Lowtax was:
-mentally ill
-clearly had a personality disorder on top of his mental illness
-an addict
-extremely lazy
-extremely immature (I don't just mean his sense of humor; I mean he was chronically incapable of 'adulting' and was terrible with money)
-used to leading a lavish lifestyle
-situationally conflict averse (for all his aggressive bravado, shit talking and GOOFTROOP irony when he had power during a conflict, he would take any conflict he didn't have the power to will himself the victor of extremely hard and let it eat away at him -- dude was still bitter at Uwe Boll a decade and a half after everyone else stopped caring)
-spoiled and used to getting his way, either via throwing SA money at problems until they went away or having his mom bail him out
-physically, verbally, emotionally and financially abusive to his romantic partners
-bereft of any marketable skills or real world job experience, due to his years of not working
-an unlikable asshole with no actual friends whose social life came solely from lording over a forum of trannies and autists
So, with all that established, lets look at his life over the past year:
-his marriage fell apart and he started banging a girl only a few years removed from being in High School who was even more mentally ill than he was; I fully believe his string of wives and girlfriends over his life helped him manage his medication and did pretty much 100% of the 'adulting' in the household, so in their absence, his mental health started to tail spin and his addiction ramped up further
-his income contracted by something like 90+% from its previous level, practically overnight
--compounding that, a bunch of his assets were put in escrow due to his impending divorce
-despite the income woes, he continued living the same lavish lifestyle and basically pissed away all his savings because he fundamentally did not know any different way to live
-he had conflicts with the law, the courts, both of his ex-wives AND Logan, etc. and didn't have the power to make them just 'go away' like he did for conflicts on SA; instead, he stewed on them -- and if he's still so angry and bitter about Uwe Boll, you can imagine how much moreso he was over all this
-he tried half-heartedly to look for a job, but his laziness and immaturity relegated the job hunt to basically consist of hitting up Facebook friends in his area and asking if they had any leads
-the few job prospects he did happen upon nope'd out after finding out his history of abuse
-and as he had no friends, he had no system of support once he was banished from the forums
He then gets hit with a VERY unfavorable divorce ruling that not only strips him of the rest of his savings, establishes a steep amount of child and spousal support for the next 2 or 3 years but also , I think more crucially than it's been given credit for so far, completely obliterated his "Courts have never said I'm abusive or engage in domestic violence, so suck on that gooftroop" narrative that he's clung to like a life raft in an ever more stormy sea ever since the Logan debacle when the judge ruled that he engaged in domestic abuse.
Lowtax was nuts, bitter, in the throes of severe mental illness and addiction, and his life had fallen apart completely in just about every way imaginable. No doubt in his mind, everything had been taken from him; even his "well, at least I've never been found to be legally abusive" narrative. He was an atheist and so had no religious motivation to not kill himself. He had guns. He probably felt he only had one option that would give him any control over the situation and hurt those that had hurt him, so he took it.
