Megathread SRS and GRS surgeons and associated horrors - the medical community of experimental surgeons, the secret community of home butchers

[Generic Name #37]

I'm sure Gnostics would condemn stuff like that as work of the Demiurge.

I think that the term was directed at the cult of trans as a whole. I mean they do have their own gnosis of “queer theory” and think that “advanced biology” that underpin their ideology.

Demiurge says trans rights!

 

[No Batty Boys in Jamaica]

Well, that's because penises can get erect and can stand up on their own, because that is what they are naturally meant to do for reproduction, while these doughy sausage roll phalluses need to be delicately held up to be shown to the camera. It's gross and pathetic. I don't even think a guy with ED would bother holding up his limp dick for the camera because no one wants to see that shit.

Fuck I didn’t even think about how pooners can’t take a proper dick pic. They’re photographing it like it’s a damn baby.

I'm guessing it's 80% male troons none of whom ever made more than twenty bucks from their "work"

The other 20% are future pooners, whoring to pay for all the expenses like surgery and test. Because they know that once they start hormones, they lose the “just become a stripper or get a sugar daddy or something” fallback that most non-landwhale women have.

 

[Sõõrik]

If you're stupid enough to troon out the magical belief that body parts just grow back is plausible.

Instead of labia magically emerging a tiny dick starts to grow back

 

[Peaches Demure]

This German troon has a fistula which he calls his "second hole", and the accompanying picture he posted is horrific but also very difficult to decipher as to what's what:

Spoiler: Take a guess on which of these is supposed to be the "vagina": the white or the yellow blister

...oh, the white thing sticking out is apparently a "DYI" plastic dilator he just leaves in there when he "can't dilate"!

His own description of his "problem" and his surgeon's take on the matter are possibly even more bizarre than the actual results.

4 out of 5 patients get a complication like this? Other troons call bullshit on that and tell him to get a second opinion:

https://www.reddit.com/r/Transgender_Surgeries/comments/1ajqdnf/update_on_the_hole_in_my_vaginao/

 

[hufflemuff]

Spoiler: Take a guess on which of these is supposed to be the "vagina": the white or the yellow blister

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4 out of 5 patients get a complication like this?

Eh I believe it

 

[BScCollateral]

4 out of 5 patients get a complication like this?

Given how follow-up on these "experimental" surgeries generally goes, it could be 99% or 0.01%. Nobody knows.
This is the sort of medical rigor that gave the world Dr. Knox's Radium Infusions for Female Complaints. In the real world, they claamped down on this shit in the 1920s.

 

[batteredpancakes]

u/TheeVillain has a bloodblister on his amhole
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Shield I he worried? SRS question.

So in the last couple days I've had this black seemingly blood filled sack (?) Of sorts grow out. I'm not sure if this is something dangerous or if it'll dissipate on its own over time. I'm seeing my surgeon again next week yo talk revision and BA but I wanna ask here to make sure it's nothing urgent or worry some.

Also please excuse the hairs, I really need to shave

For additional context:

There is no pain

I feel nothing when I touch it and it feels almost detached/barely hanging there, though im not gonna touch it unless I have to.

I did send a message to my surgeon so she could look into it so ill probably get an answer in a day or two!

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u/Akitosz has realized dilation isn't all it's cracked up to be.
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How to get comfortable during dilation?​

Like seriously, how do others do this so easily? My arms and hands fucking die from dilation as I need to stretch and hold them up in order to reach my dilator in the right angle. On top of that I need to apply constant pressure for 1 hour with my fingers.

Is there any secret tip that helped you be more comfortable? I know the most important thing is to be relaxed, but with my arms being tense, my whole body is tense and it kinda pins my ass down into my bed. I also need to switch hands like every minute, as I can't handle much longer. It's just a fucking pain really...

And my legs, wtf am I supposed to do with my legs. They're tense af too and I just can't seem to find a way to both rest them comfortably and open them up. I also have bad hemorrhoids since surgery, so laying them flat isn't an option, as this gives too my pressure on my anus when dilating. So my legs have to be lifted up and towards my upper body.
Dilating is such a fucking pain and I am starting to loose the grip on it... I just reached month 3 and I am struggling to even start dilating. It get's worse and worse... Not because of pain in the operation area, but because of pain and discomfort like everywhere else during dilation.

