Serious LGBT Discussion

It just sucks because my mind is getting dark and it’s getting hard to get out of bed, take care of myself, or go outside - it might sound silly and stupid but I somewhat genuinely regret coming onto this thread when signing up here because while I already knew that my homosexuality was wrong and an illness and could’ve avoided had I not been exposed to molestation/gay media/gay porn at a young age, and while I’m grateful to know that I’m not the only one who recognizes that I have a sickness I never asked for, I kinda feel a lot worse just realizing that my homosexuality could’ve been avoided had I experienced a better childhood.
unfortunately i don't think you're going to find the help that you need someplace where people unironically ask "have you just tried not being gay?" going down that path is something that hasn't worked historically. regardless of how it happened being gay is part of you now and any kind of support you can get to separate being gay from being molested will help with some of your depression

Regardless, I still know I need therapy because it’s getting to the point where I started to cut all communication with most of the gay people in my life
over the last decade, but especially over the last few years, a lot of gays have become obnoxious faggots who are outright pushing pedophilia and grooming. that's especially true for younger people. if that's who you're cutting out that's a good first step, but you have to replace those lost connections with something. sane and non-destructive gay people are out there that have gone through the same problems you have and can help, but they're going to be hard to find because the majority of everyone, everywhere, have current-year advanced brain rot and actively punish sane, reasonable people
 
There's a diagnostic one can run to determine whether or not the Current Year gay lifestyle is for them. Consider the following statement: it's easier to find a gay man willing to blow you than it is to find one willing to hold your hand. If your reaction is to rub your hands together in anticipation of unlimited blow jobs, congratulations. You'll find what you're looking for. For everyone else, though, all I can say is whatever peace you find will come from within, after years of soul-searching, and the answers you find will be difficult to express in words.
 
There's a diagnostic one can run to determine whether or not the Current Year gay lifestyle is for them. Consider the following statement: it's easier to find a gay man willing to blow you than it is to find one willing to hold your hand. If your reaction is to rub your hands together in anticipation of unlimited blow jobs, congratulations. You'll find what you're looking for. For everyone else, though, all I can say is whatever peace you find will come from within, after years of soul-searching, and the answers you find will be difficult to express in words.
This is honestly one of the hardest parts of dealing with homosexuality and why I hate it so much.
 
unfortunately i don't think you're going to find the help that you need someplace where people unironically ask "have you just tried not being gay?" going down that path is something that hasn't worked historically. regardless of how it happened being gay is part of you now and any kind of support you can get to separate being gay from being molested will help with some of your depression


over the last decade, but especially over the last few years, a lot of gays have become obnoxious faggots who are outright pushing pedophilia and grooming. that's especially true for younger people. if that's who you're cutting out that's a good first step, but you have to replace those lost connections with something. sane and non-destructive gay people are out there that have gone through the same problems you have and can help, but they're going to be hard to find because the majority of everyone, everywhere, have current-year advanced brain rot and actively punish sane, reasonable people
It’s going to be difficult to replace those lost connections with something given that I’m losing a lot of people in my life by making this choice (the majority of my friends, whether they were online or IRL, are gay), but I know that having people in my life with this condition is only going to negatively influence me into thinking mine is okay. The only gay person I’m not going to fully remove from my life is my sister, but I need to find an appropriate and nice way to tell her that I can’t go to her wedding anymore (which will surely piss her and my parents off but idc lol) or be alone with her and her partner - I’m basically forced to have a relationship with her by choice but wouldn’t feel like it’s pulling teeth if she decided to get rid of her homosexual condition.

In regards to what you said about “sane and no -destructive” gay people, I find that to be a bit of an oxymoron. While there are gay people who do live their lives without engaging in debachuary/hendonism/substances/reckless sex/etc., I still think that engaging in homosexuality in general is an act of self-destruction, so I only want people in my life who aren’t destroying themselves.
 
I’m speaking as someone who’s pretty critical of fags depending on the day (and today is one of those days), but have you tried joining a gay organization made up of normal gays? Gays Against Groomers seems like an alright start, I think.
I used to be involved with Gays Against Groomers, but I don’t consider homosexuality to be normal anymore so I wouldn’t join gay anything. It would be the equivalent of me joining a club for “normal” meth addicts.
 
