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Yeah. I just looked up the strayan system and it's pretty much the same as ours apart from the GP thing, basically everything is free here apart from dentistry, ophthalmologists and some other assorted specialists. Anything dental is a racket, no doubt about it, and tons of extra stuff at any doctor you have to pay out of pocket for, much like your phone GP appointment.
We also got that private insurance/free system except when you are working for the state or run an independent business, then you are forced to go private and the monthly payments are outrageous. It's also illegal to not be insured, they can and will sue the pants off you if you miss as much as one payment if you are private.

Edit: You can get free dental stuff if you are on the dole (and anything non-cosmetic is free for everyone), i had some stuff done when i wasn't working but you only get the most basic of care, a metal crown in my case. Everything else you pay out the ass for (natural-looking crowns, implants, braces if you are over the age of 18 and the like).
 
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Yeah. I just looked up the strayan system and it's pretty much the same as ours apart from the GP thing, basically everything is free here apart from dentistry, ophthalmologists and some other assorted specialists. Anything dental is a racket, no doubt about it, and tons of extra stuff at any doctor you have to pay out of pocket for, much like your phone GP appointment.
We also got that private insurance/free system except when you are working for the state or run an independent business, then you are forced to go private and the monthly payments are outrageous. It's also illegal to not be insured, they can and will sue the pants off you if you miss as much as one payment if you are private.

Edit: You can get free dental stuff if you are on the dole (and anything non-cosmetic is free for everyone), i had some stuff done when i wasn't working but you only get the most basic of care, a metal crown in my case. Everything else you pay out the ass for (natural-looking crowns, implants, braces if you are over the age of 18 and the like).
Yep. They sound near identical. We also get punished for not having private health insurance (pay more tax 😒) but it's not mandatory.

Fucking sucks that dental and allied health (physio) isn't fully covered 😔

I have near perfect teeth and paid out the arse for braces (and then stopped wearing the retainer fuuuuck).
But I recognise that covering dental would be incredibly beneficial from a preventative health care perspective. A lot of people can't afford proper dentistry which has a knock of effect on the rest of their health. It makes me legit angry that it's not covered under Medicare
(Fuck you Australian Dental Association).

Also, we have a "rebate" system with things like physiotherapy (also psychology) but it's capped as a certain number of sessions per year and then after that you're paying full fees.

I see the physio every 3-6 weeks depending on how I'm going and my bank account suffers for it 😭
 
"You know what, I'm gonna put effort and money into my health. Time to buy shoes"
>impossible to find decent looking and ergonomic shoes
"Okay, pillow. I use mine the wrong way around, let's look into using it properly"
>neck pain
>try to shop around; read nothing but doom and gloom about any and all pillows
Man I feel bad about wasting $90 on shoes. Mfers out here spending $30 on cigs a day. I really gotta fix my priorities.
Anyway: Second job rejection. It's fine and all, but the way they for some fucking reason wrote "129 applicants". Why? Who does that help? Is it meant to be a consolation? "Oh there was 128 other people!", yeah and you didnt even get into the interviews. The worst part is that it's not like you can practice and improve for the next one. It's the fact you didn't work 365 days a year since 18 that makes it so that you will never get a job.

I'm barely 30 and I've never aimed for the stars but god damn, I feel lost already. I could go do a 3 year certificate of some sort and change my career around but Id like to at least pretend to use my master's. It fucking sucks. I mean it doesn't, I'm somewhat positive and not suicidal about it, but seeing even the rare comparable person to I; no previous work history ,same degree, no student job experience, then land a bank gig. Fucking hell.
 
idk what it is lately, i completly can't stand my own look anymore.
doesn't help that my sisters wedding photos (March this year) legit give me body dysmorphia.
i've lost 21,3Kg, i still want to lose the same amount kinda.
everything looks off and ugly. especially when others photograph me.
like you take phots of a fucking shizo having to leave the house.
if i had the money id get so much fixed.
heck id even cut it all away myself if i wouldnt have to show up to this stupid job.
like no one should reproduce with me, fucking ugly.

in selfies it's a-ok. but when others take pics, all these angles i don't see like that.
fell off my work out routine too, work is just annoying atm, i don't really have a private life much out of work.
it's hard to start again, i was thinking i got far, but these pics make me feel like i achieved NOTHING.

i feel awful.
sober for all this time, broke for all this time, always trying, doing everything alone.
people don't help, family doesn't help. they all just leave dumb comments. yet no one does anything.

at times i start to think again i should just end it. the money situation is unfixable for a long time.
my career? just dumbfuck slavery for other idiots.
can't even get myself to draw again.
useless, useless and ugly. unloveable.
feel no connection to where i live, no connection to the people who birthed me.
no connection to any of this shit that should help me, or guide me.
it all just fills me with guilt, and debt, i feel i can never make due.

when i see those pics all those customers who tell me that i had lost so much,
make me feel like they either are fucking with me or i can't see what they see.
i hate seeing fat ppl, and so many fat ppl are around.
maybe i do hyperfocus, maybe it's too much ugly people in this town.
maybe all my inner uglyness can never be hidden away.
i guess the curse never goes away.
i guess i got my answers.
no one needs me, and i'm not good for anyone i'm around.
so i should stay alone, get abused by people and work. and just shut up and take it.

freak.
psycho.
 
Hella good, the week is almost over and I'm going to Central America next weekend to meet my family for the first time and explore the Niguraguan side of my herritage. This is also gonna be my first third world experience so I'm pretty excited. Its like "beginner mode" because I'll be with my grandmother who was born there. My family owns a wild life reserve in a rural jungle region with a Rhino and a Giraffe and I am going to boop them both on the snoot.
 