How do you gals manage to just chill and relax your muscles during dilation? Please share your secrets I am so lost and close to stopping for good. I cry every fucking day when I think about this

(I am willing to spend money on w/e tool helps me lay comfortably, so pls recommend those too if there are any)

Dilating is such a fucking pain and I am starting to loose the grip on it... I just reached month 3 and I am struggling to even start dilating.

This is for life.

 

[Thursday]

Why does it seem so common that they don't understand they have to dilate for life? The doctors are telling them before surgery right...? Haha right?

 

[Convallaria majalis]

If you want to have bariatric surgery, many surgeons require you to see a psychotherapist, a dietician, attending support groups and demonstrate you're committed to actually losing weight. And depending on the type you get, even that surgery is reversible to some degree. How these people can just roll in and get their genitals rearranged is beyond me. Even in the screenshot above, I was surprised by the troon that didn't want a two-part surgery. I get people can't always take tons of time off work or whatever but you're literally chopping your dick off. I question their ability to even take care of their normal ADLs since they probably all stink and live in filth. But these people are expected to do wound care at home?

 

[batteredpancakes]

u/W-olfsbane is a TiF that has been posted before where she laments about how much she regrets phalloplasty and how her phallus shrunk. She has made 2 posts today showing off her scar and phallus as well as complaining about terfs stealing her images.
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She somehow manages to hate her scar despite it being waaaayyy better than everybody else's in this sub. Along with it being easily hide-able unlike the RFF chicks.

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Struggling to accept my graft site. Positivity please?

I’m trying to imagine that I fought a bear or a wolf. People have told me it looks like a cute stingray/manta ray. That I’m a fantasy character with a tragic backstory.

*For context, this is a MLD graft site, however I also had to get a skin graft to cover some of it, as they couldn’t fully close in a stitch line because of how thin I am. Currently 8 months post op and it will fade a lot more, hopefully

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She also posted her phallus. Her complaints before were about it shrinking to 4 inches so I guess it lengthened in the past 6 months to 6 inches.

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Liked this pic. Don’t want to end up on some terf’s site. So blurred it is.
Plus I’m still waiting for glansplasty, so it’s basically a hotdog right now, lol. (6”x5”)

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Also here's her and Jumbojimboy (the one that wants to ride the bus an hour to fuck foreign streetwalkers) talking about us.

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Jumbo
Eh I'm on kiwifarms and stuff. But I actually feel sorry for those people. I only have to hear about their hate from a distance, but they have to live with their hate every single day, and spread it around on everything around them. That sounds hellish

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Wolf
Google says it’s an anti-trans forum, but when I try to find it, it doesn’t show up at all?

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Jumbo
I don't know how to go there and I have no interest in looking. Someone told me my pics are there and I left it at that

oh and she posted this few days back.
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Spoiler: woman bragging about her skin tube (image)

 

[Jizzrag]

I’m sorry if this doesn’t fit here.

u/valkyri is a troon who’s gotten breast implants. I’m not posting this because of the results. I can’t even comment on that (except they’re too close together), because the pictures are so filtered he doesn’t even look human.
No, I’m posting this because he posted 8 thirst pics of himself in a surgery sub.

A cup to F cup

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Coomers gonna coom I guess.

 

[BScCollateral]

Why does it seem so common that they don't understand they have to dilate for life? The doctors are telling them before surgery right...? Haha right?

Given the level these people seem to operate at, I suspect any instructions given before the operation just fail to penetrate their brains.

 

[Lyra Plushie]

jesus, those filters make him look like some kind of reptilian

 

[Peaches Demure]

@batteredpancakes

That I’m a fantasy character with a tragic backstory.

This quote right here sums up the mentality and emotional maturity level of most TIFs to a tee (hah!). They can't cope with the stresses of daily life (which are there for everyone, not just sadsack cluster B teens) so they essentially make up this elaborate fantasy world where they're The Main Character™ and demand the rest of the world play along. "Dysphoria" is just a synonym for their lack of adaptive skills, but put gender in front of it, and they can wield it like a sledgehammer to coerce people to partake in their pretend play.

