Does anybody else feel alone?

[Kiwi Love Thread]

I went on a spree of joining random groups, discords, steam, etc to just try and find people to get drunk and play games with and it's impossible to find anywhere that doesn't have any kind of psychotic interpersonal policing. I'm not even that racist or right wing (until the subject of native americans gets brought up) but it seems like everyone on the line is a tranny or christfag or hardcore anonymous. I used to have an assortment of weird online friends but the years have sent everyone apart.

Me, I'm in full-bore midlife crisis mode and have resorted to using Null, PPP & Andy as my background noise/borderline surrogate friends or just voices to listen to while I spend the odd weekend night drinking and gaming. But it's like, there doesn't seem to be anywhere I fit in anymore or just be my usual beligerant drunken self. IRL is out the window until next June-ish because that's when I go back to [IRL place] where I have actual IRL friends and not [current shithole] where everyone acts like a faggot.

I'd considered looking to see if there's any hangouts here but aside from SS13 (which I'm not autistic enough for) there doesn't seem to be anything. And I know that A. It's anti-thetical to what the sites about and B. Anybody willing to do so would be likely malicious or some miserable combination of rat/a-log/ideas guy.

It really feels like the internet is dead, and those who inhabit it anymore are Trannies, Nazis, Lolcows, Corpos, their "Chosen Grifters" and about a billion chinks, jeets and robots. I spend most days working and working and working and nightly stop to shitpost, youtube, drink & game. But I keep seeing all these posts and they're just shadows on the wall. The voices come from a PA system wrapped around my skull. I look outside and everyone is a strange creature I cannot relate to. I several times tried going to a variety of bars and it feels like nobody knows how to hold a conversation, or they're "kids" glued to social media or geriatrics who repeat phrases like an NPC in an MMO I clicked on one too many times. I've got both feet in the sewer with my head in the clouds and all I can seem to do is nightly cope and space until I can return home.

 

[Kiwi Love Thread]

You actually have "people" albeit somewhere else right now? Well done you're doing better than some.

This is why I negrated a few people + that one retard suggesting christlarp charity work. I know I TL;DR'd but I did make a lot of friends in another state. For PL9K reasons, I won't be able to return for 6 more months, but what I've found in my life is that if you can't find people you just need to go somewhere else. I went from Solid Red State to Solid Blue, and the reason I want internet friends is so I can carry them in my pocket. I actually liked having internet people on hand and I think the larpers who insist you can't have friends online, and actually suggest I "touch grass, meme whatever" are people who don't actually have life experience.
Charities are scams and church garbage just has you serving niggers and homeless and I've been there and done that. Real people in the real world don't suggest you do weird 50's tupperware advertisement shit because that's not reality. They don't say unhinged bullshit expecting you to have a Scrooge-esque "coming to jesus" moment. None of that bullshit survives contact with the real world.

lose a few more sanity points.

literally me

 

[Mound Dweller]

I actually liked having internet people on hand and I think the larpers who insist you can't have friends online, and actually suggest I "touch grass, meme whatever" are people who don't actually have life experience.

It's certainly not the same as flesh and blood interaction but I agree, just having the intellectual stimulation of contacting somebody you even marginally consider worth something can go a long way.
The touch the grasstards clearly don't understand that the issue isn't finding people, it's finding the right quality of people. "Just go to a bar/volunteer at a group lol" will benefit an actual shutin because their problem is interaction at any level but when your problem is finding someone actually worth something just throwing yourself out there falls flat because it's not what you actually want. Might as well make the most of the opportunity and kill that ego while you have the chance.

I do recommend SS13 though I've lost actual months to that place, and it's only entry level autism as opposed to shit like Dwarf Fortress once you get past the early 2000's pixel art flash game style.

 

[Ultrapenguin]

I actually liked having internet people on hand and I think the larpers who insist you can't have friends online, and actually suggest I "touch grass, meme whatever" are people who don't actually have life experience.

The touch the grasstards clearly don't understand that the issue isn't finding people, it's finding the right quality of people.

I'd rather interact with the "wrong" person face to face than type at a screen with the "right" person. Honestly I feel way better after talking to someone at a customer service desk than I do watching words pop onto a screen in some chat.

Maybe you guys are actually somewhat autistic, so you don't get the same mileage out of the subtleties of in-person interaction, and can't connect with others unless they have the same hyper specific interests or beliefs?

There's a good reason why almost everyone online trying to use the internet as a replacement social outlet is a weirdo.

 

[Mound Dweller]

There's a good reason why almost everyone online trying to use the internet as a social outlet is a weirdo.

Well duh if I was emotionally spiritually fulfilled in the physical realm I wouldn't be grasping at the internet straws would I.

Maybe you guys are actually somewhat autistic, so you don't get the same mileage out of the subtleties of in-person interaction, and can't connect with others unless they have the same hyper specific interests or beliefs?

You're missing the problem but yes, a very deeep thought but you can talk to people all day and not get any satisfaction from it because it gains you nothing, genuinely enjoy interacting with customer service people? I don't think you would understand.

 

[Kiwi Love Thread]

I feel way better after talking to someone at a customer service desk than I do watching words pop onto a screen in some chat.

How to spot an MKUltra Victim 101

 

[Riftrunner]

But it's like, there doesn't seem to be anywhere I fit in anymore or just be my usual beligerant drunken self.

I feel your pain and am to some extent in your shoes. It's tough to make new connections, especially when you're around people you don't share a lot in common with. First thing I would suggest is to stop drinking. Using it as a social lubricant is obviously not working, it's poisoning your body and probably making you feel depressed. Drinking alone is a terrible idea.

Secondly, do you have a local college that does adult education classes? I suggest you sign up for an evening cooking class or something similarly basic. If your circumstances mean you can't attend an evening class, or you're too stupid to cook an omelette, then search around for a dead simple outdoor activity like hiking.

Even if you can't find a hiking group, just doing it solo is better than sitting at home feeling alone. The fresh air will do wonders and you may actually meet people while you're out there. Even if you never cross paths with another human being, it's still a worthwhile exercise.

Thirdly, find a hobby. Whether it's shooting guns, messing with cars, or screwing around with computers instead of just using them. You gotta find something to do with your free time that isn't just sitting in empty lobbies hoping you won't get matched with weirdos.

Lastly, on the trying to cozy up to furries as a social group, I actually did try this out of curiosity and it's impossible as they're all insane and operate like NPCs online. Conversations with them inevitably lead to confusion on their part or offense as they're all retarded. You're better off queueing up with strangers and hoping for the best.

Do you have a diary? I've gotten into a habit of venting my daily frustrations into one. If you've got nobody to talk to, you could always say what you want to say in your diary. No need for it to be physical either, it could be a .txt file or even an audio recording.