How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Neighborhood Curmudgeon]

Another long week of work, but on the bright side I'm getting a new car soon! As in a car that is not used! I'm not looking forward to paying of the loan, but thankfully the loan will be relatively small compared to others so it's all good!

Besides that, just hanging in there but doing good too.

 

[The Feline Solution]

Had my unofficial birthday celebration today. My real birthday is still a couple of weeks of but onw of my best friends secured an apartment to party today. Was good, didn't partake in doing any drugs but i'm completely fucked up on alcohol. Almost stepped in the wrong train because of that, haven't been this drunk in a while. On my way home, they just harrassed me with videi calls via whatsapp, entertained their shit on full volume on the subway for a couple of minutes before i worked out how to shut that shit down on Whatsapp. Still got around an houe before i'm home, it was a good day.

Took considerably less time to get home than i thought, already laying in bed and eating pizza like the slob that i am. Girlfriend semi-serious on my ass because i smell like other mens perfume (i hug and kiss my male friends when we meet) but it's all good. 1 AM now, kept it very civil today by my standards, still will most likely need all of Sunday to sleep todays shit off. Not used to hard drinking at all anymore.

 

[Liquid denim]

Increasingly angry. I talked to this guy on Wednesday about buying something from him because it was a sweet deal. Now today he tells me he was underselling it, and if I want it he will have to raise the price from 2100 to 3000 bucks. We agreed on 2100, and now he wants to change it. I told him to never contact me again and to shove those 900 dollars up his ass.

To reply to this, the guy messaged me back and is willing to sell it for the agreed price. In a bit of a pickle. On one hand I want it, and on the other this is trashy behavior

 

[AnOminous]

To reply to this, the guy messaged me back and is willing to sell it for the agreed price. In a bit of a pickle. On one hand I want it, and on the other this is trashy behavior

I'd say no. The situation is sketchy and it's already automatically sketchy just dealing with strangers on the Internet. Better he be the one who learns a lesson than you.

 

[DeutscheKatze]

i hope one day im able to sleep a complete night thru in one go
this insomnia sucks

 

[Mayor Cody Travers]

This weekend has been pure hell in two ways: the abusive thugs that are my brother and father have once again gotten threatening on my mother - thankfully no physical abuse due to both threats of police and me being there, both of those gutless cowards scared shitless of me due to my strength - and we had to give away one of my family dogs today. I will focus on the dog since I've spoken on my shit family situation before and it is affecting her and I more.

This dog I shall call Storm. He is son of one of our dogs I'll call Mack. Unlike every other dog in the family pack, Storm was not raised with us from birth but came as a puppy as a result of potential show-dog stuff (my mom and brother do that, and it is one of my mom's few remaining joys in life) but he grew far too large for that despite looking fantastic otherwise... but due to not growing up wholesale with us got into dominance issues with Mack, who ended up seeing him as a foreign threat. And it was getting bad due to Mack being smaller and thinner but bullying Storm, and they finally lost it a week ago, seeing total red on one another, and forced to split into separate rooms and one in the rest of the house as the other's shut off.

Today mom and I took Storm to a new home, something that had always been brewing in the back of everyone's minds for a while due to show dog potential and space in the house, and the fighting finally confirming it had to happen. This is especially painful for me. Due to Mack claiming my brother as his favorite human and the rest of the pack (all ladies) hanging with brother or my parents, Storm chose me to be with despite being the one to focus on/be the family cats' person. This presented its own issues since my room, even when I don't live there anymore, is the cats' haven but Storm slowly broke that down to be with me and it stressed the cats out. But he was still the first dog to explicitly like me best.

But while Storm will no doubt love his new home and family, it's miserable for me. It's so much quieter. He was so full of love, he loved playing with our youngest pup (he was second-youngest) who was his cousin and best friend, and that bond matured him with treating the lady dogs nicer and they came around to him, it warmed my heart. While my room will be a needed haven again for the cats again, Mack is already calming down in a good way, and it's certainly more manageable in sheer numbers and obedience (Storm never got trained per se by my increasingly lazy-ass and utterly irresponsible brother, and my mom is too old and frail to do it like she did for all previous ones in the pack) it feels awful not having him around to pop in to say hi or chill out with me on visits home. I am approaching middle age yet never, ever had to give away a pet before. It's hell on earth. I miss him so damn much.

