So a woman would rather a man treat other women as sex objects than only herself?
Seems kind of silly. The very notion having sex with someone is sexualizing them and having them as a sexual object of desire. Making love is mutual sexual objectification of one another in love.
Or, you know, treat her like she's more than just a groady sex toy.
You literally just told us that you crossed boundaries with her because you can't stop pulling your dick out during every interaction with her. What sort of message does that send?
From the sound of it, she seemed genuinely interested in your outward facing personality, sought you out, and you immediately revealed that you're sort of a disgusting person that equates a person showing interest in you as a thumbs up for just...being a disgusting human being. You know who else pulls out their cock and starts jerking off when a person calls them to say 'hey, how's it going?'. Fucking retards with no impulse control.
Like, do you imagine, at any point during a casual or serious conversation, that it is okay to just yank your four inch fuckstick out and jerk off, while maintaining the conversation?
I'm really struggling to see you as a person that claims they want to get better or as you've insisted, that you're a good person.
Somewhere in your brain, there is something telling you that because you desire a woman, she has no rights to her comfort, privacy, or body. You seem to struggle with the disconnect that her rights to what people do with her and to her body override your own desires. You pay lip service to the idea that you'll 'get better'. How do you propose that you get better, because from your barely coherent ramblings on here, you don't think you have a problem.
Your porn addiction has permanently damaged your brain. You fucked up an almost guarenteed win that incels like you have killed for because you translated interest in you as some sort of free pass to objectify and degrade her.
So here's some pointers that I give out to mid functioning teenagers that manage to reach sexual maturity:
- Just because you have a penis does not give you the right to pull it out whenever, wherever. There is a time and a place for it.
- If people are nice to you, this does not mean they want to see or hear about your penis. If a mature, consenting adult wants to interact with your penis, they will tell you.
- Telling a person that you masturbate to their pictures/thinking about them is not appropriate casual conversation, normal people find this to be extremely creepy and a violation of their privacy and body. I will grant you some leeway here in that most people do do this, but it is not the complement you think it is to just blurt it out in casual conversation.
- If you find that you cannot control your impulses when you are around certain people, particularly people that have told you to stop the things you cannot control yourself from doing, you owe it to them, and ultimately, to yourself, to stop going near those people or interacting with them.
If a co-worker went out of her way to contact you, expressed interest, and you then immediately fucked that up because you are a degenerate, chalk that up as loss and a learning experience. She does not want to interact with you. Politely offering the olive branch by telling you to not talk to her outside of work is a kind person telling you to leave her alone.
You have massively fucked up a chance to enter a heteronormative relationship because you cannot view women as an equal and do not know how to control your impulses. Meditate on this.
I was really rooting for you here, buddy.