"Disenfranchised Furfag"
I am but a dying breed among my community. The last of their kind. Hailing from an era when our numbers were small, and we were often the target of pretty much any and all hate/trolling groups online. Places like Something Awful targeted us with extreme prejudice and forced all their furry goons to wear giant "YIFF" stars as a mark of shame before banning every single one of them. "Furfag" was the worst insult you could use, same as "yiff in hell", and hadn't yet been reclaimed as a term of endearment. We had no redemption, only each other, and we stayed closely knit in sharing our common threads. Zarla's animation "Reanimator" became our anthem much to her dismay, but she was a good sport about it. We had the ability to be self-aware, referencing internal fandom nuisances and wrongdoings through things like CrushYiffDestroy and The Burned Furs. Fursuits and costumes were too expensive to be practical so we wore silly animal shirts with conbadges and hung out in the lobbies of hotels during one of two big conventions. Sex was embraced but respectably kept under wraps, civility was for the most part upheld and the raciest thing you'd find on display in a dealer's den was a skunk or fox girl in skimpy clothing.
Something happened. Times changed. No longer am I surrounded by the responsible twentysomethings with cushy IT jobs, but instead high schoolers and young adults with a myriad of personal and developmental issues and a bunch of crazies who've slowly but surely steered our vessel astray and left it to aimlessly meander through the vast oceans of society's seedy underbelly. I'm not resentful so much for having lost my youth, but rather having lost my "home". I'm still here, but the neighborhood has changed. Gentrification, urban decay, something along that road; call it what you will, but the end result isn't pretty. The younger people in today's fandom acknowledge me, but since I'm older than them they treat me -- us, rather -- like we're old creepers, instead of welcoming us back into the fandom we blazed the trail for all those years ago.
Sometimes I kick around the archives of VCL, for old time's sake. If my mood is in the right kind of alignment it feels like it did back in the day, back when I'd impatiently wait for new artwork from my friends and favorite artists to come through my 56K. Today, we have each other, just like we did when Clinton was still in office. I guess in some weird sense, things haven't really changed at all.