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I hosted two old dudes for an event that had all the local hotels booked and outrageously expensive. They took me out to dinner every night for a week, which I considered more than sufficient payment for doing some basic tidying, making sure toiletries were stocked, and feigning interest in their niche hobby each evening.

But just before they left this morning, they blindsided me with an envelope full of cash (ended up being $900) and absolutely insisted I accept it. In the most technical sense, they'd have easily spent multiple times that if they'd gotten hotel rooms, but I still feel like I robbed a couple of octogenarians.
 
You know that saying "It's better to be alone than with the wrong person?" I guess that's usually about romantic relationships but I'm feeling this with a friends.

I am stuck in my old bughive for a time and my old acquaintances here are making me so lonely. Almost everyone here is 100% shitlib, including of course the trannies that showed up a few years ago and are solidly rooted in my social circles now.

I'm a bit crushed that I spent so much time making a life here and now I just find it intolerable.

I want to go back to my new home but it will be a while. The only connections I have there are through church and I already miss them.

I guess on the bright side I have something to look forward to.
 
Trading in my worn out knee tomorrow for a sparkly new 2023 model. I know the recovery is tough but tonight I look forward to the sweet oblivion of anesthesia and heavy duty pain meds.

Anyone remember Ren's tooth beaver from Ren & Stimpy? He had a toothache and a beaver gnawed on the nerve for extra special pain. That's my knee pain. Bastard.
 
Trading in my worn out knee tomorrow for a sparkly new 2023 model. I know the recovery is tough but tonight I look forward to the sweet oblivion of anesthesia and heavy duty pain meds.
For what it's worth, my grandpa had both knees replaced and it made him far more mobile despite being elderly, overweight, and too lazy to do proper rehab. If you do things right, it can be pretty life-changing.
 
I'm wondering how difficult it would be for me to convert to the Mormon faith and join the church.
Extremely easy unless you're a literal child. They'll baptize anyone with a pulse as fast as they can and then they'll make you a priest a minute later.

Why are you interested in it?



I'm much happier than I was. I mentioned some time back getting (after an extremely risk maneuver) a promotion of sorts. I had numerous reasons for wanting it, but a big chunk was so that I wouldn't have to work with coworkers anymore. What I've found is that since then I feel like I have much more purpose.

I used to spend much of my time wracked with invasive thoughts about past slights from my coworkers and my unhappiness where I was. I had no particular interest in what I did either. Now I spend much more time preparing for when I start the position, and I feel passionate about it for its own sake and happy to spend much time on it. When i don't work on it the misery starts up again, but nowhere near as thick as it once was. It is almost a full return to how it was before all of that.
 
Trading in my worn out knee tomorrow for a sparkly new 2023 model. I know the recovery is tough but tonight I look forward to the sweet oblivion of anesthesia and heavy duty pain meds.

Anyone remember Ren's tooth beaver from Ren & Stimpy? He had a toothache and a beaver gnawed on the nerve for extra special pain. That's my knee pain. Bastard.
Call me retarded but, like, the whole knee gets replaced? I didn't even know that was possible.
 
Call me retarded but, like, the whole knee gets replaced? I didn't even know that was possible.
It's called a total knee replacement but it looks as if they just clean out the arthritis and place metal caps over the bone ends. Some med fag can probably explain it better - I always assumed it was much more involved than it is. :optimistic:
 
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I don't really like reminiscing a lot because nothing really comes out of it, but I keep thinking I joined this site a year ago when in reality it's more close to 2 years ago now. Trying to think about all that's happened between now and then. Made some friends, lost some friends. Had a couple of different jobs in between. Not even using the same computer that I started my Farms account with.

It sounds weird to say but looking at my account and past post history I can almost kind of see what I was going through and what I was thinking through each different event in my life within those 2 years. How my thoughts have changed, what I've learned etc. I came to this site post covid thinking I would just make a few posts on Kevin Gibes and leave, but little did I know it would be something that I regularly do since then.
 
Extremely easy unless you're a literal child. They'll baptize anyone with a pulse as fast as they can and then they'll make you a priest a minute later.

Why are you interested in it?
I don't know how to explain it, really. From the outside looking in it seems to be a lot more stable and supportive of its members, I'm surrounded by people who just parrot back what the talking heads say, with no filter or introspection. The impression I get is that things are falling apart because people are biologically wired to put their faith in something, and when they reject god they're putting their faith in megacorporations and politicians that care nothing more then to squeeze you dry to make short term profits. A proper church would at the most cynical least recognize that they can get more money from you by building you up in education and confidence so you have stability and prosperity indefinitely.
I do feel like I'd need to demonstrate more commitment and initative before taking further steps, though.
 
