Your brain is probably fucked up. Maybe you don't exercise, eat like shit, or are just lazy. Regardless, every weirdo nihilistic dipshit I've met has had an easy life compared to people who were way worse off and still managed to make something of themselves. You should make yourself as uncomfortable as possible via a strict schedule, hard exercise, rigid diet, and learn to appreciate life. As an aside, nobody will tell you the meaning of life because nearly everyone had to work to find out what their individual reason was. This is simplifying the process a great deal, but you get the idea - if I told you the reason I get out of bed every morning, it would be meaningless to you, or I'm guessing you'd say something like "but that's so meaningless, what about........................."