Greetings and salutations, Kiwis! I am the world's one and only femboy tactician/strategist raccoon (verification
here)! I am elated by having finally earned a thread in this illustrious drama community and given an opportunity to take up residence here as an fruity and depraved lolcow. I've dreamed of being able to frankly speak and frolic here as lolcow for months, and that dream has been realized! I actually had to find this thread all by myself- no one trolled me or even mentioned it. You all are supposed to be vicious and unrelenting tormentors of autists, transgenders, and furries, and despite being all three I incurred no abuse at all. You all really need to step up your game, Jesus Christ.
I'm actually a regular member here, joining after some months of lurking following my discovery of the link on the CWCki (I've squandered so many hours reading that grand encyclopaedia on that fat useless bastard). Two veterans here know who my main is and I have been advised against disclosing that publicly, so I will defer to their judgement and much greater experience. I will say that I contributed substantially to one of KF's noteworthy projects and over 97% of my ratings are positive. Thus, I have demonstrated that even pedofurs can be upstanding and useful Kiwis who are cognizant of and conform to standards and expectations.
I shall relay various characteristics, attributes, and circumstances about myself which I feel will be of interest to others here:
• I am a member of multiple demographics which KF has historically shown very high interest in: autistic, furry, brony, transgender (genderqueer femboy type; I don't wish to become female). And, of course, I am also a hebephile, though I very much gravitate towards drawn smut and my own fictional characters. RL humans aren't often attractive to me sexually or personally.
• I am receiving individual psychotherapy for a variety of psychiatric symptoms and dysfunctions which are mostly autistic in nature: excessive fear and anxiety responses, inefficiency and poor motivation, terrible self-discipline, susceptibility to exhaustion, and dread and terror about my mortality. Collectively these severely degrade my quality of life and have proven intractable despite my best efforts, so I sought external assistance.
• I find it extremely difficult to truly relax and recreate rather than deliberately work on planned objectives, so these intended leisure pursuits prove elusive. That said, my recreational interests are grand strategy (I might buy and play Star Ruler 2 soon) and MMORPG games (I really liked EVE Online, aka "Spreadsheets in Space"), watching documentaries and news and MLP, and watching artists' streams. Oh, and surfing drama sites like this one.
• I'm an enthusiast of To Catch a Predator and Hansen vs. Predator (the successor to the first). Those that he and his compatriots ensnare virtually without exception are impetuous, dimwitted, manipulative, and self-centered snots, so I like Hansen's work.
• I have a discomforting number of similarities to CWC, which might amplify my natural interest in him and his case. Some are benign, like the belated crossdressing and use of idiosyncratic terms. Some aren't, like my delayed development, horrible behavior when younger, dysfunctional parents, and the failure of the system as a whole to properly raise or care for me. I've many times uncomfortably contemplated similarities between me and him/other lolcows, how/why I eventually started to thrive, how many prime years I've lost to toxic stagnation, and whether I could have ever experienced a rapid awakening while living with my parents.
• I've composed a great deal of background and explanatory material on my fictional world and my fursona, and their world war has a long and intricate chronology. One of my great aspirations is to have made a deep and complex furry turn-based grand strategy game based on my world and its world war. It would have intricate strategic and tactical modes, something akin to a fusion of Hearts of Iron and Panzer General. It would be highly moddable and adaptable so people could play out their own stories and characters or make preferred tweaks.
• Speaking of military strategy games, I am ashamed to say that despite having an autistic fixation on military history and concepts, and fancying myself as a strategist/tactician, I tend to suck at those games- even the TBS ones. I severely struggle against the AI in Civ 5 on fucking
Prince or King difficulty. People winning Civ or AC on Deity level is MINDBLOWING to me.
• I generally prefer to listen to energetic Japanese music, particularly Touhou stuff. Whenever I hear music, my imagination is stimulated, sometimes very intensely. I feel playing music is essentially a "self-stimming" behavior.
• I dress as if I'm going to a furry convention or Pride celebration whenever I leave the house. I'm often asked if I'm an entertainer for children or going to a special function, and I respond that's my normal fashion preference.
• My fursona is this extremely peculiar combination of femboy erotic fashion model and supreme military commander for his country. I've even managed to make his experience and talents as a model realistically applicable to the latter, as his position entails charisma, elocution, and psychology as well as pure cold strategy and resource management. I actually have a commission in progress which will juxtapose those two aspects of him, and I love the countenance the artist came up with in the preliminary sketch!
• Much of my ideology would be well received by the average Kiwi. I am a proponent of rational and humane eugenics and I repudiate my right to reproduce. I think voting should be restricted to those who pass literacy and civics tests. I think the standard for mental incompetence and compulsory treatment should be much lower, a belief reinforced many times on here.
• I'm arguably a narcissist since I would totally yiff and paw off my own fursona.
I will submit this introductory post now, and I will work on responses to things which merit it while people are reading this. May this be the start of a strange and complicated, but good-natured and fulfilling, relationship!
