How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Flavius Claudius Julianus]

Pulled 250kg/551 burger units the other day, a lifetime goal for me.

Work continues on my house, just doing small jobs and patch work every day pretty much. I got the garden, shed, and fencing in good condition before the cold gets bad, then I can look outside without getting annoyed by the small stuff.

Sadly, I can't have my bird feeder/feeding station. No suitable location on the property that cats won't be able to reach : ' (

Also, first holiday abroad booked with my wife in about 6 weeks, and the first since getting married. It's a resort situation, I plan to do absolutely nothing but drink, fuck, and lounge.

 

[Just a boring name]

We had to have our dog put down to sleep today. He was 17½ years old, and extremely loved.

I've never been in this situation before, and it is at times like this that I hate being an adult.

I'm devastated. It came as a complete shock to us, but we had to do the humane thing rather than him deteriorate painfully and quickly.

Farewell, my sweet, tiny gentleman.
You will never be forgotten, and you will always be loved.

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

We had to have our dog put down to sleep today. He was 17½ years old, and extremely loved.

I've never been in this situation before, and it is at times like this that I hate being an adult.

I'm devastated. It came as a complete shock to us, but we had to do the humane thing rather than him deteriorate painfully and quickly.

Farewell, my sweet, tiny gentleman.
You will never be forgotten, and you will always be loved.

I lost a longtime pet recently as well; I know how it is. It takes time to heal from it, but if you want my advice; try and remember the good times, alight? Focus on the positive times you had and give yourself the time you need to mourn.

 

[Just a boring name]

Thankyou.
It is the first time our teenage children have experienced pet loss, and my first time experiencing this with "My" dog, so we are all just doing what feels right to help each other and our 4 year old dog.

For such a tiny dog, my heart has a huge hole in it.

 

[Foxymophandlemama]

Had a really bad stomach problem and now I am taking three medications at least I got a discount on them... But JESUS, it hurts so fucking much.

On a happy note, I just finished the second round of interviews for this role I really want. If I get the job my work-life balance will improve quite a lot and I will be able to go to the gym again and spend more time with my cats. I hope I get the job.

 

[JanuaryViolet]

I am taking an unscheduled mental health day. Work is fine, but tiring. I'm actually past retirement age but am finally making livable wage for the last three years and I'm scared to let go. I need to get my feet under me, which is something that's only beginning to happen. Had Covid at the beginning of summer and still only function well on massive amounts of caffiene. My cat Dinah has (I think) finally forgiven me for getting her clipped in June (she has incredibly long, floofy, thick fur that was everywhere) and has started sleeping in my bed again. Either that or the rest of the house is cold and this is better.
Much love to the people who have lost pets recently. The current three (cats) are the successors of a long line of much loved cats, and I still miss every one of them; I feel for you.

 

[Chandelier]

I'm sorry. I will pray for him and your family.

Thank you. He died on Thursday at 7:30 pm. He deteriorated rapidly. He went from being a 6'3, nearly 300 lb (he did have diabetes and was on weight loss medication, so he did lose weight, but would always have a rotund shape) to 130 lb - most of it loose skin. I could see his rib cage, his shoulder blades and the bones in his face. Horrible, horrible way to die. He was only in his 40s.

I know people talk a lot about MAID up in Leafland and how it's used for those who do have a good outlook ahead - but my brother could've used that. His diagnosis was dire, and he was taking double doses of morphine near the end. He was one of those people who could have used such a speedy, quick end. Thankfully, his mother (we're half siblings) wasn't alone when he passed. His cremation costs are covered by her community. She will be taken care of there, at least.

 

[Sergeant Major Buzzkill]

Tired of dealing with constant faggotry.

 

[Outer Space Traveller]

Thank you. He died on Thursday at 7:30 pm. He deteriorated rapidly. He went from being a 6'3, nearly 300 lb (he did have diabetes and was on weight loss medication, so he did lose weight, but would always have a rotund shape) to 130 lb - most of it loose skin. I could see his rib cage, his shoulder blades and the bones in his face. Horrible, horrible way to die. He was only in his 40s.

