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- Jan 22, 2021
Chapter 10: Love Conquers All
https://nesmith.net/soft-rains
Since beginning this journey after my ex-wife left me on Easter day in 2010, I have had very few supporters. Most of the feedback that I would receive from others was hateful. I was just trying to make philosophy videos about all the most important subjects that I have discovered in this life. Ultimately, I was looking for a wife, so I poured out my soul on camera time and time again in hopes to find one of like heart and mind. I used my videos and books as a methodology to connect with those who feel similar. But absurdity struck as very few were interested in being my friend and the majority were only interested in abusing me.
The ideologies that command our mental functioning do not concern themselves in truth. What one believes will determine their future actions. What is "truth" when "lies" can create a better outcome? If I am to trick myself into believing that Wendy is real, then what is the result of that? And what is the worst case scenario? Eventually I will find out the truth. I am not stupid. I can see very far. If Wendy is not who she says she is then what will my life look like post-Wendy?
I have already stated that I would stop looking for a wife if my relationship with Wendy fails. But romance is built within me. If Wendy fails then I will stop looking for a wife in real life and instead just continue to try and romance the camera. Because the subjects in which I investigate are important to the future potential of the human species. I will spend the rest of my life trying to connect with one female but hopefully reaching many of them.
The mode in which we think will determine our future actions. Is it really so bad to believe in a lie when the alternative is to believe in something that will result in a less positive result? And what is truth? If I become a better and wiser person because I believed in a lie, then are you sure that the proposed "lie" is actually a lie? Is truth not beauty and greatness? Is truth not doing the morally right thing?
I have perceived my situation all wrong. So many haters abusing me and I take their comments to heart. This causes strain between me and my enemies. That was the problem though, perceiving my haters as enemies. Having enemies was my mistake from the beginning. Because they can only be my enemies if I emotionally respond to their insults. If, however, I embrace my haters and welcome them to say anything about me that they desire, then they are no longer my enemies. They can't hurt me when I welcome their negative behaviour. The best way to win the war is through love. Because true love expresses that love to all.
So go ahead and hate on me. Get it all out of your system. Use me as your punching bag. I know the world is tough and it helps to take your anger and frustration out on someone. So take it out on me. I welcome your punches with open arms. Maybe if I allow you to abuse me then one day you might recognise the problems in which I identify. Despite my haters being really stupid, at least they are watching some of my work. It is better for them to watch my work than to watch evil mainstream propaganda. No publicity is bad publicity. If they are watching my work instead of mainstream trash, then I have done my job despite what they think about me.
From the beginning of this adventure, my mission was to wear my heart on my sleeve on camera and in real life. If Wendy fails, will there be another girl out there that would want to be my wife? Will there be a woman who saw my relationship with Wendy unfold and will still love me? Is it possible for a wife to find me who will empathise with the subjects I have tackled?
I don't care about age. I targeted the younger generation because they are more receptive to these topics. Age is just a number as long as the couple can live a long life together. My father told me a story that disgusted me. My father was helping a 91 year old man who had recently fallen and while helping him the man told my father that he was romantically with a 19 year old girl. What kind of life would they be able to have together? And what motivations could there be for a 19 year old to romantically be with a 91 year old?
Collective beliefs manifest many robots. Individual beliefs create gods. Whatever it is that you believe, assess its value to your life. A bleak vision will result in failed crops. A Divine vision will result in god-like behaviour. What does it matter if the basic tenets of your psychological foundations are not based in what society considers "truth". Truth is made through the manifestation of Divine characteristics. All else is vanity. There is a lot in this world to distract from true purpose, enlightenment found only in its rejection. The mode in which we are booted up every morning will determine future potential.
