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We somehow picked up slapped cheek of all things at Disney so we are all exhausted and the children look godawful. Thankfully they are not infectious after the rash appears and it's not painful. My joints are acting up though.

I fully blame the Spanish tourists in the park for this as they were the worst arseholes and therefore probably also diseased.
 
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The Feline Solution said:
Still spooked from yesterday, gonna make an appointment for a health check-up this week. And packing in the alcohol shit completely again. No sense in fucking myself up this bad. Don't even feel hungover, just came back from a walk in the rain, it's nice out today.
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In a way, it's almost a curse not to get hangovers.
 
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Feeling overall apathetic, not depressed, just completely indifferent at the moment due to this morning's hangover. Spent the day doing the whole "complete one small task and reward yourself with 15 minutes of doomscrolling" until my apartment was clean and chores done. Like others in the thread, I really need to just stop drinking and stay sober. I was sober for 3 years at one point but started again and now I feel like I've drank myself into actual alcoholism out of boredom. Didn't drink today and there's no booze in the house, not feeling any physical side effects so hopefully I've just been drinking too much otherwise the next couple of weeks will be rough.

And a small aside, I can't wait for this election to finally be over with. I am tired of getting these political texts every hour on the hour.
 
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I haven't been in group for at least a decade so it is not a modern woe of psychiatry but i still agree, group composition and getting it right is a real problem. One of the worst groups i've been in, inpatient clinic stay way back, had a mother who had just lost her toddler-aged child to an accident (i didn't ask what kind of accident but i overheard it was automotive) and who was basically catathonic and the group's attention whore, some middle-aged woman who was supposedly burned out on handling her kids and who did nothing but talk about said kids. Can't tell me that group did good for anyone involved, i whined to my station doc to get me out of there because it was hands down one of the most depressing settings i've ever been in. Give me AA boomers telling the same inane and unreflected stories over this shit any day.
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Sorry if this is too old of a message. The root of this is an ethos in modern psychology that looks at the reaction to trauma as an indicator of the level of treatment necessary.

As a teen, I was put in an inpatient group after a suicide attempt- I was expecting to finally get to an opportunity to be understood but the issues that the program covered were things like breakups, or arguments with mommy and daddy- you know, regular teenager problems. That these kids tried to kill themselves over. Every therapist I've seen has been like this as well and gradually, I've just stopped dealing with the system itself- beyond medication, which i can't quit at this point.

I can't talk about my issues anywhere, really. If your life wasn't like 13 Reasons Why, and you can't be fixed with coloring pages and cutesy instagram awareness, things get a lot harder.
 
if i sit still said:
I can't talk about my issues anywhere, really. If your life wasn't like 13 Reasons Why, and you can't be fixed with coloring pages and cutesy instagram awareness, things get a lot harder.
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I completely agree with this and have long been convinced that all the psychiatry bullshit only really works out for normie straight pegs with simple issues and as soon as things get too out of the ordinary you are fucked, i've experienced it time and again in the years i wasted stuck in the mental health care system as a patient, and i would say i'm not even THAT messed up apart from addiction issues.
if i sit still said:
Sorry if this is too old of a message
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Nah, don't worry, i replied to posts from years ago before and got a response. Nature of a forum.
 
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Been sick since last Wednesday. It's probably the flu but I don't know.
I might see a doctor tomorrow if I'm not feeling better by then.
 
Real fucking mixed bag here. Just came back from the dentist, should've been routine, just getting a tooth ready for a crown but doc ended up giving me four syringes of anaestheticum and i still felt everything. Putting it down to my enthusiastic consumption of hard drugs, i've been off for a couple of weeks but as hard as i've been tanning it in the last years i am sure it switched things in my brain so that anaesthesia doesn't work as good as before. After the fourth load i couldn't blink my right eye anymore, certainly novel. It's wearing off now and i am popping ibuprofen like candy because the shit still hurts.

The good news, the best news, the thing i was sweating for days now, is that my girlfriend's laptop works (the one she spilled a drink on), without any noticeable problems as of now. I told her i will be buying her a sippy cup next month and i was only half joking.
 
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Had an MOT today (annual vehicle inspection for roadworthiness,) was hoping I'd cruise by with no expenses other than the cost of the test itself.

lol nope, finally time to replace the clutch, and the suspension linkage was fucked on one side. Four figure bill. I guess I can't complain too hard though, as I had a good six years with this car of nothing more than brake pads and other consumables.

Still, she's good for more years yet. Gonna drive this thing until it shits itself completely (it's a Nissan.)

Aside from that, did a huge amount of decorating today. Another room completed, which means all the boxes of stuff can be thinned out further. After five months, we finally have room for a dining table and chairs.

I want to get as much done before Christmas as possible. Pretty much just the bathroom at this rate, though that's gonna be an easy one as I've done bits and pieces here and there already.

Hope everyone is well.
 
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Flavius Claudius Julianus said:
Had an MOT today (annual vehicle inspection for roadworthiness,) was hoping I'd cruise by with no expenses other than the cost of the test itself.

lol nope, finally time to replace the clutch, and the suspension linkage was fucked on one side. Four figure bill. I guess I can't complain too hard though, as I had a good six years with this car of nothing more than brake pads and other consumables.

Still, she's good for more years yet. Gonna drive this thing until it shits itself completely (it's a Nissan.)

Aside from that, did a huge amount of decorating today. Another room completed, which means all the boxes of stuff can be thinned out further. After five months, we finally have room for a dining table and chairs.

I want to get as much done before Christmas as possible. Pretty much just the bathroom at this rate, though that's gonna be an easy one as I've done bits and pieces here and there already.

Hope everyone is well.
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beginning of the new year my TÜV will be gone too on my beloved old japaneeesy waman (Honda Del Sol)
i fear the time comes where i will be seperated from her, hurtful.

Sounds good on your end! Nice to hear good things happenin
 
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Lukie said:
Nope, they had to call the coastguard who were inconvenienced and had to scrape him off the rocks. -_-

I don't even object to people killing themselves but holy shit don't fucking make other people have to deal with it.
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at some point you always leave your own remains behind and medic ppl will find it, but i always thought about doing it in secret and alone.
like i dont like the public n fuck up others days kinda style.

unless go full sperg n kill everything n then get killed, but thats amv thinking daydream movies.


still sad overall, hopefully the remaining family can find peace one day
 
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DeutscheKatze said:
at some point you always leave your own remains behind and medic ppl will find it, but i always thought about doing it in secret and alone.
like i dont like the public n fuck up others days kinda style.

unless go full sperg n kill everything n then get killed, but thats amv thinking daydream movies.


still sad overall, hopefully the remaining family can find peace one day
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Exactly!

I've been in dark places myself and what has stopped me is putting that burden on to others and working out a way which it wouldn't, that was enough for me to catch myself being ridiculous.

I've been feeling really angry about the whole thing. He's left behind a young daughter. My Pops died when I was about 15, I really needed him and would have loved for him to still be around. My Dad had no choice due to ill health. This fucker has taken that choice from his kid who will now grow up Fatherless.
 
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