Lolcow KingCobraJFS / Josh Saunders - Amateur musician, YouTube Streamer, wandmaker, and self-proclaimed "sexy goth badboy". Perpetually circling the drain.

[Fedsmokers_secret_stash]

Apparently the Gunt called Jorp and invited him to join the killstream, first Wings now the Gunt looks like our sexy gothic bad boy is in even higher demand after his freakout.

 

[figure it out persons]

There is a legitimate name for this but it escapes me right now - The people who are cheering on his destruction are also the people who need help and who are either still closet abusers wanting to see the worm they feel Josh is struggle under there feet or sadists who want an easy victim they can fulfil a warped insecure need for vengeance against.

I follow Josh because I see a fair chunk of my former self in him especially when I was in my teens, and I want him to to better and while I chuckle at some of the stupid stuff I look at him and I look on on horror because there I go if not for the grace of the gods. I want him to get sober and I want him to do better he will still do an say stupid shit but it wont be a full on train crash.

If you try and make his sad life worse your already sucking the bottom of the septic tank and are trying to feel superior because you know your not far of Josh, but it's the little bits of deflection that soften reality isn't it? Go on crack open another bottle or light up the 3rd spliff of a morning you've proved your better than a guy who started with nothing and wasted that, cushion your own inadiqucy and failure by punching down your ego's worth it - fucking tossers.

This post hit me hard not gonna lie. I was a daily drinker for like 3 or 4 years, did a bit of almost every type of drug but mainly booze weed ket and speed. Life was a disaster. Currently I'm 6 months sober from all but weed (I know I know not good but keeps me from doing dumber shit) and graduating college in a week.

I say this because I think you're 10000% right, more than most people in this thread want to admit. I don't consciously do it but I think the reason why I'm so interested in people like cobra and onlyusemeblade is because I see part of myself in both of them.

I don't think I would describe the feeling of watching him kill himself as enjoyable but it does satisfy some itch to make myself feel better even though I know I'm not. If there are any addicts reading this maybe you know what I mean.

I suspect anyone that engages with these guys in more than a casual manner (like watching full streams) has some serious problems in their life. A mentally well person doesn't enjoy watching someone drink themselves to death, but I kinda do.

 

[BallBuster II]

He's got Voodoo Ranger Imperial IPA.

9% ABV.

Well at least he is using a good beer for a change.

 

[Bossman Yak]

Latest food hack depressing af. Josh was in really low (suppy of) spirits but of course he would be.

 

[JazzHandsMcFeelz]

I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact he woke up screaming in agony, does he do this every time he wakes up normally off camera? What the hell is going on with that? It's genuinely freaky.

With those teeth it's shocking that he doesn't scream 24/7

 

[bathtubcosby]

Apparently the Gunt called Jorp and invited him to join the killstream, first Wings now the Gunt looks like our sexy gothic bad boy is in even higher demand after his freakout.

He's gotta wait until the weather warms up dood

 

[Bixby Snyder]

At this point Ozzy could call and he would have some excuse to not leave his hovel.

 

[Sicko Hunter]

 

[Agamemnon Busmalis]

Well at least he is using a good beer for a change.

Very true.

At least he didn't pour it into his 3am food hack video while blasted on booze and kratom. He's probably still sleeping that one off, shit.

 

[Thefrogsaregay]

At this point Ozzy could call and he would have some excuse to not leave his hovel.

"Heyyyy Ozzy man you're my idol, I'll get back to you when I can I'm doing my Nachos Mead food hack right now TWU."

 

[Cowboy Christ]

I dunno which makes more sense in my head: that he'd go out slowly drowning on his vomit, or he'd hit something on the way down and never get up again. Both outcomes are shit and mundane, but realistic and perfectly reasonable.
Either way, only rockstar thing he's doing when he goes out is destroying his liver and screaming "i don't want to be this kind of animal anymore".

That shit of waking up screeching is unreal, it's like an auditory defense mechanism, shit applies Stun to ordinary people and himself.

 

[Gulls on Film]

I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact he woke up screaming in agony, does he do this every time he wakes up normally off camera? What the hell is going on with that? It's genuinely freaky.

