Off-Topic Detransitioner/Desister Stories - People you know or heard about deciding to return to their original gender/sex

[sheepworldvizor]

Read this and switch all the complaints into a troon voice. It's the same damn mental illness.

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This is just a vent and I'm sorry if it doesn't belong here, but I just need to let it out.

I hate my body so intensely that it eats me alive, all day every day, I can't stop thinking about it. I literally cannot stop. Whyyyyy did I remove my breasts, whyyyyyyyy. Why did I go on testosterone for 5 years. I've gained so much weight ever since stopping testosterone 3 years ago. I look deformed.

I don't see anything that resembles a woman when I look in the mirror. I miss the feeling of my chest, everything is numb and sometimes it hurts randomly. I miss my old voice. I miss my old shape. I miss not being covered in body hair and having to shave my face every single day. I used to have such a nice female body and I've completely fucked it.

My face doesn't look male or female. I just look like a completely fucked, deformed person who's in the middle of 2 genders and I can never go back. I get jealous of every woman I see. I even get jealous of drawings of women. I can't look at any woman who's nude or I'll have a mental breakdown and cry because of how badly I've messed myself up. The jealously eats me alive. Even ads that are completely innocent, such as swimwear ads, give me a panic attack. Because I can't go back to my normal body. I HAD that. I HAD that body and it's gone. I honestly don't know how I'm going to live like this, I don't see a future like this.

Seriously, what are the chances this woman wrote the exact same stuff about how much she HATES her boobs and hips. How she HATES her face, how she's really a man it's SO UNFAIR to be trapped in a woman's body she just needs the drugs and surgery ASAP or else she's gonna have to kill herself.

Buddy, bro, darling, honey, babe. Put all your efforts towards getting a really good therapist and go every week for the rest of your life. You have brainworms and you need to flush the brainworms out.

 

[Wallace]

 

[Fapcop]

Read this and switch all the complaints into a troon voice. It's the same damn mental illness.

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This is just a vent and I'm sorry if it doesn't belong here, but I just need to let it out.

I hate my body so intensely that it eats me alive, all day every day, I can't stop thinking about it. I literally cannot stop. Whyyyyy did I remove my breasts, whyyyyyyyy. Why did I go on testosterone for 5 years. I've gained so much weight ever since stopping testosterone 3 years ago. I look deformed.

I don't see anything that resembles a woman when I look in the mirror. I miss the feeling of my chest, everything is numb and sometimes it hurts randomly. I miss my old voice. I miss my old shape. I miss not being covered in body hair and having to shave my face every single day. I used to have such a nice female body and I've completely fucked it.

My face doesn't look male or female. I just look like a completely fucked, deformed person who's in the middle of 2 genders and I can never go back. I get jealous of every woman I see. I even get jealous of drawings of women. I can't look at any woman who's nude or I'll have a mental breakdown and cry because of how badly I've messed myself up. The jealously eats me alive. Even ads that are completely innocent, such as swimwear ads, give me a panic attack. Because I can't go back to my normal body. I HAD that. I HAD that body and it's gone. I honestly don't know how I'm going to live like this, I don't see a future like this.

Seriously, what are the chances this woman wrote the exact same stuff about how much she HATES her boobs and hips. How she HATES her face, how she's really a man it's SO UNFAIR to be trapped in a woman's body she just needs the drugs and surgery ASAP or else she's gonna have to kill herself.

Buddy, bro, darling, honey, babe. Put all your efforts towards getting a really good therapist and go every week for the rest of your life. You have brainworms and you need to flush the brainworms out.

I mean… I don’t think it’s weird to have some very deep regrets about having fucked your body up. After having fucked your body up.

 

[Hongourable Madisha]

Sharkboy is still alive and has detransitioned.
https://www.reddit.com/r/detrans/comments/117e6up/my_transition_failed_i_will_never_look_like_a (archive)

 

[NoReturn]

Sharkboy is still alive and has detransitioned.
https://www.reddit.com/r/detrans/comments/117e6up/my_transition_failed_i_will_never_look_like_a (archive)

Live, Sharkboy! LIVE!
The damage cannot be fixed, but you can still live, dammit!