 

[TismFarmer]

I kinda like where this discussion is going...


rhodopensis:
Honestly as someone with severe dysphoria who cannot relate to this desire, I still sort of have some respect for it as someone's expression of being part of the body mod subculture. Also, there's a clear pipeline for someone who is FTM and started out with dildos and into subcultures, which leads to being exposed to stuff like Bad Dragon etc.
Is it a somewhat immature question? Sure but it's not "~offensive" to those of us who need standard genitals (need, not want). This is just a case of non-subcultural types being the fun police to other trans people who are also into body mods. No Fun Allowed.
This is just another example of the attitude of "No Transitioner Who Doesn't Feel Exactly Like Me!" tantrums you see sometimes, i.e. when nonbinary afab dysphoric users post about their need for SRS, or even those who prefer to stay living as female but still feel the same lower dysphoria. Meh.
Different lives just make for more variety in this world.

Mindless_Contract708:
Thank you for standing up and saying this!! Too many trans people seem to believe that someone whose dysphoria manifests itself differently than their personal experience, is mocking or being transphobic. If YOU are accepted with whichever expression of your inner self that you feel, then why shouldn't they? Is it a 'rules for thee but not for me' kind of situation? Or just a 'No Fun Allowed!' kneejerk reaction? I can't believe that people are actually using the argument that it wouldn't look 'natural' like theirs does, but, AFAB people don't 'naturally' have a penis OR a phallus. This reaction seems odd to say the least.(that was the most polite way to say what I really think about that particular argument)

 

[Potato Burrito]

u/Akitosz has realized dilation isn't all it's cracked up to be.

"Dilating is such a fucking pain and I am starting to loose the grip on it... I just reached month 3 and I am struggling to even start dilating."

Buddy you lost the grip on it when you chopped it off.

It's funny when you really think about it, he's asking a group of men with their dicks cut off how he's supposed to find the motivation to go fuck himself.

Dilation does sound horrible. Everything about it seems inconvenient and tedious at best, a disgusting constant reminder of your missing dick at worst. Do they just plop in front of the TV with their pants off and put on a Marvel movie?

Seems there's a real market opportunity for a troon-specific Sybian machine for dilation automation. TERFs should develop it, overcharge for it (only $2,999! $3,999 for dog dick furry upgrade!), and donate the profits to Women's Liberation Front. Alexa, go fuck myself.

 

[batteredpancakes]

Interesting find on r/FTMMen. u/One-Peace-8035
OP gets RFF phalloplasty and ends up a phallus too small for her liking. She refused to even take her underwear off because she hates it so much.
Won't get the Erectile device surgery for this reason and wishes she had gone for the thigh phalloplasty instead. Is depressed and is concerned her phallus won't be sufficient at pleasuring her girlfriend.
Libido is non-existent now even though it was fine before phallo and before she was with her girlfriend.
Doctors think it's psychological. I agree as she seems to have immense fear about not being good enough for her girlfriend. And crippling self-esteem issues. She seems very similar to TrappedinaBocks in this regard.
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libido loss after sex with gf

I [25] dated a cis girl [23] for 8 months.

For the first 7 months, I couldn’t take off my underwear because I don’t like what I have. I had the surgery from the forearm and since I’m skinny, my d*** Is under average, lengthwise and girthwise. this is the reason why I don’t want to do the next surgery that makes an erection possible. I regret that I trusted the doctors that advised me against another method. (like from the thigh) it is really depressing. from their view my surgery went fine and I should have no problem at all penetrating but I doubt that it would give her the same pleasure as a bigger d***.

while she enjoyed the intimacy very much, because I made sure that she didn’t feel like missing out with me (tons of foreplay and usage of dildos), my libido was almost nonexistent since the day she and I became intimate. I believe that she had a libido that was way above average, and I never turned her down when she was horny because I was afraid that she would feel like I might not be enough for her needs. in the very beginning she was actually afraid of penetration because of her first bad experience prior to our relationship but the more she trusted me the more we tried things out and she started liking long and big dildos, which actually made me insecure, although she tried to assure me that the only reason she enjoys it so much is because she’s doing it with me.

throughout the relationship, she supported me and told me how much she loved me, and that she’s lucky to have me because she only hears bad stories from her friends who had bad sexual experiences with their guys. when I finally exposed myself and let her touch me down their, she either was genuinely turned on by it (even though I didn’t feel pleasure by it) or she made an effort and pretended as if she really liked what she saw.

when I told her that my libido is very low, she assured me that she would love me even if we didn’t have sex, but I couldn’t believe her because she was basically horny most of the time.