 

[Kugelsak Kastengrus 6th]

It's crazy how Cobes is even more unhinged when the camera isn't rolling. Especially when the "I own my troles" facade falls off. The night terror screaming was pretty unsettling too. I'm also certain that the wellness check wasn't really done outta malice.

I do agree with the sentiment that most modern trolls and possibly future generations are too retarded and cows themselves. Especially when they don't grasp the concept of the real world and the world wide web are two separate entities.

 

[Sicko Hunter]

It's crazy how Cobes is even more unhinged when the camera isn't rolling. Especially when the "I own my troles" facade falls off. The night terror screaming was pretty unsettling too. I'm also certain that the wellness check wasn't really done outta malice.

There is something deeply sad knowing the "I'm a sexy goth badboy with a HUGE dick and massive muscles!" is just a coping mechanism to keep him from losing it mentally. He knows there is no fangirls and he knows he isn't a rockstar. He's playing a role for the camera and when that camera goes off he's totally miserable. He hates his life. I really wish he would get help.

 

[Catboy Ranch Dressing]

All of his food hacks lately have just been soups of the same ingredients: shredded cheddar cheese, buffalo ranch seasoning, red hot sauce, beer, ranch, bacon bits, cheddar & sour cream ruffles.

 

[Agamemnon Busmalis]

It's crazy how Cobes is even more unhinged when the camera isn't rolling. Especially when the "I own my troles" facade falls off. The night terror screaming was pretty unsettling too. I'm also certain that the wellness check wasn't really done outta malice.

I don't think those were night terror screams, Cobra was semi-conscious during that part of the blackout and just let loose his frustration on himself and the troles.

Not that that's necessarily any better.

 

[Mister Baranavichy]

All of his food hacks lately have just been soups of the same ingredients: shredded cheddar cheese, buffalo ranch seasoning, red hot sauce, beer, ranch, bacon bits, cheddar & sour cream ruffles.

Poor teeth health and possible abscesses harboring risk of sepcis will do that to a man, still, wonder how will be the breaking point.

He's eating mostly liquids and stale doordash or killing the apetite with chain smocking, so it will probably come from a slight/massively fuck up, like bite a spoon and just strike a nerve or maybe another drunken front fall, and what he'll do next is even more of a mistery, would cobras ego even allow him to call Clint in a pain induced panic or would he desperatly reach for any alcohol to numb it?

 

[RollingRock2]

I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact he woke up screaming in agony, does he do this every time he wakes up normally off camera? What the hell is going on with that? It's genuinely freaky.

When he gets really wasted he gets angry at himself and the world. Probably too much reality creeping into his delusions.

 

[BPD Gunt Rider]

It's crazy how Cobes is even more unhinged when the camera isn't rolling. Especially when the "I own my troles" facade falls off. The night terror screaming was pretty unsettling too. I'm also certain that the wellness check wasn't really done outta malice.

I do agree with the sentiment that most modern trolls and possibly future generations are too retarded and cows themselves. Especially when they don't grasp the concept of the real world and the world wide web are two separate entities.

That was a side of Josh that hit me in the feels. It's as easy as stop making online content, yet that probably seems impossible to him because it's all he has socially and financially, I suppose.

It's been obvious for years that Josh copes hard with his mentality online like he's always better than other lolcows, other men are perverted sickos but not him, virtue signaling crap, etc... but seeing the manifestation that his online situation has totally broken him was rough.

 

[Phalanges Mycologist]

I’ve heard of parents being relieved when their tard kid finally kicks the bucket. Think that would be the case here.

And those of addicts as well, combine the two it's a powerful sensation.

There is something deeply sad knowing the "I'm a sexy goth badboy with a HUGE dick and massive muscles!" is just a coping mechanism to keep him from losing it mentally. He knows there is no fangirls and he knows he isn't a rockstar. He's playing a role for the camera and when that camera goes off he's totally miserable. He hates his life. I really wish he would get help.

It's all he's ever had, He's now not even got the facade of youth to cushion that for him and it's hitting him hard mentally. He's alone, feeing miserable, isolated, he's lived his life and got nothing to show for it and it's eating him up inside and he's trying to fill the void with booze and delusions to numb the pain and even that's not having the same effect any more - Josh's world is a very loanly sad place and he's either going to break soon or he's going to push it too far and break himself.