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You'd think Bradley Manning would have cured them of that delusion, but no (thread).
Or the number of vets using the VA for their castrations.
Thread tax: Copium IV, stat!

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I feel fake
General QuestionHey, fam. I'm 50, mtf, 5 months on E. I feel like my ways are so ingrained and conditioned after decades that it's extremely difficult to shake off the persona and identity that I've been projecting my entire life.
I absolutely adore living as a woman, but I can't help but feel like I'm pretending. I also get big euphoria being correctly named and gendered (which only happens with my doctors and therapists for now) but I really struggle getting past the whole conflict of not accepting myself as a woman and I'm sure it has a lot to do with my realization coming so late.
It's really discouraging to find myself relating to hurtful things that transphobes say like, "You'll never be a real woman" , etc.
I know that I'm trans 100%. But sometimes I just feel hopeless that I'll always be stuck in the I should've been a woman, but I'm not. And the best I can do is dress like one kind of mentality. I just don't feel authentic, and that really upsets me greatly.
Do any of you relate? If so, how do you cope?
Big love, ~kaylee















