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As soon as therapist said "Deer, Achilles (placeholder name) said you're very quiet which is a factor for the group having little dynamics. Do you take it personally?", I wanted to go home.
Mad unprofessional to do this in a group therapy sitting, either she's inexperienced or she full well knew what she was doing, i would've been pissed off as you were. The "Deer is quiet" from the other patient is already cheeky enough and shouldn't have been further entertained by your therapist.
Side note: today was the last day before the hiatus. They told us they same day it was happening. Timing, am I right? They have a track record in what I can only assume is lackluster management from their overlords.
More unprofessional shit but sadly not uncommon in the mental healthcare sector from my own experiences.
 
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The eastern europeans are starting to give the muslims a run for their money.
Somewhere in there, that's a weirdly impressive achievement. Muslims are a mixed bag here (not counting fucking all of them owning a pizzeria for some reason. Why is this a trend?)
Mad unprofessional to do this in a group therapy sitting, either she's inexperienced or she full well knew what she was doing, i would've been pissed off as you were. The "Deer is quiet" from the other patient is already cheeky enough and shouldn't have been further entertained by your therapist.
Apparently she's been there for fifteen years or so. I suppose she is used very specific types of patients because me and the other patients are slightly put off by her. Be it a penchant for staring at you or pushing people to get a specific answer or forcing a change of view regardless of what people say.
Or not considering how awful it feels when she puts people on the spot like a little shit stirrer.

Granted the comment about me being quiet was in junction with how the other patients have too similar personalities (Anger issues, no filter, pragmatism over emotion and BPD) and I'm not helping by being a mouse. The gist of the matter was that we needed more people because two people just finished their course and they were the more feeling, emotional types.

Didn't stop me from feeling extremely self-conscious about it though. And greedy too because I feel like I take a lot and don't give enough back. Idk, I seriously struggle with speaking in front of groups or share my immediate thoughts on something. I can't give my deep and formulated thoughts on things either without ruminating on them first. Its not just therapy; it was in school too.

As said earlier I don't like attention. It's very easy to feel nervous when you have five people staring at you while you have been asked to ramble your way through positive affirmation for someone who just divorced a neglectful spouse and despairs over selling the house they once shared.

It's not helped that sensitive shit gets brought up and you don't want to walk around a few weeks, stressing over whether or not you accidentally justified someone's rape and enraged everyone with one poorly worded comment or spiral into despair and dislike towards someone because they accidentally justified your rape.

Idk, at this point, I actually don't want to attend group therapy anymore. It's been helpful but what's the point if I just take while being too inept or assblasted by crippling social anxiety to give?

Or some cunt therapist is going to make me actively uncomfortable without asking if that shit is okay?

Actually, the thought about giving and taking has been on my mind a lot. Because there have been times when I do want to say something. But I had no idea what that something would be and then I finally came about with something I felt comfortable saying, only for the topic to move on directly.

More unprofessional shit but sadly not uncommon in the mental healthcare sector from my own experiences.
Not gonna lie, I think that group (there are four groups in this facility) got cursed by a pagan gypsy or something. The shitty therapist's predecessor changed jobs but she was genuinely super well-liked and respected people's boundaries.

With her quitting, it put the entire group into limbo because her coworker then said she'd quit. Running a therapy group alone is a lot of work it seems. I can certainly understand that.

But due to this, the patients had to walk around for the next two months without knowing what would happen. It's not helped that the therapists didn't know either; if the group would be disbanded and we'd be dumped in the other groups. I didn't want that because of schedule conflicts. Also a bunch of strangers. But I was told vastly different information weekly which didn't help my anxiety and the general sense of hopelessness I felt.

We learned the ultimate fate of the group on the same day when one therapist quit. Right on the fucking dot. It's a pattern evidently.

In short, the whole issue comes down to understaffing from underfunding since a lot of therapists seek greener pastures in the private sector where they will get better pay and more tools to work with plus no bullshit like whatever the fuck we unwashed masses are dealing with.

And no retarded overlords.
 
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I'm so fucking pissed off right now. Have to warrenty my microwave for the second time in a year because the shit fucking handle broke off. Last time I dealt with this bullshit, it took over a month before the magnetron died after a month of use. Holy shit, never buy Frigidaire anything. What a fucking shit company that sells shit products. I might just see if I can buy a replacement handle and replace it myself instead of dealing with that Igor-sounding motherfucker again.
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Buying used cars in full is looked down upon for some reason even though it's more of a flex.
I've never understood buying something that loses a tenth of its value the instant you drive it off the lot. Fuck that. That's literally like just burning money. And cars are notorious for fucking up really early into ownership. I'd rather just buy something that I know has been driven for a year or two without falling into pieces.
 
a lot of therapists seek greener pastures
Also, have you seen how many of our local munchies and wacko lolcow people desire to become counselors, therapists, even psychologists? There really are people who manage to squeak by and who might be able to pass a test, but really don't have the ethical fiber to be working with vulnerable populations. They don't have to be full-on lolcows to have personal problems that they insert into their practice. Not all "professionals" are always so professional. .....I once had a therapist declare her love for me.


