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I've been taking nightly walks again. It's something I did when I was younger to help soothe my mind, but I found lately I've been doing a lot more often. It's a small comfort.
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I honestly feel like an old man. I'm always tense and stressed. If it's not the expectations of the job, or sleep insomnia, or saving money in this economy, it's dealing with people. I'm tired.
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I checked and seems I have five weeks of my current EI benefits i should be able to reapply for easily, but I do have to find work. The problem is I'm slow and out of shape, and not a diversity hire - so I'm pretty limited in easy work i can find. i could try to get into construction, or road work, but aside from the fact I may not physically handle it, they'll pass me over for someone who's fit enough to keep up with the work. I could get there eventually, but it would take too long for any employer who would be interested. I checked and even though student loans finally received the bankruptcy discharge notice from 2021 (they promised to do an investigation as to why it took so long), I'm not eligeable for loans until three years after a discharge anyways. I'm trying to break into office work, but they are all expecting me to have certifications i don't have. Maybe part of it is me being scared and not having faith in my ability to adapt, but i do need to try.
I do see the attraction in communism systems where you submit your abilities and the government figures out what to do with you, giving you gurenteed income no matter how crap you are.
I do see the attraction in communism systems where you submit your abilities and the government figures out what to do with you, giving you gurenteed income no matter how crap you are.
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Maybe you should start getting more fit @Betonhaus? It never hurts, and there are plenty of exercising you can do that don't require a gym membership.
See it as an investment.
See it as an investment.
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Doing pretty good. Been able to get myself down to a bottle and a half of vodka per day. But now I feel the edge.
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How much was it before? Not that I'm going to shit on your progress. It's still good.
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Late night walks are always a pleasure, especially in the summer when the night air is warm but not hot. The world becomes totally different late at night, quiet and peaceful, and you have it all to yourself.
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Been angry and depressed the last few weeks.
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I'm committed to quitting completely. This is day five.
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Maybe, but I've currently exceeded a threshold where if I'm not careful I can really injure myself. I have managed to lose a lot of weight in the past - one year I lost 120lbs in six months - but doing that requires a very controlled home environment and self loathing I currently don't have
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I saw a dead cat on my way to work and now I'm sad but I also saw a neighbor's cat chillin under my truck last night so it's gonna be ok bros. I should get a cat.
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Death follows and mocks me yet again. I just got the call from my mom my uncle died. The old one who was married to my aunt who died almost 3 years ago....well...I guess 3 years of old age alone and the old fella couldn't take it anymore. He went to be with the wife he had spent his whole life with.
But why? Why does the shadow of mortality hang over me mocking me?I can't even cling to the idea of my deceased uncle seeing his dead wife again. Every day that passes onto every year I wonder more and more if such a thing is even remotely possible.
But why? Why does the shadow of mortality hang over me mocking me?I can't even cling to the idea of my deceased uncle seeing his dead wife again. Every day that passes onto every year I wonder more and more if such a thing is even remotely possible.
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Get used to it. It doesn't stop.
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Get over yourself.
People die around everyone, every day, everywhere.
From the way you write, you're not even affected by losing this relative, you're not mourning; you're just making it about you on sneed dot today like oh why does the universe vex me so
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tired but alright
went to the movies today, wish I hadn't: whoever decided today had to be 41 fucking degrees outside should burn in the hell they've brought to earth
the actual movie was good, it's just that getting there wasn't and I did not appreciate the last-minute cancelling of its first showing that left me wandering around the plaza for 3 additional hours
when combined with an ever-present headache that's bad enough to make thinking hard but not bad enough to warrant advil, it's admittedly left me more than a little irritated
complaints aside, I'm in a kind of edgy mood lol
I've been musing about existential shit all day and I wrote down an idea for a story about an angel falling to earth and being taken in by an opportunistic bastard who ends up using the angel to become one himself (long story short, there are a shitload of subspecies of humanity due to genetic engineering being completely figured out and recently made publicly available) but I doubt I'll ever actually write it
I kind of started doing as much after writing down the initial idea, but I dunno
have been so apathetic about so much for so long that it's admittedly hard to be creative again, but damn it if i'm not going to try
fucking medication leaves you such a husk afterwards, pill-pushers deserve the rope
went to the movies today, wish I hadn't: whoever decided today had to be 41 fucking degrees outside should burn in the hell they've brought to earth
the actual movie was good, it's just that getting there wasn't and I did not appreciate the last-minute cancelling of its first showing that left me wandering around the plaza for 3 additional hours
when combined with an ever-present headache that's bad enough to make thinking hard but not bad enough to warrant advil, it's admittedly left me more than a little irritated
complaints aside, I'm in a kind of edgy mood lol
I've been musing about existential shit all day and I wrote down an idea for a story about an angel falling to earth and being taken in by an opportunistic bastard who ends up using the angel to become one himself (long story short, there are a shitload of subspecies of humanity due to genetic engineering being completely figured out and recently made publicly available) but I doubt I'll ever actually write it
I kind of started doing as much after writing down the initial idea, but I dunno
have been so apathetic about so much for so long that it's admittedly hard to be creative again, but damn it if i'm not going to try
fucking medication leaves you such a husk afterwards, pill-pushers deserve the rope
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today is a little cooler... I kinda want to bake some peanut butter cookies but at the same time i recognize I should not
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It's not sneed dot today any more. sneed died.
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Lately I have been thinking about a fantasy I had in high school were I just save up a few thousand bucks, pack a hiking kit with everything I'd need for living outdoors, and just leaving everything to walk along the interstate. I'm a single guy that has very little financial responsibilities, so I wouldn't really be abandoning anything more than my parents and job. I'd miss my folks, but could care less about the job cause I hate it anyway. Don't have any experience with camping, but I am relatively fit due to what I do for work. Could probably end up dead, but something in the back of my head feels the desire to just go. I'm sure this fantasy is way more common than I believe it is, but I just wanted to share with fellow retards on the internet.