After thinking about it and getting the opinion from family, friends, my therapist, and all of the Stream Queens I love and adore, I have decided I will no longer be silent in a situation where silence isn't the answer and silence is only causing me pain and allowing stagnancy in a place where I want to heal, grow, and move on. I will share my side but I will only be doing that in my members only livestreams. If you want to join, click the link below. But I want to make it VERY clear, this will not be a place to bash Beck, to insult Beck, or to invalidate Beck. It is going to be a place for me to be accountable in the wrong doings I have done by being open about them, sharing what I did, and sharing what I could have done differently. It is also going to be a place for me to share my point of view of situations that I remember differently because as wrong as I was in a lot of situations with Beck, it is wrong to lie and exaggerate things that are not true. I will not be doing this to be believed. I will not be doing this to have more people on my side. This isn't about that. This is about finally allowing myself to publicly be accountable and stand up for myself. Two things can happen at once. I can be accountable for ABCDEFGHIJK, while also clarifying that LMNOP are not true. Do not let those two things get mixed up, please. As much room as Beck is getting to share their truth, I am now ready to share mine...without the added "well, guess what Beck did?" Because again, that is not what this is about. After sharing what I did in last nights stream, bawling my eyes out, and sharing my truth, I actually feel lighter. Better. I feel ok. My mental health has been so bad that it has actually been scaring me and I realize now it is because of the silence. I have been holding onto so much that wants to be let out gracefully, so I am going to allow myself to do that. Member livestreams are always held on Tuesday nights but if I plan on going live again before that, I will be sure to let you know. I hope to see you there. Warning: there will be a lot of tears but for each one, I hope it is just one step closer to healing for everyone in this situation.
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