May He forgive me for I have given in. Or rather, I deliberately chose to drink. I've no issues going to bed early cause I'll wake up equally early and be productive, but sometimes I have such little to do that spending 8 hours in bed being hungover is better than doing nothing, cause I almost dread having to get up and finding something to do, often just gaming, if I could be without.
I still don't want to stay sober my entire life and be the pisser who won't drink champagne on new year's eve, but having this discussion with myself every other weekend is tiring as hell. I had gone a few months at this point without drinking and I honestly felt no healthier. Fasting, going to bed without looking at screens, choosing books over games. I've changed a lot of things yet feel none of the benefits. The next step is to trash my coffee maker and quit drinking. I already avoid caffeine as much as possible or worst case drink tea, but it has actually given me anxiety in the past so even if I don't get that anymore, it's obviously a bad thing to consume.
Maybe I should just do like my chad childhood friend and become water-only, rather than anti-alcohol.