- Joined
- May 21, 2019
By those metrics that one seemed like a fed rather than an informant because the routine itself was very polished and slick for the most part, but thinking back on it she did have that unnerving SSRI zombie stare if you caught her looking at you before she could put on a more human expression and a pleasant but too even type of speech pattern that came off more like someone trying really hard to not break character rather than having any actual emotions. There were also some times when the meds or whatever probably wore off in the middle of some of our interactions, because she'd suddenly lose all her charm and go from being completely unflappable to noticeably anxious for no particular reason. This was all in person and in public, none of it online, by the way.you have to ask if you are dealing with an informant or an agent. Informants are usually felons doing somthing to get out of a sentence. If your dealing with an agent typically federal employees have the best health care available in the US, and are riding high on SSRI's and a coctail of 12 experimental drugs diagnosed on them not for illness, but because there coverage can afford it and doctor proscribes it.
I find local State Cops are the same way adult children on drugs that make them borderline Psychotic/ retarded.
In some ways the palpable strangeness of those encounters was the only thing that made her attractive at the time because no one with that particular set of fucked up psychological attributes ever put so much effort into flirting with me prior to that. In retrospect there was a visibly rehearsed sociopathic quality to her and in looking into those soulless eyes of hers the sense that she might have even killed someone not too long before approaching me is probably what immediately turned me on so much as a (unbeknownst to me back then) misattributed fight or flight reaction.