I'm about 1 year on hrt and am with my partner from pre transition. She is very understanding and supportive. By no means does she expect me to have a male role or anything like that in the bedroom.
My testosterone levels are so low, they're only 0.5 with me taking 12.5mg of cyproterone once a week. So T isn't my issue, my E levels are good too. But unfortunately my penis still works as good as the day I started hormones.
I can't stand it.
The second I try to be intimate with my partner I get rock hard, which makes me get extremely uncomfortable physically and emotionally, I basically just shut down and cry.
I enjoy how everything feels when it's soft, especially with a vibrator, etc. I would ideally like to get away with just and orchi until Canada has more options for vagioplastys, or until I have the money to get whatever I want done out of country. Plus Im a student and am not prepared for a vagioplasty recovery.
At this point I don't really care about trying to preserve function to maintain tissue. I just want it to atrophy and stop getting hard.
Are there anyways of accelerating this process? Complete abstinence on my end, surgery for blood flow, etc?
I need my sex life back with my partner. I just want to fool around without a rock hard 8" reminder.
I'm not asexual and I hate living my life as if I am. I feel like a terrible partner considering she's stuck around with my through everything without any complaints and I can't even have proper intimacy with her.