I’m tired/angry at the absolute shitshow Canada and the world is. At the same time I am thankful for having such a loving/supportive family. I can find goodness/happiness in things but I am very worried about the future.
You definitely should. Picture all the people that had their families were fractured for such a small thing, politics. The only message that said that would divide honestly should be seen in awe in Christ's but that is people's choice to disagree.
 
I think I'm losing my friend group to lefty brainrot. I've always known they were left leaning, but over the course of a year, our group chat has gotten progressively (heh) worse. Political news has been getting brought up more often. The fact that we're a few months from the election and Trump's conviction has only kicked into high gear with one friend even citing Hasan as a genuine source of news.

It's a strange and somewhat depressing feeling watching this happen in real time. I try not to engage when politics get brought up because I don't want to cause issues. Maybe I just need to learn to let it go? I doubt anything I say will change anyone's mind anyway.
 
I think I'm losing my friend group to lefty brainrot. I've always known they were left leaning, but over the course of a year, our group chat has gotten progressively (heh) worse. Political news has been getting brought up more often. The fact that we're a few months from the election and Trump's conviction has only kicked into high gear with one friend even citing Hasan as a genuine source of news.

It's a strange and somewhat depressing feeling watching this happen in real time. I try not to engage when politics get brought up because I don't want to cause issues. Maybe I just need to learn to let it go? I doubt anything I say will change anyone's mind anyway.
see if you can raise questions that cause them to glitch? Like "do you support israel or palestine" or "should we be more accepting of muslim opinions on homosexuality?"

I wonder if I could be a journalist? I cannot possibly be worse then a buzzfeed author
 
see if you can raise questions that cause them to glitch? Like "do you support israel or palestine" or "should we be more accepting of muslim opinions on homosexuality?"

I wonder if I could be a journalist? I cannot possibly be worse then a buzzfeed author
Lmao yeah, set off the group chat civil war and just be done with it. Like ripping off a bandaid.
 
Lmao yeah, set off the group chat civil war and just be done with it. Like ripping off a bandaid.
Sometimes it is better to try and talk. What makes it worse is the other person says that "you are just saying, like, your opinion, man." Then there's nothing to do and wait for your friend to come to his or her respective conclusions by the own.
 
I think I'm losing my friend group to lefty brainrot. I've always known they were left leaning, but over the course of a year, our group chat has gotten progressively (heh) worse. Political news has been getting brought up more often. The fact that we're a few months from the election and Trump's conviction has only kicked into high gear with one friend even citing Hasan as a genuine source of news.

It's a strange and somewhat depressing feeling watching this happen in real time. I try not to engage when politics get brought up because I don't want to cause issues. Maybe I just need to learn to let it go? I doubt anything I say will change anyone's mind anyway.
It sounds like these are internet friends not IRL friends. You can burn it all down for the lols by speaking your mind or you can walk away. There's nothing that's going to stop the slide except speaking up and having fights/burning it because you've already passively let it happen rather than telling them to pack it in the moment they start. If you do burn it you're likely to find a few of them agree with you and will leave the group chat and talk to you in private.

I'm doing pretty good today. Going to knuckle down and work on developing a new skillset I want to commercialize. Old skills repurposed into a new hobby that I can make some extra cash on.
 
Over the last few days I've been mulling it over and I've realized that after 6 years of service I'm going to be leaving my volunteer gig at our local wildlife clinic. It's a hard decision because I enjoy it so much and people really appreciate how much work I do, but I'm trying to balance it with both my a paying job and freelance art. I'm at the point where I genuinely never take days off from anything and I'm running myself pretty ragged.
I feel particularly bad because we're in baby season right now so the clinic is like a warzone, it really is the worst time to leave. I'm not tapping out right away though, I have a full month before my last shift so I can impart the wisdom of being the World's Greatest Poop Cleaner. I'm also going to have to give lots of cuddles to our educational snake because he's my buddy and I'll miss him :(

I weighed a lot of opossums, fed baby crows, got bit and scratched and pooped on by a lot of things, watched rehabilitated animals get released back into the wild, got scabies one time, got paid entirely in the occasional free donut or cupcake. But I learned a ton of things not just about animals but general skills that I've applied to every job I've had in that time. I've put on resumes "qualified to clean really disgusting things". I don't really want to make a big deal about my last day, but I almost want to bring in cookies or something as a thank you.
 
I don't really want to make a big deal about my last day, but I almost want to bring in cookies or something as a thank you.
I think that sounds like a really nice thing to do and if makes you happy then go for it.
Make it a positive farewell instead of a sad one.

Also, you're an incredibly good person.
6 years of wildlife volunteering is admirable - the world needs more people like you.
 
so i should stay alone, get abused by people and work. and just shut up and take it.
Sounds like you aren’t really happy with where you are, have you considered moving?
I feel particularly bad because we're in baby season right now so the clinic is like a warzone, it really is the worst time to leave. I'm not tapping out right away though
If it will make you fell any better, most things aren’t conclusive and will resolve with you putting more time in. For example I was helping my grandfather out around his place when my grandmother got dementia, it was nice being with family and helping out but its sucking a lot of life out of my early 20s. So after my grandma passed we figured it would be the end of a lot of that work and we could go back to presuing are passions and that. Well now almost every month my grandfather has found a way to injure himself while working so we’re back to our weekly visits. My point being is your work will never end so if you are planning on trying something or presuing something it will always be an inconvenience fire everyone around you but it’s necessary if you want to be happy
 
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I think I might try to go back to school. If I can get into a program and get a full student loan I wouldn't have to worry about money for a while and focus on bettering myself. But I'd like to go into something that I can learn an employable skill, and not just get a fake degree from Bow Valley.


...I wonder if I can get into an IT program. I did take one years ago but the info is outdated and my programming skills are rusty, but a lot of the other stuff is stuff that I've been doing for years.
 
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