I'm so sorry for taking some days off from sharing the book with you, I had some stuff going on in the background and I didn't have the time to read the Pooner's manifesto in any of it. But I am free, so these updates will resume now. Thank you for the patience if there are some of you who wants to read the recap of the book here and not reading it from somewhere else.
Anyway, chapter ten! Sixteen more to go. The title is "That Little Indie", after that terrible incident with Ellen getting yelled by some hobo, what adventures would be waiting for Page in this chapter? This is gonna be a long one, so bear with me.
Here, she talks about the experience of getting her first tattoo. And the nickname in said tattoo is for her friend, Catherine Keener, the first time she mentions her by name in the book. Keep in mind that Ellen mentions that she met Catherine when she was in production for Hard Candy.
And she talks about meeting her for the first time, trying to indulge herself into her role in Hard Candy.
She was nervous meeting her, so she tried to make a good first impression on her, giving her the best dood look she could ever gave during that time. And she mentions that Catherine is a wonderful mixture of oozed warm and sincerity. And the way she way was direct to her in their conversation was just full of the exaggerated swagger of a middle-aged woman.
The movie was An American Crime, another small role that Ellen was into. Based on the horrible murder case of Sylvia Likens, also known as the case of the american Junko Furuta.
Ellen was stressed the whole time she had to film the role, but the company of Catherine helped go through the rough stuff during the recording. She then does a recap of the whole murder, in full detail by the way, on the hell that Sylvia went through. Nothing of substance is written here, but there are some chunks of text that describes the experience of doing a movie like that. It seems that filming these scenes caused an impact on her.
Also, her schizo voice came back to haunt her. When she was trying to relax herself on doing such a stressful role.
And then it got worse, comparing her pain to Sylvie's.
And it's safe to assume that her role in this movie was another blow in her mental health, as it needed to say that all the torture that Sylvie went through makes her personal struggles seem like nothing. And then she talks about how lonely was her new apartment in LA.
And then she talks about how when she was fucking someone, she had the epiphany of being gay right in that moment, possibly the most random time to say it.
LMAO. What?!
And then, it gets creepier, because you can see that Ellen is having very heavy mommy issues with Catherine Keener, feeling safe around her when she was in her place.
The filming of the movie would have an impact also in her eating disorder, as Ellen was feeling that it was wrong to eat that much, she even mentions at one point that she had to chug because suddenly she wanted to eat and nothing else, but then, she would feel like this.
When she returned to her home for the first time in a long time, her mother was very panicked, she never states why, but it's obvious that the reason she was like that was because her daughter was looking like a fucking skeleton. And she lowkey blames the mother for showing concern.
And now she makes clearer, that the role she did in fact traumatized her, and worsened her eating habits. Not even going to a therapist was enough for her to try and deal with this problem.
Then, she proceeds to talk about her loneliness and how much she was disconnecting herself from her friends in Halifax and how she was feeling that everyone were better without her. And again, the therapy was doing nothing on her. The role she had in Juno however, would help her to hide these problems for a fairly long time.
And then she met Michael Cera, who turned out to be one of his best friends during the filmation of Juno. She seems to be shocked on how can he be so calm during their trip while her mother was stressed.
She then talks about how Juno revitalized her and made her heal that mental trauma that An American Crime caused on her, she could eat, she could drink, she was more relaxed during filming. Basically, Juno helped her more to her mental health than anyone else for her, or so it seems.
She now mentions her first consensual (emphasis on that) sexual experience she had with Olivia Thirlby, one of the actresses that worked in Juno, playing Leah, Ellen fell in love the moment she saw her on set, they became friends very quickly.
And then one day, it happens, and Ellen puts it in the most blunt way possible on how it happened. Try reading this in a robotic voice.
And then she ends the chapter mentioning her positive experience in Juno, and how it hurted her having to say goodbye.
You better keep in mind that vomit part, because the next chapter there is a loooot of it getting written, that and mentions of going to the gynecologist, what does this contribute to the book you may ask? Nothing! So better be prepared.
hmm in his more feminine moments, this male actor sure looks like Ellen" LMAO
