She was unempathetic of my issues. I could care less about mocking hers.
Yeah no shit people will be have zero sympathy to your plights, when you become incredibly hostile the moment they don't coddle you during your "woe is me" act and offer your actual constructive criticism.
You demonstrate the biggest issues incels like you have which is:
1)
Being all take but no give. You want to take things such as sympathy and understanding from others but refuse to do share the same sentiment when it's your turn to do that. How would you even function in a relationship that requires those things from both sides when you're not even willing to give?
2)
Expecting somebody else to fix your shit. You invest everything into the idea that one day some mystical dream girl will come, lift all of your burdens and fix everything, when reality couldn't be farther from that. People cannot fix you, the only person can fix your plights and personal demons is yourself and to burden someone else with the expectations of "rescuing/fixing" you is incredibly selfish.
3)
Rejection of any possibility of change. When people in this thread suggested you various things to help
you change for the better such as trying to find a community or just start lifting, your first response was
absolute rejection of that notion, making excuses such as "Gym/hobbies are expensive!" or "There's no community for guys it's fucked!". If you cannot go to the gym because of prices, there's plenty of guides and videos that shows you workout sets you can do at your own place and communities are easy to find, you just have to get out of your comfort zone and start looking.
This rejection of change could be also because of your autism and given how some people on the spectrum get easily disturbed by the idea of changing their habits or schedule, but whether that plays in your case or not, I really don't know but given that you use your autism as an excuse I highly doubt that's the case.
4)
Blaming everything but yourself for your current state. You blame everybody but yourself for your current state and failures, and use that as an excuse to not try at all. "Oh it's so hard to date because of my autism" So? Many people are on the spectrum but managed to found somebody connect and have a meaningful bond with. "I am too ugly", well if that's your opinion of yourself then there are easy fixes, start doing self-care even something simple as face washing can help you and plus people's definition of beauty is has its own variations. But given your schizo breakdowns here, I don't think looks are the issues here.
5)
Stop with doomer paranoid schizoshit. Nobody is out there to get you, stop spouting doomerims because nobody is attracted to negativity excepts those seek it out of their own volition.
@MasterBaiter is right to say it's best for you to stay away from women
for now, given how fragile your mental state is and you have more red flags than a reddit polycule couple looking for unicorns. Because given that your solution to your problems is to have some sorry girl fix you, that wouldn't be a fair or loving relationship where both parties thrive and grow together, it would be parasitism because only you would be benefiting from it.