Before I knew her, I was able to regularly feel pleasure by myself and be horny through visual stimulation. but after I met her I lost my libido. I really don’t know why, I checked my testosterone level and one doctor said that it was very high. The doctors said that that there could be a psychological reason behind it and I will talk about it to a therapist next week for the second time. the therapist is not an expert regarding sex I believe because she’s a therapist responsible for all the students at my university.

I had broken up with my gf a while ago and my libido still didn’t come back, my therapist at first said it might be because I still didn’t let go of her and when I told her about my dysphoria she said that I need to first accept myself ~> maybe it’s because I realized through the relationship with her, she was my first real girlfriend who was allowed to touch me, that my dysphoria is too high, and that no matter how much someone accepts me I will not feel pleasure if being touched and that took away my fantasies

maybe it’s because I didn’t love her or didn’t feel so drawn to her but I wanted to try it and hoped that it will eventually increase, I became dependent from her and she became emotionally dependent from me, things turned toxic and stressful until I ended it

does any one of you have or had a libido problem and could you solve it?

and I also have the (irrational) fear of her dating a new (cis) guy someday and comparing what I couldn’t give her to his d***.

sorry, this story is not very structured or well written. if any of this sounds familiar to you I would appreciate some help or advice on how to overcome the insecurities.

They've recently broken up and both seem to have some weird co-dependency issues.

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How is it possible to tell someone I love you and sext another guy two days later?

my girlfriend [F, 23] had broken up with me [M, 25] a while ago after 8 months, because she did not feel loved enough by me. she regretted it literally five minutes later and wanted to reverse it, but I insisted on the break up because we weren’t the best match. for some time she tried to get me back (in unhealthy and manipulative ways), but I had to repeatedly reject her which was painful for both of us.

then came the time she drugged herself with too many of her anxiety pills and stated that she attempted s****** (my therapist says that it is possible that this was to manipulate me) and I even had to call the ambulance. The day after this incident (still not sober) she made it obvious to me that she was using Tinder. Her friend told me about the concerning BDSM related messages which she sent to a guy [Ben] that she wanted to meet. (this will be important later on). it was hurtful but since she was still intoxicated I didn’t take it so seriously.

for two weeks I avoided any contact with her until she showed up at my place telling me that she would leave for good soon (to her home country) and that we would probably never see each other again, she was in therapy then and seemed much better and clear in her head. she was able to seduce me/ I let her seduce me, leading to us having sex, cuddling, sleeping together in the same bed and sharing a lot of time together, back then I believed that she will leave within just a few weeks. she seemed to understand that she needed to get better mentally and I as well have my own issues that I’m currently in therapy for.

I’m a trans man struggling with dysphoria and self esteem issues, not feeling enough. And she was the one making me feel like I was enough, constantly giving me assurance and telling me how much she loved me.

But something happened in those last weeks before her departure that I struggle with until today. she and I had set up a fake tinder account just to see whom of all the people we knew from our small town would use the app. as we swiped, she recognized the guy [Ben] to whom she had texted those bdsm fantasies of hers (sth she and I practiced when we were intimate) and she actually almost met that guy in person only to decide against it after he sent her his Instagram account where the name didn’t match with his Tinder profile (according to her). I can’t remember, but we must’ve swept left. The same night when she got home she texted me how much she enjoys spending time with me and that she still loved me. since she was about to leave I didn’t think that she had hopes of us getting back together.

two days later she visited me again and I wanted to check our fake tinder account to see whether people had texted us. she was reluctant to give me her phone and she also quickly took it away from me but I was able to see some of the messages. Unfortunately, I wasn’t surprised by the fact that she had texted some of the guys (according to her just for fun to see their reactions) but what really shocked me was that she had texted Ben again (how? we had swiped him left), telling him that he was cute and that she was masturbating to his pictures. It was so painful to read that I turned around, unable to look into her eyes, completely devastated, hurt, a feeling of betrayal

why would she do this? why would she text him with an account I might want to look into again since it was set up by both of us? why would she risk me seeing those messages? we were still intimate, she had told me that she loved me, and yet she would text these things to Ben? did she lie to me? can you love someone and still do sth like this? all I could think of was that I wasn’t enough for her physically, she needed a cis guy to just masturbate. (cis guy= man who was born as male and is fine with the sex he was born) I have trust issues now. What if my next partner will tell me that she loves me just to secretly masturbate to some other cis guy’s pictures and sext him?

