18yo AGP shows up on r/salmacian and says he wishes he was born female who transitions to male. Is considering SRS and estrogen. Link | Archive
Hello everyone!
I am a 18YO AMAB and I identify as such (and most likely into the future).
I have had this strange feeling of fluxating identities but have finally settled for male. There is, however, this strong presence and urgency to have a vagina. There is also a disgust and detachment feeling of my penis, I do not like him.
I have gone down the rabbit hole of gender identities with my therapist since I was just 16. I thought about being a girl and I wore feminine clothes. I liked wearing bra's and underwear but I did not like wearing skirts, or any feminine clothing. Perhaps for leggings and some dresses. At that period I wished I was born a girl, had all the girl things like boobs and a vagina and menstruation and all that.
But it always felt... Off. It wasn't right and I didn't like it. I switched back to presenting male and masculine and felt more at ease and at home there. But there was always this sense of urgency. Always that I wanted and needed a vagina. Because otherwise it wouldn't fit. So much so to the point where I wish I was AFAB so I could become a FTM individual but leave my genitalia as is. Which is.. insane.
This is and had remained a frequent topic in my head for the past 2 years and I am begining to pass the point I genuinely need help with this.
There are two scenario's
A) I accept or try to accept my genitalia as is and live the rest of my life with this fact
B) I seek surgery or possibilities within it so I can live a more (prospected) fulfilling life.
But the question remains. How do I do this? My case is very very rare I imagine and most doctors would not do such a thing. So currently I am hopeless.
Any help or advice?
Should I go on hormone therapy and present female for the required minimum in order to have surgery done? However much a huge slap that would be to the suffering trans community?
What are my options?
Thanks for reading and any advice!
Commenters are saying go for it and are suggesting the r/amabwgd subreddit.
Should I go on hormone therapy and present female for the required minimum in order to have surgery done? However much a huge slap that would be to the suffering trans community?
Slap? They’ll be cheering you on the entire time, until reality hits and you realize all the complications and pain that will undoubtedly follow and see you’ve done nothing more than mutilate yourself. And then your adoring fans will become silent and hostile should you dare express regret.
u/Sea-Lost 19 days post-op. Rare example of MLD Phalloplasty (Musculocutaneous Latissimus Dorsi Flap Phalloplasty)
Surgeon is Dr Miro in NYC Link | Archive
19 days post op
Tw: nudity, surgical sites
Healing very well. Only two small spots on the shaft near the base are a little wider than I’d like. But aren’t big enough to be considered separation and are already healing over.
u/Sea-Lost 19 days post-op. Rare example of MLD Phalloplasty (Musculocutaneous Latissimus Dorsi Flap Phalloplasty)
Surgeon is Dr Miro in NYC Link | Archive
19 days post op
Tw: nudity, surgical sites
Healing very well. Only two small spots on the shaft near the base are a little wider than I’d like. But aren’t big enough to be considered separation and are already healing over.
What is that sharp delineation just below her belly?? I bet we're going to see an increase in weird phalloplasty methods since the lil' doods are all stealth and they don't want to feel ~unsafe~ due to the increasing ability of normies to recognize what the arm/thigh mutilation is.
As a regular on the SRS thread I always think I’m desensitized to a lot. Then something pops up and makes me grimace. Congrats for being that farmer today!
Edit: goddamn @batteredpancakes it’s always you! Truly a rare talent.
u/Sea-Lost 19 days post-op. Rare example of MLD Phalloplasty (Musculocutaneous Latissimus Dorsi Flap Phalloplasty)
Surgeon is Dr Miro in NYC Link | Archive
19 days post op
Tw: nudity, surgical sites
Healing very well. Only two small spots on the shaft near the base are a little wider than I’d like. But aren’t big enough to be considered separation and are already healing over.
What's the end goal with this thing? Do they mangle the clitoris and urethra into it later, or is just a skintube they're not even going to pretend has a function?
the lil' doods are all stealth and they don't want to feel ~unsafe~ due to the increasing ability of normies to recognize what the arm/thigh mutilation is.
What's the end goal with this thing? Do they mangle the clitoris and urethra into it later, or is just a skintube they're not even going to pretend has a function?
IIRC once the flesh tube heals, they open it again and graft a piece of a vein to reconstruct the "urethra" so our little Ayden can STP (Stand To Pee) and have some euphoria. Phaloplasty is a brutal procedure from start to finish, orders of magnitude worse than the Amhole procedures. A lucky troon may get away with one surgery and zero revisions, Gaydens will need several procedures at a minimum, with their % rate of failure each time.
Yes It looks like she's got the mutant Metroid clit, the balls made out of half-detached labia, and a rot dog installed above the whole fiasco. She may or may not have had her vagina removed and stitched up.
