I was not even defending myself. I just narrated why Kson and Pippa became my Oshis. That's why I said to everyone here to feel free to make fun of me.
And this is my wrongdoing. I am aware of it. I'm actually older than both 4chan and this site (1994). But multiple therapists have given up on me, and of all things it was an anime girl (Pippa) who really understood and saved me. Since then I vowed to protect Pippa, I vowed to never let her risk herself to become another Kson, but if she's going to learn the newspeak language of the mainlanders, i can't.