when I confronted her, she apologized and said that she did not mean those words, and all she did was trying to check whether Ben would send her his Instagram account again so she could report him if he was not someone he claims to be. she wanted to know whom the guy was she almost met and that she does not need or want a cis guy and she wished that I believed her. I’m usually not very emotional but I had to cry the whole next day.

when she was on the plane, she texted me another very long message describing her love to me but because of what happened I can’t believe it.

we agreed to a time of no contact, and soon that time will end. to everyones surprise she will be back in town exactly then. I will try to avoid her but I am afraid seeing her with other guys, it’s been only two months since she left and she broke our no contact rule twice, sending me sth on christmas and new year’s (she will come back in March)

what I wonder about is whether her love to me that she expressed could have been real regarding her actions?

do women feel pleasure texting these things to a guy? (with a fake tinder account, so it was rather anonymously)

does her side sound believable?

appreciate any constructive words.

(I know I need to work on my self worth, I know we were broken up, I don’t feel cheated on in the traditional sense but rather as if she was lying to me and it hurts)

tl;dr: my ex sexted a guy from tinder during a time she was intimate with me (transman) two days after telling me that she loves me. she claims that she was not sexting him but trying to find out if he was a fraud - I’m questioning her words, having trust and self-esteem issues: does her story sound believable?

Her issues are so similar to TrappedinaBocks i'd consider thinking this was her but the ages and realtionship timeline doesn't add up.
Also Bocks is actually posting again thankfully as she had been posting suicide posts repeatedly then stopped posting completely for awhile. I was concerned she had actually selfdeleted but she seems to be doing better.

 

[Sparkling Yuzu]

Libido is non-existent now even though it was fine before phallo and before she was with her girlfriend.

Literally the only person to not get hornier on T lol.

Doctors think it's psychological. I agree as she seems to have immense fear about not being good enough for her girlfriend. And crippling self-esteem issues. She seems very similar to TrappedinaBocks in this regard.

Well a surgical skin tag isn't going to please anyone but she should know how to pleasure a woman as a lesbian.

 

[Sissyagamben]

Eh I'm on kiwifarms and stuff. But I actually feel sorry for those people. I only have to hear about their hate from a distance, but they have to live with their hate every single day, and spread it around on everything around them. That sounds hellish

Eh, I’m on kiwifarms and stuff. But I actually feel sorry for those people. I only have to hear about their arm skin tube stapled over their urethra and clit from a distance, but they have to live with their rot dogs every single day, and spread the putrid smell of decay, piss, and blood around on everything around them. That sounds hellish.

 

[batteredpancakes]

u/Cheaptrick2015 is 1 year post-op and has no sensation or orgasms. Is looking for support on r/phallo
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Phallo woes​

I am coming up on a year post op stage 1 RFF phalloplasty and I still can barely feel my penis. Orgasms are next to impossible to achieve and I’m so sad about it. I’ve had some complications. All UL related. Currently sitting to pee until June. Is there anyone who experienced significant sensory changes after the 1 year mark? Or should I accept my fate as the 5% who can’t feel there penis and never orgasm again…

Turns out she struggles to simulate her clit as they put her urethra right there so if she touches it she bleeds.
She is also on gabapentin/neurontin which is an anticonvulsant medication primarily used to treat partial seizures and neuropathic pain. Another Tif in the comments is talking about it so it must be common to be prescribed this after phalloplasty.

Anyway i took all the phallo pics from her profile

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She's had a bunch of issues including being diagnosed with gonorrhea 15 days after surgery but this posts sums it up
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Sad update
I got phallo in Feb 2023 with Dr Santucci in Austin TX. Since then I’ve had nothing but problems. First I had wound separation at the vaginectomy site. Then I had a fistula that took forever to close. Then the big problem hit. I got a stricture. I had surgery Aug 28 to fix the stricture. I had 2 and they had to do the buccal graft and the Johannas technique to fix both. Then I couldn’t pee out of the hole they created. Turns out my body healed it shut after being open for just under a month. Went back in to reopen the hole on Sep 11. Found out my body has healed it shut again. Going back Jan 11 to do another urethroplasty. Blah. I know this surgery is a marathon and not a race. It’s hard to be positive when I see so many have no issues at all. Oh well, just gotta keep moving forward.

I figured this was a self-hating lesbian like most of the black TiFs but she's posted on one of those roleplaying subs wanting to be a black "fucktoy" for a white man and to be bred lol.