I miss him so damn much...

God as my witness I will become as successful as I can and get a good home so that I may never see my family pets forced to go like this ever again.

 

[CoffeeCup]

New Job Tomorrow, a good upswing.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

Dealing with imposter syndrome regarding job opportunities though it's getting a tiny bit better.

Also dealing with some infection. Got a nasty cold and a high fever. So now I'm doing a Foodie Beauty and going seal in bed.

Sunday is usually cleaning day but I did it Friday due to guests and meetings so I can wallow in my own recovering immune system with soup and lemon tea OCD free.

 

[Mop_Bucket]

Apparently, while drunk, I ordered a fucking WH40K Dreadnaught toy, I'm not even one of those man children that collects toys. I am trying to be frugal and this thing was $160 but apparently my drunken, autistic ass just NEEDED a foot tall toy.

Amazon takes everything back but it's already shipped and I have to wait for it to show up so I can drop it off at a return location. I seriously think I'm going to dry out for the rest of the year because getting drunk is a waste of money and a liability at this point.

 

[Big Brown Schlub]

Just finished applying the finishing touches to the job I mentioned many pages ago. Spent around 60 hours a week on this thing and I feel completely mentally drained but as I said the payout will be so good that I can just do nothing until the end of the year. I'll take a break for a month but it'll probably just be for 2 weeks because I get bored if I have nothing to do for too long. I've been thinking of going on a bunch of field trips with my wife and kid so that'll be fun.

 

[LonesomeDud]

One thing that bothers me about the anti-Christian rhetoric is their desire to suppress the stories of the former Christians who lose their faith because the ex-Christian who stumbles in sin.

Spoiler: unrelated Christian spergery

If you're an atheist, fine. I'd rather you see the truth sooner rather than later, but I believe all righteous people will come to Christ like all flowers inevitably turn toward the sun. My faith is that strong. I don't say it a lot because Edgy Internet Atheists will verbally shit their pants every single time I say this and I get tired of it. I guess I'm weak. I don't like constantly arguing. So sue me.

I recently spoke with a former friend who lost his faith. He simultaneously blames God and denies there is a God. I didn't share my thoughts with him for our last conversation as he just rode roughshod over me and I don't care anymore. He forgets all the really terrible things he did and the profound effect he left on a community using his faith as a weapon against people. He compared himself to me. I am, at best, unorthodox, but my faith has never faltered, and anyone who spoke against me did so wrongly. I am Christ being persecuted next to this guy. Then claims of "religious aboose" and "cults." Nah, dude. Just nah. I was pretty unfairly treated, and sometimes you were unfairly untreated, but don't confuse it. You fucked up.

I know what you said about me. I still welcomed you. Go blaspheme somewhere else. You don't know me as much as you ever knew God.

 

[Betonhaus]

To reply to this, the guy messaged me back and is willing to sell it for the agreed price. In a bit of a pickle. On one hand I want it, and on the other this is trashy behavior

There's nothing stopping him from trying to trick you again. There already is bad blood in this transaction, it is likely to not end well.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

One thing that bothers me about the anti-Christian rhetoric is their desire to suppress the stories of the former Christians who lose their faith because the ex-Christian who stumbles in sin.

I will admit, I am not religious at all. Grew up in Jehova's Witnesses, got exposed to other religions, was kinda put off by all of it.

I will gladly read subjects related to it though. Biblical angels are a fascinating topic to me. Same with Book of Revelations and Dante's Divine Comedy.

That said, I'm a "respect me and I'll respect thee" deer and the weird amount of vitriol people have towards Christianity specifically is kinda tiresome IMO. It's kinda hard to listen to when I know Christians that are sweet and kind and embrace the loving forgiving side of faith but people go "You believe in god? You homophobic trad wife bigot! Imma rape your sky fairy in my dreams!"

Jeez, man. What happened to mutual respect?

Anyway, I got some mango passionfruit ice cream in the fridge that I ate. Was sinful but delicious.

 

[The Feline Solution]

I'm so fucking hungover, can't remember when it was last this bad. Shouldn't have gone for the faggy Aperol when we were out of beers. At least i can remember what happened yesterday. Got up at 1PM, thought it was much later already, gonna pop ibuprofen and stumble through the day now. Heating period finally started and the heating turned on in my frozen hovel yesterday night, i live street level so my apartment gets much colder much earlier than the ones on the first floor and above, i usually have to suffer through a month of freezing temperatures in my rooms but the September weather was unusually warm this year so it was less than week of being cold.

