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Hey, no matter how dark things get, there's always hope... for us, because you should kill yourself.Because I'm really driven by physical attractiveness? Or because I'm usually quite emotionally cold? I mean I'm a really friendly and agreeable person it's just when it comes to love. I got hurt very badly by both women I fell for (the first girl was legitimately evil and messed me up bad), so I decided to close myself off from ever feeling anything. Then this new girl seemed to have fallen for me as I had for her, so I dropped my guard and let myself explore deeper feelings for her, and yet again I got hurt. I think it just wasn't meant for me to be able to experience love, every time I explore the possibility I get hurt, there's never a happy ending for me when I go down this road.
My intentions towards this particular woman were very genuine. I truly wanted to be with her and would've done my best to make her happy. Obviously she lost those feelings for me, and I don't know whether it was because of my real life appearance, or me acting too nice, or seeming eager, or what. I'll never know in fact, because she didn't even have the courtesy to let me know she wasn't feeling it, just ghosted me and let me believe for a few more days after meeting her that I was going to see her again.