I have acted like Pygmalion for this entire journey. But I think it is time to now hang that hat up. Because I don't pray to Venus or Aphrodite to give me a wife. I pray to God to give me a wife. I pray to God to set me up with the coolest girl ever. If Wendy is true, please make it happen. If she is not, please lead my future wife to me. Dear God, please give me a kind and compassionate wife.
https://nesmith.net/soft-rains
Since beginning this journey after my ex-wife left me on Easter day in 2010, I have had very few supporters. Most of the feedback that I would receive from others was hateful. I was just trying to make philosophy videos about all the most important subjects that I have discovered in this life. Ultimately, I was looking for a wife, so I poured out my soul on camera time and time again in hopes to find one of like heart and mind. I used my videos and books as a methodology to connect with those who feel similar. But absurdity struck as very few were interested in being my friend and the majority were only interested in abusing me.
The ideologies that command our mental functioning do not concern themselves in truth. What one believes will determine their future actions. What is "truth" when "lies" can create a better outcome? If I am to trick myself into believing that Wendy is real, then what is the result of that? And what is the worst case scenario? Eventually I will find out the truth. I am not stupid. I can see very far. If Wendy is not who she says she is then what will my life look like post-Wendy?
I have already stated that I would stop looking for a wife if my relationship with Wendy fails. But romance is built within me. If Wendy fails then I will stop looking for a wife in real life and instead just continue to try and romance the camera. Because the subjects in which I investigate are important to the future potential of the human species. I will spend the rest of my life trying to connect with one female but hopefully reaching many of them.
The mode in which we think will determine our future actions. Is it really so bad to believe in a lie when the alternative is to believe in something that will result in a less positive result? And what is truth? If I become a better and wiser person because I believed in a lie, then are you sure that the proposed "lie" is actually a lie? Is truth not beauty and greatness? Is truth not doing the morally right thing?
I have perceived my situation all wrong. So many haters abusing me and I take their comments to heart. This causes strain between me and my enemies. That was the problem though, perceiving my haters as enemies. Having enemies was my mistake from the beginning. Because they can only be my enemies if I emotionally respond to their insults. If, however, I embrace my haters and welcome them to say anything about me that they desire, then they are no longer my enemies. They can't hurt me when I welcome their negative behaviour. The best way to win the war is through love. Because true love expresses that love to all.
So go ahead and hate on me. Get it all out of your system. Use me as your punching bag. I know the world is tough and it helps to take your anger and frustration out on someone. So take it out on me. I welcome your punches with open arms. Maybe if I allow you to abuse me then one day you might recognise the problems in which I identify. Despite my haters being really stupid, at least they are watching some of my work. It is better for them to watch my work than to watch evil mainstream propaganda. No publicity is bad publicity. If they are watching my work instead of mainstream trash, then I have done my job despite what they think about me.
From the beginning of this adventure, my mission was to wear my heart on my sleeve on camera and in real life. If Wendy fails, will there be another girl out there that would want to be my wife? Will there be a woman who saw my relationship with Wendy unfold and will still love me? Is it possible for a wife to find me who will empathise with the subjects I have tackled?
I don't care about age. I targeted the younger generation because they are more receptive to these topics. Age is just a number as long as the couple can live a long life together. My father told me a story that disgusted me. My father was helping a 91 year old man who had recently fallen and while helping him the man told my father that he was romantically with a 19 year old girl. What kind of life would they be able to have together? And what motivations could there be for a 19 year old to romantically be with a 91 year old?
Collective beliefs manifest many robots. Individual beliefs create gods. Whatever it is that you believe, assess its value to your life. A bleak vision will result in failed crops. A Divine vision will result in god-like behaviour. What does it matter if the basic tenets of your psychological foundations are not based in what society considers "truth". Truth is made through the manifestation of Divine characteristics. All else is vanity. There is a lot in this world to distract from true purpose, enlightenment found only in its rejection. The mode in which we are booted up every morning will determine future potential.
I have acted like Pygmalion for this entire journey. But I think it is time to now hang that hat up. Because I don't pray to Venus or Aphrodite to give me a wife. I pray to God to give me a wife. I pray to God to set me up with the coolest girl ever. If Wendy is true, please make it happen. If she is not, please lead my future wife to me. Dear God, please give me a kind and compassionate wife.
Is he deaded?