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Hard feels, man.

Apparently, while drunk, I ordered a fucking WH40K Dreadnaught toy, I'm not even one of those man children that collects toys. I am trying to be frugal and this thing was $160 but apparently my drunken, autistic ass just NEEDED a foot tall toy.

Amazon takes everything back but it's already shipped and I have to wait for it to show up so I can drop it off at a return location. I seriously think I'm going to dry out for the rest of the year because getting drunk is a waste of money and a liability at this point.

$160?! I have been out of the hobby since forever, mainly due to the escalating prices, but i don't remember it being this bad. Dreads were $50-$75 when i left. Is it a Forgeworld model or just regular range? Insane.

Jeez, man. What happened to mutual respect?

Good fucking question i ask myself way too often lately.

 

[Mop_Bucket]

$160?! I have been out of the hobby since forever, mainly due to the escalating prices, but i don't remember it being this bad. Dreads were $50-$75 when i left. Is it a Forgeworld model or just regular range? Insane.

It's not the game model, I ordered a foot tall action figure, I'm not even sure how I found this thing. I don't collect toys and as far as 40K I've got a decade old 1000 point ork army that's been in a box forever, I am a book nerd as far as 40K goes. A quick check on Amazon shows that the table model runs about $70.

I'm tempted to take it out of the box to see how they justify the price tag, but it's probably just the GW plastic crack mark up. As soon as thing shows up I'm returning it, I don't want to be tempted to keep it.

 

[LonesomeDud]

I feel better. Taking a day to chill, be in service of my family, mess around online, cook, and reflect. Feels good, man.

 

[CoffeeCup]

New Job is good. Thats all I got to say.

 

[Wild at Heart]

I am worried about the future, mainly becuase of the youngest generation, the new wave of voters this year, and their inherent politics. Common core has destroyed American identity, kids are taught to hate America and look at history through a pussy ass lens of "we are the villains." The rest of the world laughs and through their thousands of years of wisdom, continues to instill their youth with national pride. Basically, the brain worms that infest our society and are being spread to our young who have grown up in the eye of the storm, with little chance to break out.

Spoiler: Personal Story

In a discord I am in, this kid was saying they had to work on their "Gender identity and gender roles" presentation in History Class. History class, not health or even Sex ed. I chimed in for once to say how ridiculous that is, that they were doing that sort of presentation in History of all Classes, and I was told by a random 19 year old in the server that:

"i disagree, gender studies is a study of society ultimately, and learning societies throughout history is super important
especially if gender systems are still one of the biggest subtle plagues of the modern condition"

This spew of BS hurt my brain and made me so sick, thinking how the entirety of 15-20 year olds are growing up and being taught this in school. I remember when my history class didn't even cover the 90's or any current politics, because it was "too soon. and we cannot be objective enough to teach it." This used to be the attitude of high school and education, to provide a well-rounded basis of objective education, free from politics and personal beliefs. To create a well rounded adult who could go into the world and CHOOSE to pursue higher education with opinions, when they were old enough to process the flaws of them. Now they have no choice and are being taught brand new opinion based "science" as fact, and being quizzed on it and forced to present about it.

I am thinking about the future my children will have to grow up in, and how in order to raise them with any common sense they will have to be weird social outcasts with "extremist" politics. I am definitely sending them to private school, if those are still allowed in the future. It just sickens me that at any point through their upbringing; Preschool, Kindergarten, A Friend's Parents' house, Elementary, they can be exposed to gender identity and transsexualism as a truth of the world.

This has had a toll on my optimism, but I have been sticking to other things like my upcoming busy season at work. But I already feel like an old man, and these kids are crazy.

 

[Geddy Lee's Fee and See]

I'm fucking sick of having to pull out the Internet to keep this retarded kid from blasting his music all the time. It's Sunday night, you are a college student and you have classes tomorrow. Go somewhere else if you want to do that or just do something quiet. This faggot is the worst roomate I've ever had.

Edit: Thank goodness. He left with his loudass friends to party at their place. And he was smoking weed too. Good riddance (for now).

 

[Axiom.]

Me for past few months really.