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Today, I’m more concerned at the state of the music industry when fans of it are seriously comparing Drake in his current state to the success of Michael Jackson.

How in any way is this:


comparable to this?


I know it’s just only people on social media typing this out, but it still doesn’t change the fact that it’s still wrong and very short-sighted.
 
I've somehow slept through the entire fucking year only having energy during the 3AM-4AM periof of the day and can still not find a fucking job that will hire me or anyone that will buy the wares I try selling to this bitch of a world while people scream mainstream politics narratives at me from all angles of life but yeah I'm alive
 
I feel like I just ran a fucking marathon. My landlord called me this morning to inform me that he had to cancel my lease because the city was late on the permit to rent the property. I was supposed to move Saturday morning. Out of sheer luck, it just happened that a friend was looking for a room mate. I was pretty excited to be out in my own place, but given the choice between having a room mate and being homeless, I'll take the room mate.
 
Spent the entire week visiting family and playing with my niece. That little girl is absolutely amazing and her mom is a badass who will do everything she can to protect her kids from being masked and jabbed.

Gives me hope for the future.
Gotta protect them from everyone in the LGB+ spectre too, as not only troons are retarded.
 
I got a simple case of the common cold. Really not a big deal, but it did interfere with my performance at working from home today since my energy levels were a lot lower than usual and I feel bad about that much.
WFH.. Treat yourself to a lay down and Netflix™ episode of your fav show. - DR Autizzy
 
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I've been happier. I'm really surprised considering my mental health took a tank.

I've been making lots of progress and have an art exhibit today, life's been so much better than what it was before. It's nice, and I hope everyone feels how I'm feeling one day.
 
Welp, grandma is going to be at my parents place this Xmas. I really don't want to go home, but the temptation is too big. They have recently gotten a bathtub, which I love and don't have at my place.
Planning to smuggle home some vodka, just to be buzzed out at the worst times. And fuck, I have to keep the place clean, because they only keep it tidy for Xmas and New Years. Not a germaphobe by all means, but more like mess and bread crumbs at the floor in the kitchen. And I dislike socks when at home.
 
I was engaged to a woman I was with for 6+ years. That relationship fell apart the weekend before covid hit, so I had a wonderful time this past year and change...

Finally got in a place to try dating again a couple of months ago. Did the whole tinder thing. Went on a couple of first dates that I thought went decent enough, never had a second one.

Then last week I matched with someone that had potential. We chatted back and forth for a couple of days, met up and had a great time (or so I thought). She was attractive, funny, smart. We were supposed to meet up again this weekend. Texted her yesterday to hammer out the details. Completely ghosted.

I can't help but feel defeated. The whole thing makes me feel like I'm not good enough, I've got no substance, I'm unattractive. Sure I can land a first date, but then they meet me and nope... Plus it's making me take the end of my engagement even harder. Maybe she was the only one that could put up with me, until she couldn't either. Groovy feelings.
 
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I was engaged to a woman I was with for 6+ years. That relationship fell apart the weekend before covid hit, so I had a wonderful time this past year and change...

Finally got in a place to try dating again a couple of months ago. Did the whole tinder thing. Went on a couple of first dates that I though went decent enough, never had a second one.

Then last week I matched with someone that had potential. We chatted back and forth for a couple of days, met up and had a great time (or so I thought). She was attractive, funny, smart. We were supposed to meet up again this weekend. Texted her yesterday to hammer out the details. Completely ghosted.

I can't help but feel defeated. The whole thing makes me feel like I'm not good enough, I've got no substance, I'm unattractive. Sure I can land a first date, but then they meet me and nope... Plus it's making me take the end of my engagement even harder. Maybe she was the only one that could put up with me, until she couldn't either. Groovy feelings.
Dating websites are a waste of time and the people on there are shallow. You are good enough. She clearly wasn’t.
 
I got the COVID back on Sept. 3rd and spent the next week throwing the kitchen sink at it. However, I ended up in the hospital for 14 days. I also had/have viral pneumonia in both lungs. Came close to dying the first days in the hospital and was transferred to ICU, and spent 8 days in there. I had to fight like a motherfucker every single day to keep getting on the other side of the death spiral. Luckily, god has other plans for me, and I'm now home on oxygen. I have zero energy but my lungs are healing.

Being in the hospital surrounded by so much death has changed my perspective on life. Getting so close to dying myself forced me to choose between fighting and giving up. My first ICU doctor recommended that I go on the vent, and I told him to literally to get fucked. I knew they couldn't do it without my consent, and I told him that I would die on my feet and not my knees. So I got up from the bed and sat in a chair for hours, I ate everything in front of me. I prayed a lot, and talked to god even more. I got angry seeing so many veterans being wheeled out under a sheet. The staff in my hospital were amazing caregivers. They saw I was willing to fight and they carried me through. I'm a very humbled man to know them, they saved my life. I owe them to try to live better for myself and my family from now on.
 
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