I don't know how to explain it, really. From the outside looking in it seems to be a lot more stable and supportive of its members, I'm surrounded by people who just parrot back what the talking heads say, with no filter or introspection. The impression I get is that things are falling apart because people are biologically wired to put their faith in something, and when they reject god they're putting their faith in megacorporations and politicians that care nothing more then to squeeze you dry to make short term profits. A proper church would at the most cynical least recognize that they can get more money from you by building you up in education and confidence so you have stability and prosperity indefinitely.
I do feel like I'd need to demonstrate more commitment and initative before taking further steps, though.
I think that if you're looking to convert religions for worldly reasons then it's not likely to end well. It might, I do know some people who got roped into things and grew to love it (like a guy who got into Catholicism because his kid goes to a Catholic school). But I think that looking for community is in some way like the same problem as looking for love, if you go looking for it actively it will flee from you? The motivation needs to be rooted in the belief in the thing itself.

If you don't like conformism then you'll be dealing with a different kind of conformism. Mormons tend to be massive normalfag conservatives/libertarians but they're also very obedient to their own authority. I don't know how true this is, but I've heard that enthusiasts of early Mormon history actually stick out badly among those raised in it.

Mormons do have good institutions, I don't know about them being big on "building people up" - mind you they expect 10% in tithes - but they also have very effective poor relief, those Home Storage Centers (which you can use even as a non-member), and so on.

There's also an issue, which I haven't resolved myself, of whether it's worth it to shun your own culture. Mormonism is a global religion in a sense, but most of them come from a small, New England-meets-West culture. And that too is something where a lot of people make out pretty well - they convert to a new religion and it BECOMES their families' new tradition, it happened to all of us at some point far enough back. But I often think if I shouldn't just resign myself to being Southern Baptist whether or not it makes any sense or pleases me.

They take anybody. You don't have to convert to the religion just to go to services, I knew a guy who went for a year before getting baptized, and unlike me he actually stuck with it. Just go ask them for missionaries. Keep in mind that a lot of converts wind up leaving when the missionaries leave. They feel like they're a part of something, but it turns out that it was the missionary visits they were attached to, not the congregation. Note that Mormons place a huge emphasis on their personal feelings over evidence. A cynic would say that it's convenient for a far-fetched sales pitch. They also don't believe in Biblical infallibility. 99% of the stuff they believe in that drives other Christians up a wall comes straight out of the Bible or ancient Christian practice (including muh seer stone in a hat, temple garments, and baptizing the dead), but when there is a contradiction a Mormon isn't going to give a shit what the Bible says because their perspective on it is that the Bible had two thousand years to be corrupted, the Book of Mormon and other new scriptures were given to them in their current versions in recent documented history.

Their dietary restrictions are wank and they recently made them, arbitrarily, more restrictive. There's also a two-tier membership in the church, if you're not familiar with this already. Any asshole can wander in and get baptized. Going to a temple requires a temple recommend. They have no concept of confessional like Catholics, you don't have to tell anyone what specific thing you did, but you are obligated to refuse a recommend if you know you violated their standards. The sacrament meeting in the meetinghouse is the church service, but the high rites of the religion take place in the temple (cathedral).
 
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Anyone remember Ren's tooth beaver from Ren & Stimpy? He had a toothache and a beaver gnawed on the nerve for extra special pain. That's my knee pain. Bastard.
I've known a number of people who had that (including for both knees) and it's always been a huge quality of life improvement. They're pretty good at it now.
 
I'm wondering how difficult it would be for me to convert to the Mormon faith and join the church.
A couple of my friends that I’ve had since high school converted for their Mormon girlfriends. They’re not particularly religious then or even now but like the social networks, especially for raising children. Plus their wives are still smoking hot despite being in their late 30s. Waking up to them I’m sure keeps them going too.

So I guess the big question is what you’re converting for and what you hope to get out of it. My friends did it for marriage and family reasons. I don’t find the religion to be very special so if you aren’t doing it to get top shelf pussy on tap like my friends, you should think long and hard about it. Just my free, unsolicited advice.
 
well called and confirmed that I have no more EI coverage left after this week, so this week i need to be focusing on finding work. I kinda wanted to talk to my doctor about if i'm having heart issues but I don't have time for that. not eligible for assistance, not eligible for miracles.
 
double checked and i had two weeks of ei left so a little more breathing room. Out of curiosity I checked and some of the semi truck/tow truck jobs offer paid training here, I think i can do that... means i can slowly unwind my home life and set up shop somewhere cheap if i take the plunge. I'll research it more, but it might be something I can enjoy.
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Had a court appointment this morning that went great, made a surprise visit to my ma's place afterwards who i haven't seen in months. A good friend who i also haven't seen for an entirely too long time by now phoned me and invited me to his birthday party tommorow evening so that's something to look forward to. Pretty good day so far, quite the rarity.
 
what does my dad do after finding out i'm sick and probably need a little extra care?
gallavant off across the fucking state with absolutely no warning or preparation while i'm asleep without thinking once to wait until i wake up to not even ask but simply TELL me
 
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