Post op 9 months, Dr Brassard. SRS was an overwhelming failure and i do not know how to cope To start off before you ask: 25yo, 5'7" 130lbs and active (at least before surgery) and i did not travel for surgery I don't know how it could go so wrong. It all started going to shit the day after surgery, apparently my body really hates opiod painkillers and the antibiotics they had, so i spent my entire stay there with the worst headache and vomitting, i felt like i was gonna die. I was barely able to stand after 3 days and they had to wheel me from the surgery wing to the ascepiade (recovery centre). Of course, i never met anyone since i was so sick. After 5 (or 6?) days they removed most of the packing and i got my first look..... and i already had a ton of dehiscence. Then came the first dilation and i only barely got 3 dots in... obviously not good. I was also in a lot of pain, so much so that i took tramadol for 6 months. 2 weeks post op the gauze covering the clit and small lips came out and i got a look at the whole thing (pic #3) and i was devastated to see that the small lips/clitoral hood/tissue around the urethra were all gone. Fast forward to now, i'm stuck with this Looks: It looks like a wound at best, missing a lot of tissue that i have no faith can be replaced properly Feels: Chronic clitoral pain, i take pregabalin to make it somewhat manageable but i cannot have any stimulation and scar pain at the entrance of the canal. Fonction: Only 4inches of depth, not able to use orange or even green dilator without scar pain being unbearable and apparently i have so much hair inside my surgeon thought it was "impossible", i don't know how that can possibly be fixed unless i get a colon revision and i will never have the cash for that anyway. No sure i'll even be able to orgasm ever again I just feel so fucking hopeless, i saw my surgeon 2 months ago and he told me it's still too early to talk revision amd to manage my expectations and i'm not stupid, i know this all means i'll never get to experience a normal, fonctionnal result like most people on this sub and it's devastating, i can't focus on anything, i just break down crying everyday and the pain is a constant reminder of how fucked up i am and i keep seeing such incredible results it kills me so much Idk why i'm making this post, i'm sorry if you're waiting for surgery and seeing this