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First date with a cute blonde tomorrow. Pray for me.
GL m8! Let us know how it goes.

I'm moving tomorrow (probably going to stretch it out over the next week as nothing is packed and I'd planned on moving in on the first of September). I moved back in with family during the pandemic and it's going to be nice to be "on my own" again, albeit in a shared house (really, in this area, with this economy, there's no other viable option).

Going to take advantage of the new environment by trying to "reset" my lifestyle via some semi-monkmode thing, basically being healthier, staying offline, and not drinking myself to sleep every night. I have a shelf full of books I've been meaning to read and a stack of records I need to listen to, so this could be a great opportunity. Inshallah I'll have the willpower to stick through it longer than a few days.
 
I have to start looking for a new place to live, on an extremely limited budget. Which I don't mind, but I do mind the insane amounts of paperwork I need to deliver to even be allowed to search. Love it when I am treated like a criminal/illegal immigrant/trash by the country I've lived in my entire life, very cool, love that for me.
 
So far so good. Made some new friends recently and have finally gained a bit more weight and muscle after experiencing a plateau. It’s not much, but hey, one step at a time.
 
I'm currently cramming for another exam tomorrow. I'm actually really interested in the subject personally but when you have to force yourself to learn something it just zaps all the fun out of it. It's going to be interesting to see how many people actually show up for the exam tomorrow since it was pretty much just me and two other people that would show up regularly for class all semester.
 
Im in a mentally bad place right now.
So last week my dad had a heart attack on thursday
i told my fiance that on thursday as i was still trying to process it all.
i only found out yesterday that she hadnt called or message my parents at all.

despite we were going to marry on September 15th
im in a position where my family overall dislikes her
and i have to decide to continue or call off the wedding,

yeah... my gf of 2 years and an additional year and a half engaged didnt bother to check on my parents when my dad had a heart attack.

Someone, anyone... help me.
 
Minor uninteresting moment, but I was thinking about going back to watching some new American TV after years of not watching it. The first show I was curious about was Euphoria.

Honestly, it was the worst mistake I made so far. For something considered to be edgy and groundbreaking, I couldn’t even get past the first two episodes. It was just boring and, at worst, soulless to watch.

Putting way too much emphasis on sex, drugs and the occasional violence over telling a story with a competent plot must be asking for too much these days. I just remembered being so open with my disgust for the show that I ended up staying up until 4 a.m. in the morning.

I knew I should have watched Better Call Saul from the beginning first, since it’s been years after watching the first season for the first time. :(
 
Im in a mentally bad place right now.
So last week my dad had a heart attack on thursday
i told my fiance that on thursday as i was still trying to process it all.
i only found out yesterday that she hadnt called or message my parents at all.

despite we were going to marry on September 15th
im in a position where my family overall dislikes her
and i have to decide to continue or call off the wedding,

yeah... my gf of 2 years and an additional year and a half engaged didnt bother to check on my parents when my dad had a heart attack.

Someone, anyone... help me.
Talk to her about it? Is she close to them, to the point that it should be expected? I've never been close to my SO's parents in any relationship I've been in, and vise versa, which isnt to say that they or I didnt care about them or what they were going through, it's more that neither of us ever had that kind of relationship with one anothers parents, that is, to the point of actively phoning in or dropping by to check on them. I think this is more a product of modern times and how relationships work these days, but maybe I'm wrong.

You're the one marrying her, not your family. Put your feelings for her first.
 
Talk to her about it? Is she close to them, to the point that it should be expected? I've never been close to my SO's parents in any relationship I've been in, and vise versa, which isnt to say that they or I didnt care about them or what they were going through, it's more that neither of us ever had that kind of relationship with one anothers parents, that is, to the point of actively phoning in or dropping by to check on them. I think this is more a product of modern times and how relationships work these days, but maybe I'm wrong.

You're the one marrying her, not your family. Put your feelings for her first.

i have talked to her about it last night, (the night i found out after work hours)
then this morning
and i mean.. my parents did so much for her. even offered, paid and gifted her a huge renovation to my house for her
along with other things...
 
I feel like an asshole , i feel sad almost of the day and very tired. :( i am sleep at 5:00 am, i go to university at 18:00 :( i need to restore my sleep timming
 
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i'm distracted. i started a new management position with a large greenhouse and nursery a little bit ago. it's been a dramatic shift from what i was doing for the past few years. i have subordinates, whom i need to utilize this season for success next season. that's not an issue, as i know what needs to be done, and i'm able to deliver the necessary direction, but i've also been tasked with determining the logistics of the next growing season, which, because we're increasing our capacity, requires more screen time than i prefer. i would much rather be in the greenhouse than at home on the laptop.

as a result, i've had a tab opened to kf while i do computer work. it's great when i need a brief reprieve, but it's so distracting when there is so damned much to archive because of the keffals kerfluffle. it's like every lolcow is mooing simultaneously into the twitter void. sigh. if only people were as honest as plants ...
 
Car's acting up again. I was driving the old girl yesterday and I see "check gauges" light up. Turns out my battery voltage gauge was all the way on the right (ie max). I pull over, turn it off and on and it's fine but it popped back up again a minute later. With my small knowledge and a multimeter it seems like my car's battery voltage is fine while on and off. But I can't really check it while driving 45 mph.

My first hope is maybe the cables or other connecting bits are dirty and it's just messing with the sensor. I also noticed my engine oil was way low because my dumb self was overdue for one. So I went to get a two-fer or oil change and battery terminal cleaning. I don't think they touched the cables though. So I'll see how she drives.

I've spent a bit on repairing my car because I can't afford a whole new (even used) one. But I hope this is just a simple fix and not, like, the alternator or something.
 
I've had this exact same same thing. Fingers cleared up after cutting out caffeine for a week. I swapped tea and coffee for water and cut out soda, give it a shot.
I've got a theory that wearing sweaty work gloves all day, and getting soaked in anti-freeze probably caused it.


If I still was a drinking man I would be getting shitfaced tonight.
I wish I still was drinking.
 
Talk to her about it? Is she close to them, to the point that it should be expected? I've never been close to my SO's parents in any relationship I've been in, and vise versa, which isnt to say that they or I didnt care about them or what they were going through, it's more that neither of us ever had that kind of relationship with one anothers parents, that is, to the point of actively phoning in or dropping by to check on them. I think this is more a product of modern times and how relationships work these days, but maybe I'm wrong.

You're the one marrying her, not your family. Put your feelings for her first.

I'm different. Fucking love my in-laws, second mum is getting socks for Christmas cos she loves them.

I'd talk to her and find out why as they've done stuff for her..
 
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