1. So much for being a champion of all women. This guy is bad, just bad bad bad bad bad, so bad, you guise, that Chinny had to be cracked out just to deal with it. But fuck it, she can't find the
time in between sourcing her next dinner energy necessary to take a dangerous criminal off the streets to prevent him from victimizing another helpless female. You're on your own, bitches. It ain't Chinny's job to take care of you--it's hard enough just trying to
feed and bathe take care of herself.
2. Yes, it's been said, but you aren't "in it" on the first
date hookup (edited per
@Whizzbang Wallop), and if you are, you're the one with the problem, not him. She looks up and around the room a lot here as she discusses this particular topic, rather than down and to the left, where she accesses emotions. I think she's trying to recall what she's read or heard people say about their own experiences, and she's just regurgitating bullet points.
3. There's no such thing as being addicted to someone "for the right reasons." Addictions in general are bad, whether it's a drug addiction, a sex addiction, or an addiction to buying random shit off QVC.
4.
@Rotogravure mentioned the reflection of the ring light in her teeth, and now I can't look at anything else.
Will add more later--working.
5. Huge eye block when she mentions therapy, and lots of single shoulder-shrugging. We already know she's lying--this is just further evidence.
6. FYI--she's not detoxing from THC, she's coming down from cocaine.
7. Massive eye block again when she says she wasn't legally allowed to talk about the case. I still believe she was reported, and the cops called her and warned her that if she didn't shut up about it, and essentially leave Nugly and Deeds alone, she would be prosecuted for harassment.
8. Eye block around "what he's done to me." Lie. Later on, eye block around using drugs to cope with "what he's done to me." She isn't lying about the drug use, she's lying about the reason for using the drugs, and what he did to her.
9. Admits she was out of her mind on drugs most of the time when she was dealing with Nugly's "abuse." Not all of the bad bad bad bad stuff happened before she purportedly quit using, Furthermore, she doesn't say "coke," she says "drugs." I think she just admitted (albeit by accident) to using more drugs than cocaine, and after the day she supposedly quit. Not that we had a shed of doubt before this.
10. It's hard to look at herself, actually, when she was so high in all those streams? Huge eye block. And for good reason. Chinny a) doesn't watch her old streams, and b) doesn't feel shame.
X.
11. She's got a whole new lease on life, guise, and she's gonna start off by making a recorded video (

) about her ex (

) to discuss dropping the
false charges (

) because her mental health is just so bad (um...

?). So she feels great and things are gonna turn around, but she's giving up because she's just so weak and helpless. This "whole new lease on life" just sounds like a comedown to me.
12. She's never been in this situation before--several eye blocks. Again, that one makes sense--we
know she's been in this situation before with a previous aggressive partner, unless of course she was lying about that as well.
13. When she starts talking about the case (from filing it up until it started to "feel like a joke"), she suddenly begins to gesticulate. This is the first time in this video. I don't know what it means--is she story telling? This is a baseline behavior, but is it a baseline when she's lying, or just when she's upset about something?
14. She eye blocks through the entire phrase "I don't know what my motivation to go to the police was" and again at "a perfect storm of things." She knows why she went, 100%. And so do we!
15. I don't know why I'm surprised to hear her characterize Deeds being at the trap as "emotional torment" or that she finds it sufficient justification to file a police report. This is the same woman who had an actual meltdown over a night out, and considers a raised voice "abusive."
16. When she talks about Nugly making fun of her online, the hand starts to go again, but it does something different this time. She makes a superficial adjustment to her headscarf, touches her face, touches her chin, touches her sternal notch (or close to it--she probably can't find it under the fat). I believe this--I think she really did feel bad about what he was saying and doing.
17. Eye blocking at "drug use" and "sex", which might indicate shame (however subverted) over these topics. Also at "meant to be a Tinder hookup," which could be shame
(X.) or a lie.
18. Big eye block at "abuse." Accessing memory (or imagination), not emotion, as you would expect. Upward intonation, rather than emphatic downward inflection. Time hiding (went from "didn't expect him to get doxxed" to "the abuse kept happening"? Durr, you never indicated when it started).
