1: difficulty coming to terms with masculinity. Nearly every teenage male is gonna go through a phase of this. Creation of self identity includes a conceptualization of what sex is and your relationship is with it. A flamboyant gay dude might love his flower garden while also be a bit of a gear head into cars. Seemingly two poles in his life that he is pulled between and it could cause him stress in early years. Eventually he just accepts it is what it is and finds his own niche and expression of masculinity .
Chris really never got out of that phase. Perhaps because he never had any positive masculine figures in his life. He has associated masculine with the meanness of his father, and of the numerous bullies mocking his appearance and interests.
I think Chris has become a lot more manlier since he's "transitioned" then he or anyone else would like to admit.
I also think that Chris doesn't worship women, he worships the
idea of women that he came up with. For example: Autistic people love colors, and bright colors, which Chris started wearing since he trooned out. Chris sees: "Men wear duller colors, but the laydees can wear hot pink or bright colors!". Similar things with toys, Chris gravitated to the toys that were the most colorful, but at the same time, was playing things like transformers and legos, constructing toys, like any normal boy.
Chris sees "Men have to go to work while women get to sit home alllll day and watch the kids" Granted he thinks watching the kids means screaming at them and sitting them in front a television screen while he does his own thing, verses what he thinks a man is, going to work, "being tired" from it, etc...
So Chris has this idea that the stereotypical view of women is one thing, and he glommed onto that thinking it was easy street. Talk about him and gender issues never came up until after he transitioned. The only thing people can say prior to that, is Chris wanted to play with girl toys and didn't understand why he couldn't, or something.
I do think his interest in women ( and even trying to emulate them) goes beyond making his dick hard though.
I think trooning out made his dick hard. He went and did what all the AGP type people do, starting talking about "upskirt" shots and his "protection" again that, how big his titties are getting, how to make them bigger, and all the other tranny stuff Chris dove head first into. His almost fetishizing going into the women's room.
Also you have to remember that when he got the chance, watched for the right time he had zero issues getting into Barb's snatch, to the point where Chad Chan came out and was bragging about how much of a stud he was, putting actual effort into this asspatting story about how he was better than every other guy that fucked his mom, including his father. The interesting thing, is that he was talking about it, as it was happening, and that's the first thing he talked about. It wasn't until the backlash that he tried to retcon it into something softer, more "feminine" about hugging Barb and sending tardrays from his magic rocks to heal her. But at the apex of the Barb Breaking, Chris was as happy and bragging about the sex he was getting as any man would.
And hey, knowing what we know now, Barb was right when she told Chris that after he transitioned, he'd try to kill her.