 

[Procrastinhater]

The initial instinct when confronted by parents that have sacrificed their child's genitals on the altar of Slaanesh is to rage out and curse and condemn them, and while they 100% deserve the condemnation and rebuke for inflicting this shit on their child, I think we need to put that aside and be more, while not forgiving, understanding, in order to not discourage others who may be wanting to come forward, who if seeing other parents that trooned out their kids castigated may not want to face that themselves and keep silent.
What they have done is criminal, immoral, and abhorrent, but we're going to be seeing more and more parents that have done this thing and the important thing is getting their kids (and them to a lesser extent, everyone) out of the clutches of the Cult, and an understanding attitude is more likely to bare fruit.
From what this woman says she knows full well the horror of what she has done, and her own conscience will hold her to account, nothing we can say will be any harsher than the conscience of a parent who knows how utterly and completely they have failed their child.

The people that really deserve the scorn and the hate are the psychologists, the "gender counsellors" the activists, and the surgeons, they're the fucking monsters that have inflicted the largest and most organized act of medical malpractise and unethical experimental butchery since the crimes of Shiro Ishii at Unit 731, and there should be a Nuremburg style Crimes Against Humanity Tribunal when all this is said and done, where they are all fucking held to account and sentenced to execution for the fucking genital holocaust they have inflicted upon society, with hopefully a new ethical standard codified at the end of it to prevent this monstrosity from ever happening again.

 

[Det. Frank Washington Esq]

The initial instinct when confronted by parents that have sacrificed their child's genitals on the altar of Slaanesh is to rage out and curse and condemn them, and while they 100% deserve the condemnation and rebuke for inflicting this shit on their child, I think we need to put that aside and be more, while not forgiving, understanding, in order to not discourage others who may be wanting to come forward, who if seeing other parents that trooned out their kids castigated may not want to face that themselves and keep silent.
What they have done is criminal, immoral, and abhorrent, but we're going to be seeing more and more parents that have done this thing and the important thing is getting their kids (and them to a lesser extent, everyone) out of the clutches of the Cult, and an understanding attitude is more likely to bare fruit.
From what this woman says she knows full well the horror of what she has done, and her own conscience will hold her to account, nothing we can say will be any harsher than the conscience of a parent who knows how utterly and completely they have failed their child.

The people that really deserve the scorn and the hate are the psychologists, the "gender counsellors" the activists, and the surgeons, they're the fucking monsters that have inflicted the largest and most organized act of medical malpractise and unethical experimental butchery since the crimes of Shiro Ishii at Unit 731, and there should be a Nuremburg style Crimes Against Humanity Tribunal when all this is said and done, where they are all fucking held to account and sentenced to execution for the fucking genital holocaust they have inflicted upon society, with hopefully a new ethical standard codified at the end of it to prevent this monstrosity from ever happening again.

I agree... All the Jeanette Bloshinsky's of the world that keep doubling, tripling, quadrupling down on troonism can get this ire. Anyone who's broken away from the hypnosis needs as much of a "safe space" as possible, considering the mob propensity of sending the hounds, not to mention coming to terms with the destruction they've wrought.

 

[LimeRikki]

Trust in the Healthcare system is going to sink to a new low as more detransitioners come forward.

And you know what?

Good.

A Healthcare system that encourages people to undergo irreversibly surgery instead of seeking mental healthcare as a first resort is broken.

A Healthcare system that encourages teenagers to do the same is beyond broken.

 

[Positron]

A nuttier-than-nutmeg woman saved from a horrifying fate -- by the smell of the male bathroom!

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#detransawarenessday Detrans health care can be trans health care. Let's care for everyone including those who changed their minds. There's no medical system label and guidance for some of detrans to recover/reverse side effects by HRT that wasn't included in informed medical consent or conversation.

Here's my story, raw and loosely written up-- I always identified as androgyne, and detached myself from "woman." I was a very angry person, always picking fight with people on the internet and instantly block anyone who don't agree with me. It was a very unhealthy mindset. Back in 2019, I got to the age where I grew two little chin hair and my thoughts got so obsessive that I thought it meant I need to be a man, I told my therapist about it, and she didn't even push me back. I told my friends, they enabled me and encouraged my obsessive thoughts. I thought I was smart enough to seek gender therapist in just a case, but he didn't push me back. I was drowned in compliments and convinced myself it was all by me and I'm 100% confident in my decision just because I'm an INTJ so therefore I must be a mastermind. Almost no one challenged me. I thought I did everything, I even waited one year just to make suuuure!