19. Big eye block and self-soothing head touch before "Ugh, it's just a mess." That's a weird way to characterize the cycle of abuse. "Yeah guise, it was really complicated, yannnow? Anyways! What should I have for lunch?"
20. Eye blocking, gesticulating (with pointer finger, not to self-soothe), and taffy-pulling, but she's pulling us up, not down, which is weird. Her eyes are practically rolling around in her head. So she wants us to believe this next part, guys, but even she can't corral her face into selling it to us.
21. Around the idea of "trauma bonding," there's the head bobble (which she does from time to time--not sure what it means, might indicate something she doesn't know or isn't familiar or comfortable with
but is going to spout off on anyway), as well as eye blocking and a deliberate eye roll. She doesn't believe this shit herself, but she's gonna try to sell you on it. TraumaBond! Try it today with
your failing non-relationship! Buy now.
22. When she talks about the second night they met, she looks down to her left for emotional access and then looks directly at the camera as she tells us she was hooked. I believe her here. But then she says she didn't see this side of him, and she can't look at the camera. She touches her nose, then stares off-camera for a moment. She's accessing an emotional memory, and it's interrupting the lie. Then she comes out of her brief reverie and corrects herself: "Well, I did see some red flags." Well that's nice, Chins. Glad you saw them well enough to push them out of your way in your attempt to hurple full-tilt into a swimming pool of red flags.
23. Single shoulder shrug at "liking the attention" and head shaking at "need for validation." Odd, because we know these things to be true beyond a shred of doubt. Maybe these are signs of embarrassment, or a bid for pity? Look, I'm on two hours of sleep, and I did say I was an amateur. This is followed by a face stroke to self-soothe. I wonder if she isn't as comfortable with being an absolutely desperate, pathetic attention whore as we thought.
24. I believe her when she talks about his lies. There's a single shoulder shrug, which I think is a bid for pity, and a lot of emotional accessing and a massively increased blink rate. I think she really does perceive, at least in this moment, that he's a liar and she can't trust him.
25. Self-soothe when she mentions how pissed he'll be that she's talking about this, followed with a hard eye block at "respecting the case." She's not really revealing anything at all here that she hasn't already said, so I'm going out on a limb and suggest that her concern isn't how pissed he
will be, but how pissed he already is and has been. Also, she isn't trying to respect the case, but rather trying to assuage Nugly's hurt feelings.
26. Emotional accessing at "tell my story" and "he won't admit [to doing anything wrong]." Lots of taffy pulling here--lots of taffy pulling throughout this video, actually, I would argue. She wants us to believe what she's selling. When her eyes aren't enough, she uses her hands. She's definitely trying to get us to believe a) that all of this was true, and b) that's this is the real reason she's dropping the charges. I think an appeal to Nugly, however, may be in the cards, but I haven't seen it just yet. The truth will lie (heh) in whether or not there's a story to tell, or whether she continues with the same innuendo and ambiguities she's been using for the last 11 months.
27. Lots of self-soothing around "it doesn't look good on me either." A) She's very concerned with her image, and b) bitch, nothing looks good on you.
Back to work. More later.
28. Holy fuck, she sent that email seven days ago. She walked that back her claim
seven days ago. I'm uncertain of the time frame--did she even last a
day? This deceitful bitch.
29. We been knew, but her "bringing him things" is the only thing that suggested to her that they might get back together. Her lolcow logic won't allow for her to understand that he might accept a gift without acknowledging or honoring the attached strings. I haven't seen the rest of the video yet, but I'm calling it now--she reached out repeatedly to the cops the way she turns the phone off and on. She did say she sent several emails, so I'd bet that's where we're at.
30. She has been studying domestic violence cases so she can
have a believable excuse for her poor choices and better LARP as an actual DV survivor understand why she does what she does. She actually says "studied domestic violence cases." Why? To what legitimate end? You need therapy, not fodder. She does a hard eye block at "it's complicated" and again at "it's a mess," then looks back up at the camera for approval and even briefly purses her lips like a petulant child.
