making your own thread in order to talk about yourself is really an weird choice to make.

I have seen a few people ask similar questions to the ones I've asked above and you don't give a direct answer your statement continues to be "if you don't like it then leave"

Nigger we are trying to help you... You came here to shill this shit not the other way around, I'm guessing no one on this entire forum would know who you were if you hadn't come here and started making a spectacle of yourself. Do you realize the reputation of the place you are currently in? What do you hope to gain out of coming here and doing this? Can you see how we might find what you are doing as strange?

You've come to a place where just by making an account you put a target on your back there are COUNTLESS warnings about this all over the site.

I'll repeat my questions yet again:

Why are you doing this? What are you hoping to achieve here?
 
I don't know which of the meds is responsible, but these pills fucked my shit up. It was like having endless restless leg syndrome, but with your whole body. I couldn't get comfortable no matter how I sat or lied down, and I had to keep moving to quell the discomfort. It was a nightmare. Once I got off the meds, it took several days to recover.

This is called akathisia. As you now know, it is an absolutely debilitating symptom of drug withdrawal, and is commonly experienced when abrupt changes are made in one's antipsychotic treatment (sudden increase or decrease in dosage). It is very dangerous to stop antipsychotic/antidepressant treatment without medically-supervised tapering. Since I suspect you may be medicated again in the future, I implore you not to make such a risky decision again.

I'm glad you're feeling better, but as you've acknowledged, most of us are understandably concluding that you're in a manic state. This is why many people in manic states don't seek treatment, because it feels good. I encourage you to take to heart what others have said about the role of projection in conspiracist delusion -- is it possible that your mind has concocted this belief in nefarious pedophilic plots because you yourself have admittedly struggled with deviant sexual impulses? No wonder you feel free, your belief system conveniently dumps responsibility for your problematic impulses on others. If you were groomed to be deviant, then it absolves you of the shame you feel for turning out the way you did. I can understand how attractive this belief system must be for you, because it explains everything so conveniently; but sadly it's already led you astray and had a significant negative impact on your life. I hope things improve for you, and that you put some thought into what we're saying while you're still in a lucid state and can make the choice to seek help voluntarily.
 
Attention feels really good to narcissistic drug abusers.
Is that the extent of this? It doesn't matter if the attention is good or bad he just wants it all... I'll be honest the opening of the stream lamenting that he isn't famous is really weird and delusional sounding, making videos for an audience (I'd wager that are exclusively kiwis) and talking about wanting fame on the very same stream is beyond the pale of Looney toons. This makes me feel concerned but as @Exigent Circumcisions has said, who am I to stop a cow that wants to dance for free
 
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