Eventually, I braved using the T, being scared of needles. I was so happy, like I did something revolutionary for myself. Yeah, while I got more energy, it turns out the cons outweighed the pros, and a lot of the cons is something NO ONE talked about and it wasn't something I'm aware of. I got fatter, got more water retention, my limbs slept more from my blood being thicker, my anatomy downstairs changed, my skin aged more, my kidney is in risk because T is a steroid, my voice changed that I can't baby-talk to my lizards anymore, and my body didn't feel right that I probably could die if I keep this up. There's also this social complication going on too that I do not enjoy. Like come on, why would I want to use men's restroom if they always smell like piss?

I told my trans friend and they were so dismissal like
"Oh, it's ok! You can put estrogen medication up in yourself to help with atrophy!"
"Oh! Detrans are very rare, you can't be one of the rare statistics!"
"Oh! You're probably running away from transphobia!"
"Oh! But you need to accept who you are!" (irony)

I told them to f off and I quit the T 7 months in, and now I am 9 months in living as a detransitioners. I still have health complications from going on T, and I know my friends who also detransitioned also wiht health complications worse than mine, being in a similar timeframe.

I seek ASL-accessible therapy help out but they offered me to see:
1.) A queer FtM therapist, which I know he'd not take me in because of my detrans status.
2.) Gender therapist, but they tried to make me feel like I'm just running away from the transphobia.

Come on now, that's not the correct help so I'm in the dark.

I think it's a shame that the medical system and online resources don't have enough information for people who realized they aren't trans. And not only that, there's this weird social taboo that you get silenced by people if you dare to question about the medical system for trans people, and a detransitioner can't even 100% talk about their experience/journey without trans people making it all about themselves and shitting on you.

I want trans people to get their health care, but I need the doctor and medical professional to be more educated and honest, actually share EVERYTHING in the informed medical consent and give trans people time and screening to figure themselves out because for some heavy medical shit like this, it should be the last option, not first, and they're not even in any rush to transition. They don't have to be medically transformed to be the opposite gender.

The amount of judgment, verbal abuse, silencing, asshole using us as political pawns to hurt trans, and trans shitting on us, I see daily on social media frustrated me to no end.

 

[Fapcop]

She’s pretty attractive in that unconventional way, but dear lord is she nutty alright…

Trooned out because of two chin hairs?!
Detrooned because piss smell?!

And them baby lizards?!

Lol!

Anyways, good for her!

 

[An empty shill]

Kinda sad the girl got MORE push back for wanting to course correct.
But glad overall she was strong willed enough to realize; nah, fuck you, I'm doing this.
She got away lucky if her voice was the only thing harshly affected by all of this.
Again, happy to see some one saved from the grips of the troon cult.

 

[ZsaZsaBinks]

Literally every single one of her problems and health issues could have been avoided if she chose to act normal. She pathologically chose to be anything but one.

She'd literally called herself a gay trans man before calling herself a straight woman.

She said that she didn’t find out she was gay until later on because as a TIF, she dated other TIFs but didn’t know she was into them because she was into women. It doesn’t make sense, especially since still says trans and nonbinary people’s chosen pronouns so to her, TIFs would still be men. She talked about “lesbian fashion” in one video, so I feel like she leans in heavily towards stereotypes about LGB people and think that her appearance and fashion makes her gay.

 

[Oilspill Battery]

She said that she didn’t find out she was gay until later on because as a TIF, she dated other TIFs but didn’t know she was into them because she was into women. It doesn’t make sense, especially since still says trans and nonbinary people’s chosen pronouns so to her, TIFs would still be men. She talked about “lesbian fashion” in one video, so I feel like she leans in heavily towards stereotypes about LGB people and think that her appearance and fashion makes her gay.

I think she read too much yaoi. She likes man on man, but yaoi has twisted her perception of how men actually act which is why she sought out other TIFs with similar fetishes to try and live out her fantasies.

 

[ZsaZsaBinks]

I think she read too much yaoi. She likes man on man, but yaoi has twisted her perception of how men actually act which is why she sought out other TIFs with similar fetishes to try and live out her fantasies.

On her Pinterest (Archive) she has a lot of images of pretty boys, many of which were saved before she detransitioned. I don’t know if she is a yaoi fan but she is definitely an autoandrophile.

Another image of her as a TIF:

 

[Unnecessary Surgery Land]

I used to feel bad for TIFs (this includes women ‘enbies’)but after having some as coworkers and dealing with more in general on a day by day basis I’m just done.

They really go out of their way to make you uncomfortable when you fuck up their precious pronouns and constantly talk about cringe.

Have fun with your cut off tits and facial hair— hopefully your yaoi will keep you warm and valid at night.