31. At "anxiety," we have a left shoulder shrug (everything else so far has been on her right), and an eye block. Afterwards she hard eye blocks (the most extreme example to this point) and self-soothes. Anxiety indeed.
32. Just out of interest, if it was so messy and complicated and abusive, oh my god, you guise, why did she retract her statement? Oh, that's right--because she thought he'd take her back. Love that mess and complication and abuse, don't we? Good thing those convenient little DV survivors are leading by example!
33. She closes her eyes through the entire statement, "I asked to retract my statement/claims." She's either ashamed, embarrassed, or lying. I just want to mention here that we have no evidence of who the recipient of that email was. Maybe I'm giving her too much credit, but it wouldn't hurt to have a receipt ready to prove to old Nugs that she retracted her statement when she really hadn't.
34. 13:14 out of 20:00, and we still haven't heard anything new yet. Which suggests that her tell-my-story bullshit is for her audience, the look-what-I-did-for-you is for Nugs.
35. The whole time she discusses how awful it is for her, and even how bad he is, her eyes stay up and dart around constantly. We know that's habitual, but we also know she lies constantly. Plus, we know she can access emotion (or whatever) when she's feeling it. So this isn't emotional recall, this is something she's told herself again and again, and is regurgitating from memory.
36. Eye block at "I'm just really scared." Why is she scared? If she's afraid, she should maybe a) stay away from him and b) not retract her statement about how dangerous this man is. Shoulder shrug, appeal for approval.
37. Weird right and left head movements when she says she doesn't know what's going to happen after this video. Weird shifty head rolling and incongruous shoulder shrugs when she says no contact and that she won't be watching any of her videos.
VIDEO EDIT
38. "It's up to the crown now"--single shoulder shrug. "It's not my fault, Naddy. I tried to fix it but I can't! I'm so sowwy uwu."
39. She vacillates on dropping the charges based on
whether or not Deeds is in the picture how she's feeling, you guys. At "I feel...," she appeals for emotion, but then after a moment, her eyes spring up to memory accessing and she says, "...guilty." Then an eye block, single shoulder shrug, eye roll with, "That's how he made me feel."
X. She definitely feels something, but it's more likely jealousy and desperation than guilt.
40. "He made me feel like it was all my fault every time he was abusive": five shoulder shrugs and a "So it's just like, you know?"
41. "It's out of my hands; you have a criminal history, so they're gunnooo investigate it, more than likely." The charges aren't her fault; it's your fault for being a criminal
and messing with a famous YouTuber she's not as stupid as you think and it's the Canadian justice's fault
for believing victims and following up on what they believe to be good-faith claims because she should be able to change her mind if she wants to. It's not
lying--God, get a
life, Canada.
42. Eye blocking at "feel good" and "good decision." But she does believe it was the right thing to do. Good eye contact, no shrugging or eye blocking or rolling.
43. "Threatening you with a remote control--that's vi--that's abusive!" Eye block, shoulder shrug. "These things haunt me; my anxiety." Shoulder shrug, eye block. "My mental health has been declining; my health in general." Eye block, head shake.
44. She's not going to focus on
it YouTube (X.) and she really needs your love and support, guise. Long eye block through "you guys have been"--she's got a point there. Apart from a few select VIB, most aren't falling for her shit anymore. Then again, we've been saying that for months now, so who fucking knows how they'll respond to this.
45. She needs to not talk about it right now, although her gaze is up, not down, so this is something she's reciting, not feeling. Eye block through "wanted to let you know what's going on"--again, she's about seven days too late for that, so

.
46. No full details, guise, with a lengthy shoulder shrug for approval. You already know what he was like (so why make the video?), acting like she's a "zero" for the last 10 months, with a tongue jut to show disapproval or contempt. Chins, you've
never been a zero. And if we're speaking of the last 10 months, I'd wager that if you dropped below a 5X, it was a brief, happy accident fueled by drugs that you've more than overcorrected in the last month or so.
