Also she clearly tries to jump the line.
Yeah, her exaggerated attempts to minimize her own actions, and thus make herself a victim whose rage is totally justified, is so transparent here. I'd feel embarrassed for her if she wasn't such a noxious bitch.
And I 100% thought the finger wave was for being fat in the drive thru. At least that is understandable to make you mad, this is dumb as shit
I legit thought she was bent out of shape because some guy wagged his finger at her because she's obese and was getting more shit food. And as a fat, this offended her immeasurably.
I'm sure she already had some awareness that she was the very stereotype of a filthy, unwashed fatty, going through a fast-food drive-thru because she was too lazy to make her own breakfast or lunch. It probably wasn't entirely conscious, but I'm sure it was there.
And then she either intentionally tried to cut the line, or started to do so due to inattention, and when that guy wagged his finger at her, it wasn't just about her jumping the line (which it probably was, for him). If it was, she would have been annoyed, but it wouldn't have led to this massive chimpout.
No. Some part of her mind, the one that still has a grasp on the hideous, repressed reality of her life, jumped to the conclusion that he was also finger-wagging her for being a gross, sloppy fatty about to order enough fast food for six normal-sized humans (assuming she was buying for Juliana as well), and she just lost her shit.
On some level, she knows she's disgusting and pathetic, no matter how steadfastly she denies it and tries to mask it as empowerment. You can't tell me she doesn't feel at least a twinge of anxiety and fear of being judged, every time she hits a drive-thru and orders a huge amount of food. Some part of her is still aware that how she's living her life is fucked up and wrong, and no matter how she tries to buffer herself against it, there will be small incidents—such as a simple finger-wagging gesture—that cause it to break through. And when that happens, her immediate response can only be a tsunami of rage, rage that is totally outsized to the event at hand—because it isn't really about the event itself, but rather about unexpectedly having the lid pulled back on her true inner state.
I grew up watching a Narc explode into rages just like Corissa's, at bafflingly trivial provocations—and then the demonization and scapegoating of whoever had inadvertantly detonated their hidden reserves of rage. They were far more likely to do so, it should be noted, during times when they were feeling thwarted and trapped, and not getting adequate narcissistic supply.
Corissa's just moved into her own house, which should be occasion for happiness, pride, and satisfaction (even with the stresses involved), but here she is: unwashed, unkempt, riddled with acne, looking unhealthier than we've ever seen her. She looks deeply depressed, which for Narcs is a mask for feelings of failure, and having made the wrong choices. But Narcs can't cope with failure, and are never wrong, so they end up discharging those feelings onto other, more convenient targets. And in this case, a cis white male wagging an admonishing finger at her for line-cutting was all it took to set her off.
People who have frequent chimp outs over the most insignificant things; generally loathe themselves and are projecting their anger outwards.
Yeah, Narcissists and other Cluster Bs are filled with unacknowledged, unaddressed self-loathing and shame, as well as rage and resentment (Borderliners also have an intense fear of rejection and abandonment).
It can all come roaring to the surface, given the right trigger, because Cluster Bs have problems with emotional regulation. But they are incapable of ever seeing that they even have problems with rage, much less that it is internalized (part of their inner state at all times); instead, they externalize it, projecting it onto somebody or something else that has "made" them angry.