 

[Fapcop]

I used to feel bad for TIFs (this includes women ‘enbies’)but after having some as coworkers and dealing with more in general on a day by day basis I’m just done.

They really go out of their way to make you uncomfortable when you fuck up their precious pronouns and constantly talk about cringe.

Have fun with your cut off tits and facial hair— hopefully your yaoi will keep you warm and valid at night.

That’s the thing most people don’t realize if they’re new to the phenomenon: The majority are terrible people and BPD basketcases.

They might seem like poor little UwU damaged girls who daydream all day, but deadname them or don’t dawn over their delusions and their true face is shown.

(Or heck, just go on Reddit and see them talk about how they can’t wait till their parents no longer pay for college so they can cut them out over some minor, imagined slight.)

Many of those who don’t detransition do it because they like the social capital their KWEER status gives them to bully people.

 

[Fapcop]

This seems relevant:

New Detransitioner Announces Intent To Sue For Childhood Medical Transition

A young detransitioned woman is seeking justice from the medical group and hospital that facilitated her medical transition between the ages of 12 to 17, which included puberty blockers, cross-sex hormones and a double mastectomy at just 13 years old.

www.realityslaststand.com

But hey… Instead of, or maybe besides suing medical insurers, maybe DONT ELECT POLITICIANS WHO PASS LAWS MAKING IT ILLEGAL TO DENY TRANNIES “HEALTHCARE”?!?

I’m not going to cry for Kaiser Permanente, but it’s not like they have a whole lot of choice here.

If a crazy teenager shows up and demands a tittychop, they can try to deny it… And then be sued by said tranny or find themselves fielding gender bs complaints.

 

[GunCar Gary]

This seems relevant:

New Detransitioner Announces Intent To Sue For Childhood Medical Transition

A young detransitioned woman is seeking justice from the medical group and hospital that facilitated her medical transition between the ages of 12 to 17, which included puberty blockers, cross-sex hormones and a double mastectomy at just 13 years old.

www.realityslaststand.com

But hey… Instead of, or maybe besides suing medical insurers, maybe DONT ELECT POLITICIANS WHO PASS LAWS MAKING IT ILLEGAL TO DENY TRANNIES “HEALTHCARE”?!?

I’m not going to cry for Kaiser Permanente, but it’s not like they have a whole lot of choice here.

If a crazy teenager shows up and demands a tittychop, they can try to deny it… And then be sued by said tranny or find themselves fielding gender bs complaints.

it’s sad being aware of this issue and watching it unfold in real time. it seems like eventually detransitioning will reach critical mass, but by the time everyday people become aware of the issue there will be a bloody trail of chopped off genitals and broken frog voices left in the cult’s wake

 

[Sissyagamben]

Not truly a detrans story, but a TIF I used to know is growing out her hair and wearing feminine clothing again she had cut off her tits and dunno if she’s still on T, the instagram pronoun section still says he/him. Her hair is not long long, but it’s longer than she has ever had them before transition. Lol. I have a feeling where this is going. Don’t think she has the mental strength to face what she’s done when that moment comes. Think gonna pray for her coz she’s really gonna need a miracle

 

[Doktor Grimm]

I'll try not to powerlevel too much here but I have my own detroon story. As a depressed awkward teenager I stumbled upon an online trans community and bought into the agenda almost immediately as an all-encompassing solution to my problems, as if becoming part of some untouchable oppressed minority would make me feel less insignificant somehow. Even back when this happened it was so easy to find trans propaganda online. I imagine it's even easier nowadays.

Anyways, once you're inside it really does feel like a cult. Any random occurrences from your childhood or vague feelings of discomfort with yourself can be taken as certain signs of gender dysphoria. Even in "edgier" trans circles like 4chan they repeatedly hammer into your brain that detransitioning is something unthinkable, that virtually everyone who detransitions (or even waits to transition) comes to regret it. By the time you realise how screwed up everything is, it can feel near impossible to turn back after spending so much time and energy and losing so much.

Eventually I left my cosy little internet bubble and the whole illusion just shattered - I realised that I'd become totally absorbed in this fantasy dream world. Once I accepted that truly becoming a woman was impossible, I felt an enormous weight lift off of my shoulders. Troons will claim that I'm repressing or whatever bullshit but the truth is I feel happier than ever, and while transitioning led me to "happiness" of some form, it gave way after the initial rush of excitement to this awful hollow feeling. If things had gone a little differently I might have been a lot worse off