I know people talk a lot about MAID up in Leafland and how it's used for those who do have a good outlook ahead - but my brother could've used that. His diagnosis was dire, and he was taking double doses of morphine near the end. He was one of those people who could have used such a speedy, quick end. Thankfully, his mother (we're half siblings) wasn't alone when he passed. His cremation costs are covered by her community. She will be taken care of there, at least.

I'm very sorry for your loss. At least he is in a better place.

Your family should be looking for solace, however, which I'm sure all of you will find it.

 

[DeutscheKatze]

Spoiler

kitty will quit her job soon
family and friends and my only good coworker/ + older coworkers begged me to do so for years
i let myself get manipulated by that dumbfuck boss
the place is rundown too
they destroyed it, and we tried to save it so much

it will be hard, especially financially
ill find a solution
or doing the long burnout till i get quit

they used us for over 3,5 years now
i only stayed the last half year cuz i could not leave behind my coworker finishing her training

but now its finally time to do it, no backing out anymore

 

[Slav Power]

I've felt terrible for the past few months, but I don't think there's much sense in elaborating why since others here are at a similar point. Unless of course someone wants another laugh at my expense.

 

[supremeautismo]

Car got broken into yesterday. Nothing important stolen (unless it’s just somewhere I forgot at home,) but now paying out of pocket for window repair because my insurance ain’t shit.



On the bright side… nah there is none lol, though I’m grateful the weather today is as gloomy as my mood, and comfy as a result. Time to smoke doink and cuddle with my husband and cats.

Important edit: Invest in a steering wheel lock. Sometimes boomers aren’t retarded.

 

[DeutscheKatze]

Spoiler

its kinda super hard
but is it
or am i just constantly suicidal
i really dont know how to shovel myself out of the hole i created
Or if i ever will

maybe i just need to visit family so im not alone this sunday

tho my parents just make me feel more like a failure, rightfully so, i did this all

i dont know what to do
i mean i do
but its all
its pointless yet so urgent
wrong right i dont know anymore

i only know im lonesome
deserved
and i pay for it

thats why all of it goes like this
why other people have power over me

Im just another pawn with no future
i got no men, no friends
did make all the bad choices myself
im scum

i should be on the streets
i dont even deserve my family
i dont deserve anything i have right now

 

[Core Theorist]

I brushed my teeth just now with some regular toothpaste and then some whitener and my teeth feel good for the first time in a while.

Thank you, teeth.

 

[Foxymophandlemama]

Thank you. He died on Thursday at 7:30 pm. He deteriorated rapidly. He went from being a 6'3, nearly 300 lb (he did have diabetes and was on weight loss medication, so he did lose weight, but would always have a rotund shape) to 130 lb - most of it loose skin. I could see his rib cage, his shoulder blades and the bones in his face. Horrible, horrible way to die. He was only in his 40s.

I know people talk a lot about MAID up in Leafland and how it's used for those who do have a good outlook ahead - but my brother could've used that. His diagnosis was dire, and he was taking double doses of morphine near the end. He was one of those people who could have used such a speedy, quick end. Thankfully, his mother (we're half siblings) wasn't alone when he passed. His cremation costs are covered by her community. She will be taken care of there, at least.

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope his passage is peaceful. May you find solace.

 

[PaleTay]

Spoiler

its kinda super hard
but is it
or am i just constantly suicidal
i really dont know how to shovel myself out of the hole i created
Or if i ever will

maybe i just need to visit family so im not alone this sunday

tho my parents just make me feel more like a failure, rightfully so, i did this all

i dont know what to do
i mean i do
but its all
its pointless yet so urgent
wrong right i dont know anymore

i only know im lonesome
deserved
and i pay for it

thats why all of it goes like this
why other people have power over me

Im just another pawn with no future
i got no men, no friends
did make all the bad choices myself
im scum

i should be on the streets
i dont even deserve my family
i dont deserve anything i have right now

You'll feel better after you quit your job and spend some time away from your parents, the biggest issue you seem to have is you're surrounded by negativity (probably from a young age). The sad part is it's difficult to escape those circumstances and surround yourself with positivity.