Gorgeous weather.... enjoy that fall weather while it lasts, because it's always so fleeting, guys....
 
I finally found a free cad software that *almost* functions like Mastercam so I'm happy that i can start doing some modelling again.
 
One of my friends committed suicide today. We started our sobriety journey together years ago and he never managed to get past 30 days.

I got my 10+ year coin today.

I really don’t know how I’m supposed to feel.

Angry? Disappointed? Hurt? Relieved?

I honestly don’t know. All I hope is that he found the peace in eternity that he couldn’t find on earth.

I’m sure there’s no “correct” way to feel about it all but I wish I had a better grasp on how I feel.

Check on your friends, my dear kiwis, you never really know how close somebody could be to the edge.

Sorry if this post is a downer, just really didn’t have anywhere else safe to post it.
 
Idk, at this point, I actually don't want to attend group therapy anymore. It's been helpful but what's the point if I just take while being too inept or assblasted by crippling social anxiety to give?
Then don't go. Group does not work for everyone and even if it works, in every single group setting, be it for alcohol or general mental health stuff, i've been in there was always some attention whore or someone who disrupted the group in some way and in the end i was just wasting time. I found 1:1 therapy to be always more helpful, back before i lost all of my trust in psychiatry and adjacent fields. I get that it is hard to host a group even as a seasoned therapist but still, it's your life/mental health, why should you make any compromises because other people are shit or otherwise inept?
It's very easy to feel nervous when you have five people staring at you while you have been asked to ramble your way through positive affirmation for someone
Yeah, fuck this. I remember outright saying no, i won't do this in one of my last groups where the therapist wanted us to pair up and do a session of telling the other person what we like about them. These people were strangers to me and ceased to exist the minute i left the clinic, i neither wanted to affirm them nor wanted to hear lies out of some stranger's mouth about me who doesn't know me in the slightest. I also learned very fast in group that i am not interested in other peoples problems in the slightest.
not counting fucking all of them owning a pizzeria for some reason. Why is this a trend?
It's for money laundering, same as the millions of muslim-owned barber shops.
 
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One of my friends committed suicide today. We started our sobriety journey together years ago and he never managed to get past 30 days.

I got my 10+ year coin today.

I really don’t know how I’m supposed to feel.

Angry? Disappointed? Hurt? Relieved?

I honestly don’t know. All I hope is that he found the peace in eternity that he couldn’t find on earth.

I’m sure there’s no “correct” way to feel about it all but I wish I had a better grasp on how I feel.

Check on your friends, my dear kiwis, you never really know how close somebody could be to the edge.

Sorry if this post is a downer, just really didn’t have anywhere else safe to post it.
Really sorry for loss addiction is not easy (but you have great strength to overcome it for 10 years)
 
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I was doing okay, but I mostly spend my time here reading and posting in A&H and rarely venture into the lolcow forums. Except earlier I clicked on the Deviant Art community watch thread and now I'm wondering if humanity should be scrapped and started again.
 
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Made a huge scene while returning a jacket, bastards gave me store credit instead of returning my money and while i played it up i was still fuming, shit should be illegal. Girlfriend said i was extremely disrespectful and the poor cashier was afraid. I usually don't mess with sales personal but i felt they were messing with me as i returned stuff for cash before there, blah blah blah new policy my ass. Protip: Don't hire security that visibly falters the second i shout at them, i know i am not that fucking imposing.
I kind of feel bad now because i found a better jacket shortly after this intermezzo. I paid at a different register and cashier :story:
 
That's why you order online and take it in store. Cancel order and return without hassle for full refund.
Truth. I only got so pissed because i already ordered another jacket online after noticing the one i returned doesn't really fit me, firmly convinced i'd get my money back so i can pay the one i ordered online. Now i have to send that one straight back when it arrives. I realize the error is on my side for, once again, leaving my house in the first place.
 
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Then don't go. Group does not work for everyone and even if it works, in every single group setting, be it for alcohol or general mental health stuff, i've been in there was always some attention whore or someone who disrupted the group in some way and in the end i was just wasting time.
That's the problem with this "radical acceptance" bullshit that has become so prevalent lately. It allows one asshole to fuck it up for everyone else. I don't see any point in group therapy that allows this.
 
I have saved up some money for Christmas and since I no longer want to travel due to my family member's poor health, I've made up my mind that I want to go to a dermotologist/medspa and get some of my childhood scars lazered or chem peeled off. I really didn't expect my friends to call this "a stupid idea", I think they just don't understand that it's a lot more legit than just getting a facial at the hair salon or whatever.
 
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