It sounds more like you found meaning than ideas. Because ideas, by their nature, only have value if they are understood. If they're understood, they can be described. If it's incomprehensible, it's more akin to religion. I am religious, I'm not intending this as downtalking to you. But it's not really part of philosophy, a love of knowledge, not even really theology, because that too is an endeavor of understanding,
In other words, I'm glad you found meaning man, but what does this have to do with philosophy?