Mk gals, so i'm pre-HRT and have fantasized about having a vagina pretty much my entire life. but now that i'm trans, i know for a FACT that i want one. i used to tolerate my penis, but now it's so bad that just looking down in the shower or noticing the bulge under my panties makes me feel gross. I literally put my hand over it whenever i HAVE to look down.
The reason i say this is a "dilemma" is because masturbating has just become straight up irritating for me. I've tried a bunch of methods, from using a vibrator, to anal, to pillow humping, etc. they definitely work and help pleasure me, but none make me orgasm faster than just... stroking.
The pleasure i get from just doing the traditional jacking off method is too damn immense and i hate it. I still kinda feel like a girl while doing it in the moment and it'll feel amazing, especially since i've been a bit more confident about my voice and body, but the second i orgasm, i feel disgusted and can barely even stomach looking at it.
Any of yall know how to deal with this?
