"Is there a way you can tell your story without broadcasting a relationship that I thought was special to you, to everyone?"
Under normal circumstances that would be a reasonable thing to ask but considering you sucked off another married man under his desk during a livestream and left your husband for said married man to be a live-in-nanny, accepting payment as "rails of coke all day in his bathroom," you can probably reasonably understand how upset your partner is and how reluctant he is to think that anything was "special."
"I mean I guess I'm seeing now that you thought everything that came out of it was evil, so I may be asking a lot here."
I dunno April you left your husband for a substance abuse problems, federal charges and child neglect. I wouldn't say it's evil but I think Aaron would be correct in surmising that it's a fairly good collection of poor decisions and even worse outcomes. You can't blame him for distancing himself from it, even if he was small part of it for a time. You also can't be fuckin' pissy about him seeing the writing on the wall and backing out, you should've joined him. Your decision not to has it's own consequences, you can't back out of them with pleas of sympathy and poor attempts at guilt tripping others.
Go get help, be honest with yourself and make some better decisions.
Jesus Christ, look at yourself.
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