Your most unusually traumatic memory - or the night you heard your dog say "Chaos reigns."

The first time I got really devastatingly high, I hallucinated bizarre stained glass animals everywhere I looked. For some reason, it was terrifying. I've done plenty of real hallucinogens since then, but nothing has ever made me trip as hard as that weed. I wish I could go back and do it again now that I know how to handle my shit.
 
I had a gay experience in Summer Camp when I was 7. My bunkmates were experimenting, and made me their mo-fo unwilling guinea pig. I was blindfolded during the whole thing, feeling an 8-year old's dick up my ass. I was not thrilled from the ordeal. But last January I became curious from the recalling of the feeling, so I asked Jerry to show me a night. At first it was neutral, then he made out with me; his breath was minty with a hint of garlic from something he ate; it was cool with me. Then he told me to suck his dick, and I did; the taste and sight did not thrill me. And he sucked mine. He got a rise out of me, but then I started to feel uneasy. It was minor at first, and I promised myself I'd see this through. Finally, he was in me doggy style. As he humped me, I was feeling it both in my penis, and in my gut; worsening as he went on. And eventually, I embarrassed myself grossly. I came AND fucking threw up simultaneously. Jerry had not come yet himself, and out of respect, he withdrew himself and asked me if I was okay. He cleaned me, and my mess on his floor up. I felt soo damn ashamed, but Jerry was kind and understanding to me. And it was then I confirmed it for myself that I was not gay, and Jerry and Dino agreed with me. So with that, I was able to move forward feeling more confident in my orientation.
 
Pft.

Life it self.

Jokes aside 2 of them were seeing someone fake drowning during a scuba rescue class. It knew it was an act but still freaked me out, other watching a deer drown in blood. I'm upset typing this. drowning is gross, in blood harder. It's part of hunting but you see that and the throws.


Aside setting broken bones on myself, and on family members who were abused worse than I.
 
I tried to smoke dang nug and got hit with the THC Tremors.
Same thing happened to me and it wasn't even my first time smoking. Before, I would have no serious positive or negative side effects, just an overall slight numbness of my emotions. This time, I had no idea what to do. My teeth were nonstop chattering and the concept of time got really wonky for a couple minutes, too. I had to drive a friend home that day and it was starting to get late, still drove them home but I was panicking the entire time. I honestly thought I was about to see myself die, either in a car crash or some other freak accident. This lasted until I went to sleep at the end of the day. I stopped smoking completely after that.

Being a college aged kid was dumb. 1/10 never again.
 
Considering a good portion of my life was a nightmare, I'm mostly numb to it and rarely feel anything but "Oh, this shit again" when something dangerous or crazy happens.
We have lots of "affordable housing"around this zipcode so there's lots of recently discharged nursing home (the crazy people kind) fucks around.
There may be a Chris Chan type in my midst I've yet to encounter. I do see extremely pathetic Mama's boys types on tugboat day, some of these "men" seem like they are devoid of any sexuality whatsoever.
 
When I found this staring at me from the abandoned kennel
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When I was a kid I saw one of the first episodes of Star Trek Voyager to have Species 8472. Ever since then I have uncontrolable fear of being in a well lit room at night without the curtains drawn. I get the same type of fear when I watch videos about UFOs too since then.
 
When I was three or so, I was playing hide and seek and hid in a closet that had the folding type doors. I pulled it shut and somehow managed to catch my thumb in the crease as the doors closed so that the skin split opened completely on the pad of my thumb. I think it has stuck in my head because I haven't had that many injuries that broke the skin so this is one of the worst looking injuries I ever had.

Just blood and skin opened in ways they shouldn't, and toddler me being totally horrified by it.
 
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