Post-op TiF vents about how she went from having an average size dick to a small dick due to her glansplasty and numerous surgeries.
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How to deal with size insecurities?
Hey guys,
This is a bit of a vulnerable one and I probably shouldn’t be whining about this, as I know a lot of you are going through truly tough times. I apologize in advance.
So I’ve had a lot of complications throughout this process and I’m finally about to have my erectile device implanted, which is my 8th surgery. And I should be really happy about making it here, but I can’t help feeling sad and disappointed. Till my last surgery, which was my glansplasty, I used to have 5.5 inches in length. I was pretty content with that, as it was very much mid average. And I’ve started, you know, identifying with having average dick. However post glansplasty I dropped to about 4.5-4.7 inches. I know it isn’t the end of the world. But I can’t help feeling upset about it. If I had been that size from the get go, I could have dealt with that. However I got used to and started identifying with a certain size for over 2 years. So there is the sense of losing something/ having something taken away from me. In a surgery that technically “went well” for a change. However this is the one that brought me the most disappointment, as this is a thing that can’t be changed. My team doesn’t even seem to believe me that my size changed, as it shouldn’t have. But yeah, it definitely happened. On top of that I’ve kept losing girth, because of all the complications, that I’m know left with max. 4 inches circumference.
I know size shouldn’t be important, and this surgery has truly saved my life and I am very happy with my size flaccid. But now that I’ll hopefully be able to get hard soon, I can’t help but feel sad, that I’ll end up being small. Like I’ve been picturing this day in my head for my entire life and i’ve had a very real idea of what I should look like for the past 3 years and know that it’s around the corner, i know that I’ll be disappointed when I actually see it become a reality. And now I keep worrying that after all the shit I’ve been through, I won’t even be able to satisfy a partner, especially because of the girth.
So yeah, sorry about the vent. Any input on how to fix my mindset or any tips and tricks on how to make a smaller dick work, are very welcome.
Funny thing is going by the numerous TiFs that get ED's; it can either lengthen or shorten the phallus further.
And if you are Nuigi, it can collapse like an accordion at any time.