Remember when we were told that some people were "born in the wrong body", and need this surgery to make them into the other sex? LMAO. You know, the other sex. There's women, and then there's "atrophy puss, mutant clit fake dick, and dead sausage fake dick, all stacked up." Those are the two sexes lol
u/Sea-Lost 19 days post-op. Rare example of MLD Phalloplasty (Musculocutaneous Latissimus Dorsi Flap Phalloplasty)
Surgeon is Dr Miro in NYC Link | Archive
19 days post op
Tw: nudity, surgical sites
Healing very well. Only two small spots on the shaft near the base are a little wider than I’d like. But aren’t big enough to be considered separation and are already healing over.
I've been thinking, and as weird as it all seems, troons getting their amholes installed, in the location that they do, kinda makes sense, (and of course, explains the meme of amholes being installed way up higher than a natel vagina)
Afterall, thats where your dick and balls were. So if you invert everything and shave down your dick to a clitoris, your mind-body connection is still, in some twisted mockery of nature, at least in the same location. You can at least visualize your sexual organs being in the location that they have always been.
But with Pooners, this is not the case.
The vagina is sealed shut, the clitoris burried under a sack of tissue, and your new primary sexual organ is a tube of low sensitive flesh, stitched onto your pubic bone, a good 3 to 4 inches higher than where your clit was.
This must feel so weird and be a masive mind fuck. The body-mind comection can't possibly make sense of the rotdog installation, because its no where near where the sexual organs are.
With amputee victims, some say they actually begin to sometimes perceive sensations in their prosthetics, due to them being attached in the same location and configuration of where their previous limbs where. The mind-body mental map is still there subconsciously. Pooners wouldn't even have this.
Literally what is the point of a useless flesh tube??
Oh, I think there were two episodes of Botched that men had their breast implants removed. One of them was a dude who got them on a bet and other was a drag queen at night. But none of them had this kind of lunatic explanation (I mean, the other was a drag queen but...), getting "gender euphoria" for imagining you chest not being neutral? The hell, just go to the gym and get some bara tiddies, and meanwhile learn some self improvement.
It's so unnatural and unsettling and yet I can't stop looking. It's like a car crash. I guess it's the kind of reaction he desired.
This must feel so weird and be a masive mind fuck. The body-mind comection can't possibly make sense of the rotdog installation, because its no where near where the sexual organs are.
No. Even if it was in the exact same place the brain would be unable to recognize it as sexual organ. However it recognizes it as part of the arm or leg (depending on where the flesh for the rotdog was taken from). Some pooners in this thread even said that when they wash their arm rotdog it feels like water running down their mutilated arm. Pooners who don't feel this still can only feel a roll of arm of leg flesh and IMAGINE that's what a penis feels like.
Oh, I think there were two episodes of Botched that men had their breast implants removed. One of them was a dude who got them on a bet and other was a drag queen at night. But none of them had this kind of lunatic explanation (I mean, the other was a drag queen but...), getting "gender euphoria" for imagining you chest not being neutral? The hell, just go to the gym and get some bara tiddies, and meanwhile learn some self improvement.
It's so unnatural and unsettling and yet I can't stop looking. It's like a car crash. I guess it's the kind of reaction he desired.
I mean that guy who got them "on a bet" totally struck me as an AGP weirdo. Most men would not put "get breast implants" on the table as part of a bet, then follow through, then whoops keep them for over a decade. That guy is just like your middle school principal who tells you "if you guys sell enough candy bars and beat our fundraising goal, I'll come to school in a dress and high heels! Won't that be funny?" and years later you realize he was a massive exhibitionist perv
That guy is just like your middle school principal who tells you "if you guys sell enough candy bars and beat our fundraising goal, I'll come to school in a dress and high heels! Won't that be funny?" and years later you realize he was a massive exhibitionist perv
I mean that guy who got them "on a bet" totally struck me as an AGP weirdo. Most men would not put "get breast implants" on the table as part of a bet, then follow through, then whoops keep them for over a decade. That guy is just like your middle school principal who tells you "if you guys sell enough candy bars and beat our fundraising goal, I'll come to school in a dress and high heels! Won't that be funny?" and years later you realize he was a massive exhibitionist perv
Nearly 16 months post op RFF. I've always peed to the left. I'm basically used to it now.
Looking at other posts, this one gave me a good laugh
Sitting to poop post op phallo is very interesting. The amount of effort is a little timing consuming. I have to cover the seat with a good amount of TP which was the case pre op but I now make a little pillow for my penis to be properly safe from the evil water. LOL.
Looking back to the 80s and 90s there was always the guy who enjoyed dressing up as a cheerleader for Halloween "as a joke" just a bit too much, etc. Well, true story: In junior high/high school we'd have fundraisers for whatever, and to motivate the kids, teachers or principals would be like "exceed the goal and we will have a pizza party" or "exceed the goal and I'll be the dunk tank guy at the school carnival" or whatever. One year a principal was like "beat the goal and I'll dress up like a lady, haha, so funny." It was the 90s. Looking back it's ....feels bad man
Sitting to poop post op phallo is very interesting. The amount of effort is a little timing consuming. I have to cover the seat with a good amount of TP which was the case pre op but I now make a little pillow for my penis to be properly safe from the evil water. LOL.