fire_fly
kiwifarms.net
- Joined
- Nov 1, 2015
Not to powerlevel but I, as a depressed and desperate fatass, once bought into the FAM. It gave me a tiny bit of hope to hold onto, that I was healthy and perfectly fine and it wasn't all my fault that I was fat. But then I started suffering weight-related health issues, and my support for the movement disappeared.
I'm a big girl (US size 20-22 and 5'10") but I can't imagine being Tess Holliday or fatheffalump. It's honestly depressing to think about how much I believed the hype and wanted it to be true, that you really could weigh as much as I do and still be 100% healthy. You can't. I'm doing pretty good for someone with my issues and I frankly can run circles around most of my coworkers, but I need to lose the weight regardless.
But enough about me.
Meet Tumblr user afatfox
I've seen her around for ages and I've always thought she was beautiful and she clearly can throw an outfit together but she would be 10000% more attractive if she lost weight. Her feet look so tiny compared to the rest of her. While finding this picture, I also noticed reblogs from a lot of other "fatshion" bloggers and most of them were drop-dead gorgeous in the face but morbidly obese.
I feel like a lot of bloggers and vloggers who are super into FA and HAES and who constantly talk about how their lives are awesome because they're fat and everyone should be fat or whatever... it just reeks of desperation to me. Like they're trying to convince themselves more than anyone else.
I'm a big girl (US size 20-22 and 5'10") but I can't imagine being Tess Holliday or fatheffalump. It's honestly depressing to think about how much I believed the hype and wanted it to be true, that you really could weigh as much as I do and still be 100% healthy. You can't. I'm doing pretty good for someone with my issues and I frankly can run circles around most of my coworkers, but I need to lose the weight regardless.
I've suffered from depression for more than half my life, and once I moved out on my own, things got so bad for me that I just ate garbage all the time. Most of it didn't even taste good, it was just easy and my roommates usually wouldn't touch it.
My wake-up call was watching my dad die slowly over more than a year because he, apparently, knew better than the doctors who all had told him he was going to get sick and die. I also had a health scare of my own earlier this year while recovering from spinal surgery that has resulted in me going back on the pill to control my PCOS (one of my ovaries is literally covered in cysts on all sides) and I'm starting Metformin tomorrow to help with my insulin resistance that the PCOS caused. My doctor is this awesome no-bullshit Korean lady who actually explained my condition to me and what the medications would do for me and I'm so, so glad to have found her because for years I was scared to go back on birth control, thinking that was what had caused me to gain weight so quickly when it was actually my insulin.
None of that is to make excuses, I fully recognize that I got this way pretty much on my own and I'm responsible for getting better. I have to lose about 90 pounds (more if you go by the BMI chart but 90 is the goal I've set for myself) and it's not impossible. I haven't even been trying that hard and I know for a fact I've lost inches already because last week, I fit into a favorite shirt after not being able to wear it for years. My skin is also getting better and I'm not having as many food tolerance issues.
Seriously, all these idiots have to do is TRY. If I can do it, anyone can.
My wake-up call was watching my dad die slowly over more than a year because he, apparently, knew better than the doctors who all had told him he was going to get sick and die. I also had a health scare of my own earlier this year while recovering from spinal surgery that has resulted in me going back on the pill to control my PCOS (one of my ovaries is literally covered in cysts on all sides) and I'm starting Metformin tomorrow to help with my insulin resistance that the PCOS caused. My doctor is this awesome no-bullshit Korean lady who actually explained my condition to me and what the medications would do for me and I'm so, so glad to have found her because for years I was scared to go back on birth control, thinking that was what had caused me to gain weight so quickly when it was actually my insulin.
None of that is to make excuses, I fully recognize that I got this way pretty much on my own and I'm responsible for getting better. I have to lose about 90 pounds (more if you go by the BMI chart but 90 is the goal I've set for myself) and it's not impossible. I haven't even been trying that hard and I know for a fact I've lost inches already because last week, I fit into a favorite shirt after not being able to wear it for years. My skin is also getting better and I'm not having as many food tolerance issues.
Seriously, all these idiots have to do is TRY. If I can do it, anyone can.
But enough about me.
Meet Tumblr user afatfox
I've seen her around for ages and I've always thought she was beautiful and she clearly can throw an outfit together but she would be 10000% more attractive if she lost weight. Her feet look so tiny compared to the rest of her. While finding this picture, I also noticed reblogs from a lot of other "fatshion" bloggers and most of them were drop-dead gorgeous in the face but morbidly obese.
I feel like a lot of bloggers and vloggers who are super into FA and HAES and who constantly talk about how their lives are awesome because they're fat and everyone should be fat or whatever... it just reeks of desperation to me. Like they're trying to convince themselves more than anyone else.