My parents don’t give a shit about me or my mental health unfortunately and would probably laugh it off and say that I need to worry about “real things”. My sister would also most likely refuse to hear me out and probably assume it’s (correctly) internalized homophobia, even though it’s coming from a logical place given that I have the self awareness she doesn’t and know that my same-sex attractions are wrong and unnatural. I can’t see a therapist who can help me with this given that the majority are woke and libbed out and will tell me that there’s nothing wrong with homosexuality. The only other option for a non-pro homosexuality therapist would be a Christian/Catholic one but I’m not the religious type. I’m basically screwed and don’t know what to do - you mentioned suicide and it’s starting to feel like an option even though I want to live. This thread is difficult to read but it’s a necessity given that it reminds me that it’s not just me that thinks I have this disorder.
If your Homer sexuality is a coping mechanism over some trauma or some other unrelated issue, you may want to seek professional help. Just don't mention your homosexuality, at least not at first. If the reason to cope disappears, maybe you'll stop being a fag.

If it's just simply how you turned out to be during your puberty, there's nothing left to do but to embrace it. You're here, you're queer, get used to it.
 
If your Homer sexuality is a coping mechanism over some trauma or some other unrelated issue, you may want to seek professional help. Just don't mention your homosexuality, at least not at first. If the reason to cope disappears, maybe you'll stop being a fag.

If it's just simply how you turned out to be during your puberty, there's nothing left to do but to embrace it. You're here, you're queer, get used to it.
I don’t think it’s a coping mechanism lol I think I’m just screwed. I’ve tried to get rid of it for years but it’s been to no avail.
 
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There is nothing good about being gay.
I think being gay isn't a good thing or a bad thing, it's just a thing. It's not new. Look to the animal kingdom, especially in species where pair bonding happens, you see MM and FF pairings, I've even read a study about two male penguins raising an orphaned babe. As you mentioned, you have a ton of internalized homophobia, a lot of LGBT people do, but as someone who was the opposite of you, someone who grew up hanging around homophobes and nazis, you have nothing to gain but mental anguish when hanging around people who point out every single thing wrong with being gay.



And one last thing, when you see claims made by people on them, every single tiny comment, look it up, Google it. I would say almost 75% of the stuff I see get posted in politics threads are either gross misrepresentations or straight up made up.
 
I think being gay isn't a good thing or a bad thing, it's just a thing. It's not new. Look to the animal kingdom, especially in species where pair bonding happens, you see MM and FF pairings, I've even read a study about two male penguins raising an orphaned babe. As you mentioned, you have a ton of internalized homophobia, a lot of LGBT people do, but as someone who was the opposite of you, someone who grew up hanging around homophobes and nazis, you have nothing to gain but mental anguish when hanging around people who point out every single thing wrong with being gay.



And one last thing, when you see claims made by people on them, every single tiny comment, look it up, Google it. I would say almost 75% of the stuff I see get posted in politics threads are either gross misrepresentations or straight up made up.
The animal thing always felt like a cope. Imo they only engage in gay acts as a way to hurt each other
 
The animal thing always felt like a cope. Imo they only engage in gay acts as a way to hurt each other
Calling something "unnatural" is pure and utter cope, it is putting something down without having to actually analyze why something is bad other than vibes or "Bibble says so!". There is nothing really wrong about homosexuality, especially when it comes to romantic relations, and seeing it in nature and thinking it's about pain, especially when you are talking about how bad of a dude you are for being a homogay, it just sounds like projection.
 
Calling something "unnatural" is pure and utter cope, it is putting something down without having to actually analyze why something is bad other than vibes or "Bibble says so!". There is nothing really wrong about homosexuality, especially when it comes to romantic relations, and seeing it in nature and thinking it's about pain, especially when you are talking about how bad of a dude you are for being a homogay, it just sounds like projection.
It’s called self-awareness. I know I have a sickness the same way I’d know if I had a mental health disorder or a drug addiction. It’s no different.
 
I wish conversion therapy was actually effective. I doubt anyone could ever change my homosexual thoughts to heterosexual thoughts but I would do anything to make homosexual thoughts and urges go away. I’ve been feeling mildly suicidal recently knowing that I never signed up for being this way and instead it was the result of upbringing/porn/media/molestation. Even just seeing all this pride month shit is making me depressed knowing I used to take so much pride in my sexual identity and now I view it like a curse. I don’t want to be gay anymore I just want to be normal.
Here's advice
just jack off to straight porn instead of gay porn }:P
 
It’s called self-awareness. I know I have a sickness the same way I’d know if I had a mental health disorder or a drug addiction. It’s no different.
It's called brainworms.
I’ve tried that a hundred times since I was a teenager and it’s never worked, ever. I’ve accepted that I’ll be plagued with this illness for the rest of my life and it’s going to ruin me.
Oooooh!!!! You're gonna get married..... to someone of the same sex!!!! Sp00ky sc4ry!!!!
 
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