 

[Nikes_JustDoIt]

I was reading some of the Incel threads (the Incel.IS , the incel hate thread and the Elliot Roger threads) and there was a massive wave of cringe that went through me. When I was in late teen , I spend time on website like the 4chan's R9K board (the Incel board) and thinking all the time I wasted with those losers. But now I completely moved pasted that phase in my life hence the cringe.

 

[Bothriolepis]

I was reading some of the Incel threads (the Incel.IS , the incel hate thread and the Elliot Roger threads) and there was a massive wave of cringe that went through me. When I was in late teen , I spend time on website like the 4chan's R9K board (the Incel board) and thinking all the time I wasted with those losers. But now I completely moved pasted that phase in my life hence the cringe.

I'm pretty sure that all of us have done some things that we cringe over, looking back.

What defines most of the people and communities who end up posted here isn't the simple fact that they've done something cringe worthy. It's their near-complete inability to learn from those mistakes, laugh at their own failings, and grow as individuals. Instead, they typically double down and adopt a victim complex where they've done nothing wrong, and everyone else is evil for criticizing or refusing to tolerate their behavior.

I can see how R9K or Incels.is would appeal to a lonely, depressed teenager who doesn't have a lot of experience with the real world. A lot of their ideas are based on that outlook, because their users are terminally online NEETs whose social development stopped the minute they left highschool. What's important is that you've moved past that phase in your life now, rather than sliding deeper into it.

 

[Sweetpeaa]

I'll just vent here since I keep everything to myself out in the real world 99% of the time

I got super sick from Covid in 2022. I was vaccinated but it damaged my lungs and brought back my childhood asthma. I've been having attacks frequently and am on three different inhalers. I'm getting triggered by fragrance in public places especially and having pretty bad attacks and it's scary as shit. I also had to leave my Admin position last year. I now am working at Costco and it sucks but I'm working and saving and hoping to get a private line of credit to go back to school hopefully to get a higher paying job despite this illness shit.

I've also had a weight problem for the last six years that doctors can't figure out. I basically started ballooning in weight in 2018 despite making dietary adjustments. I went from 150 on a 5'7 frame (female) to 225 earlier this year. I tried Keto, ozempic, bought a food scale etc. but kept gaining.

By May I went on a crash diet and got down to 700 calories a day (yes, very dangerous) and exercised like crazy and by early August I had lost 20 pounds. But... Despite the exercise I'm doing and the dietary adjustments I'm gaining some of it back and it's really depressing as I worked so hard. I have a lot more to lose and I'm just so frustrated. I'm eating 1500 calories now with all healthy prepared meals and I'm just pissed off and feel defeated in some way.

There was also a bat infestation in our townhouse and I got bit by a bat on the hand. I'm now going through a series of rabies shots.

Things have been hysterically bad but I'm still working to make them better. Despite all this wild shit and through low moments I still try to stay positive. Don't know what else to do. Sigh

 

[Mop_Bucket]

Been bitching about my shoulder for years, so out of no where my friend surprised me with a full body massage at one of those chain parlors. The guy beat the shit out of me and I'm sore as hell but in a good way, shoulder feels great. Been spending the day recovering and reflecting about a conversation I had with one of the old guys at work this week. I've been open with him about working towards getting a Home Inspectors license so I can make side money (I'm quiet about it because my company gets pissy about side work).

He, being old and just working out of boredom, told me that this company is bleeding my youth from me and I should do everything I can to be independent build my own future and this is my first step towards that. And now, being physically relaxed, I can fully absorb the slap in the face he gave me. I've dedicated nearly ten years of my life to being a company guy and now I'm asking myself, "What do I have to show for it?". I feel a fire in my belly to get away from being a salaryman and take some risk in my life.