47. Little smile of what I suspect is contempt while she insists that she was more than nothing to him, with a little cough of a contemptuous laugh and lots of eye darting.
48. Speaking of eye darting, I know she does this when she's out in public, but in this context, at home in her safe space, in a recorded video looking glam with her filters and headdress, it's not her usual nervousness, but rather a sign of her jumbled, disorganized thoughts and the internal struggle to concentrate. Coke comedown. I'm calling it.
49. A moment of emotional introspection, which she leaves behind when she shrugs and looks up at the camera with a shrug and an "So I dunno." We may never know what she was thinking
but my guess is she's hoping this video will turn everything around and Nugs will see her as his ride-or-die instead of that dumbfuck DeeDeeDoodoo.
50. She did ask for her statement to be retracted (eye block), she hasn't yet asked to have it reinstated (also eye block), she doesn't know what's going to happen but she's going to leave it alone (eye block, gesticulation).
51. She almost wants to just leave it like this, you guys, (as opposed to what? Calling the cops and asking them to turn the case back on again?), and she will if you take her back, Nugs, but just in case she'll blame her decision and subsequent inaction on her mental health, just in case you're a little slow to open that trap door. Lots of grooming here.
52. Quick, emphatic head shake at "afraid he'll do something to me" with upward inflection (for appeal), massively increased blink rate and zero emotional accessing. She's not afraid. I suspect she wants him to do something to her, because that would be better than nothing.
53. Full shoulder shrug and eye block at "just want to be done with him," followed by a single shoulder shrug at "because of this I have to [think about him]." Bitch, you dropped the charges seven days ago. You don't have to think of him any more than you have to eat that third Nashie, but you do, and you would, court case or no.
54. She actually says "done away with him."

My money's still on arson. Overuse of "honestly" here, which is a pretty big tell.
55. "He gets away scott free": asymmetrical shoulder shrug. Call it justice all you want, Chin-Chin(-Chin), but what you're after is revenge.
Smirk.
Big sigh.
56. After whining that she won't get any justice (if she drops the case), she says she doesn't think she deserves justice, she doesn't deserve help, with another asymmetrical shoulder shrug, a kind of aggressive appeal for approval as her face gets closer to the camera, and lots of taffy pulling. This is all for show. She wants our sympathy. She wants to be told that she deserves justice. Hard long eye block at "it's all in my head"--she doesn't believe it's all in her head--and again at "That's just how I feel" along with a single shoulder shrug.
57. Emotional accessing around being made fun of and how hard it's been. She really feels sorry for herself. Poor Chinny.
58. When the things you're "slowly realizing" are the same things you've been pointing out to your audience for months (months after they pointed them out to you), is it a slow realization? Or are you introducing
utterly implausible deniability so you can choose when and in what capacity to conveniently NOT HAVE KNOWN ABOUT THIS AT ALL YOU GUISE, I SWEAR whenever you feel like it?
59. Eye narrowing at the mention of Peetz--contempt and disdain, though in this case probably for Nugs instead of Peetz. Save that for the few occasions when he graces her livestreams with his political sperging.
60. Emotional accessing at "wanting to control me," followed by a big swallow. She either feels bad about being duped, or misses being controlled. There's a pause, so she's thinking something she doesn't say. My money is on the latter.
61. Eyebrow raise, eye roll, dismissive, "Anyway..." Back to the unspoken thoughts she doesn't want to discuss: she misses him and wants him back. Single shoulder shrug: that's about it, guys (that's not it, that's just all she's going to share with us).
62. "I have to be
careful [what I take about] for now." Deliberate look into the camera, slow blink. This is her telling Nugs she will be careful about what she tells her audience, so it's okay if you call her and invite her back--she'll be a good girl and won't tell anyone.
It's worth noting that she edited this video. The stuff she left in is intentional. Then again, she may be conniving, but she's far from clever, so I think there are a lot of tells here of which she's ignorant.